Chapter 11
When I woke in the morning, Clay was spooning me from behind, his arms wrapped around me protectively. I knew he wasn't awake yet, I could hear his deep breathing in my ear, I loved the sound of his breathing when he was asleep. When I was a kid and he used to stay over I used to lay awake for ages listening to the calming sound of his rhythmic breathing.
I smiled happily as I remembered last night when he told me he loved me, and all the things that we did, the thought of them had my body already tingling in anticipation of those things that would happen again and hopefully would be happening a lot from now on. I thought about ha**ng s*x with Clay, what it would be like, whether it would hurt. I decided that I needed to get on the pill and fast because I wanted him so badly that it would only be a matter of time.
I briefly panicked that he might have changed his mind in the night but I pushed this away quickly, he wouldn't have changed his mind, that's just me starting to second guess him like I did the last two times when I said I just wanted to be friends. I knew better now, he was in love with me and I was in love with him.
I wondered what would have happened if he had told me this a year ago or two years ago, before I realised I was in love with him, would it have ruined everything then? If I didn't go away on that holiday for a month and missed him so much would I have ever realised my feelings for him? I kissed his arm that I was resting my head on, he had bent it at the elbow so that it wrapped across my body and rested on my left breast.
He unconsciously pulled his arms tighter around me which made me smile, I felt him starting to get aroused and poke into my thigh. I suppressed a giggle remembering the first time I ever felt Clay get a hard on, I had just turned 13 and he was 14. He was laying much the same as he was now, he was asleep and I was trying to get out of his arms without waking him so I could used the loo.
As I jiggled around he started to get aroused I was so shocked I gasped and tried to pull away quickly which woke him up. He looked startled and then embarrassed as hell, I'd learnt all about these things in health class and I knew that a teenage boy would easily get aroused like that especially in the mornings. I told him it was ok and that I didn't care, he'd been so upset he tried to leave so I had pushed him back onto the bed and laid next to him with my arms draped over him telling him it was ok and that I understood. I begged him to stay, eventually he was calm again, the whole time he refused to look at me.
We never spoke about it again but it happened occasionally when he stayed after that. Sometimes the feel of him poking me in the back or thigh or stomach would turn me on too, but I never ever told him that. I wondered now whether that should have given me some clue as to his feelings for me or mine for him. I shook my head at how clueless I was about it, he had been in love with me for 12 years and we'd wasted so much time.
I rubbed my ass discreetly across his erection and he groaned a little in his sleep I bit back a smile at the sound. I moved to grind him lightly again but he moved at the same time and his erection pushed lightly at my entrance making me gasp and moan quietly. It felt so good I was tempted to push down and ease it in, the desire was so strong for him it was almost impossible to fight, I bit my lip and moved away quickly, I rolled over so I was facing him.
He was still sound asleep and looked like an angel, so peaceful and beautiful. I drank him in greedily, the shape of his eyebrows, his straight nose and square jaw, his perfect kissable mouth, his lips looked so inviting that before I knew what I was doing I lent forward and kissed him gently. He stirred in his sleep and I quickly laid back down closing my eyes and faked sleep.
I felt the bed move slightly and his weight shifted I knew he was awake, I didn't move, I heard him sigh and then he traced his fingers from my temple to my jaw slowly. "You are so beautiful Riley, I love you so much" he whispered before kissing my forehead tenderly. I couldn't do it anymore, I wanted to kiss him to speak to him, but first I wanted to have a little fun with him. I cracked open my eyes to see him laying there staring at me with a contented smile on his face.
