shawn's hands grab onto your waist and pin you against the wall. you want this, but you can't stop thinking about your sister. you are about to sleep with her boyfriend. here she was thinking that she was going to marry shawn and you are about to ruin it all. but in your defense you have liked shawn for the past three years and they have only been together for two. you have kept your feelings hidden because you didn't know how shawn felt. and you wanted your sister to be happy. she deserves to be happy. but you do too. is her being heartbroken really worth you being happy though? "shawn" you say, hearing the regretfulness in your voice. "yes baby?" thats the first time he called you that. of course he calls you baby now, he couldn't have said that five minutes ago when you weren't thinking about your sister. you dreamed about being in this position with him for so long. you knew you would regret it for the rest of your life if you walked out of this bathroom right now. but no, no no no no you can't do this. not with him. "i-i don't know if i can do this" you say with a shaky voice. he pulls away from sucking on your neck. you feel the hickey form as a look of disappointment comes across shawn's face. your hands move from his shoulders to his neck. although you've tried, you just can't seem to figure him out. does he want to fuck just because he's bored of brittany? he does seem upset so is he upset that he's not fucking anyone or is he upset that he's not going to do anything with you? what if he wants this more then anyone? maybe he has wanted you since the day he met you. what if he has only kept dating brittany because he could be around you? that would be very sweet, but also a shitty thing to do. you keep thinking about brittany but little do you know that she is the farthest thing from shawn's mind. he has had his eye on you ever since the day he met you. he has wanted you for as long as you have wanted him. he just didn't and doesn't know how to express his feelings. silence fills the room as you and shawn spend a few seconds just looking into each other's eyes, trying to see what the other person is thinking. trying to figure out what the other person wants, or needs. he breaks the silence, "but i, i thought you wanted this". what are you supposed to say back to that? "i just keep thinking about brittany, this is gonna break her" you say. "forget about brittany, this is about me and you" he says, stroking your hair. "i just don't want to hurt her" you say, looking down, avoiding eye contact with shawn. his hands haven't moved from your waist since the moment you guys started talking, which was sweet. "well" he says, kissing your cheek afterwards. "what" he kisses your neck, "do" he kisses your collar bone, "you" he kisses above your boob, "want" he says, bending down and kissing your stomach, right above your underwear. wow. you get lost in a trance as you imagine what it'd feel like to have him kissing other parts of your body. you have to have it. you have to have him. you can't say no. "you" you breathe out. "i want you" you say. he can hear the begging in your voice. it was obvious that your body wanted it, but now he knows that your mind wants it too. "i'm flattered" he says, smiling a little. you roll your eyes and smile in return. "now, let me show you what i want" he whispers while tugging at your underwear.
