The Darkness

Intro

The trick is to befriend it if you will, or become comfortable with it. Becoming comfortable enough with something is key to controlling it. Everything in life can be regulated or controlled by certain individuals. Everyone has a niche, something they use to distract themselves from it. And so do I; from time to time. But other times, other times are different. I control it instead of the norm. It's used to controlling me. And unfortunately, I'm used to having it control. I always knew how powerful it was I just assumed it was a parasitic relationship. It stayed dormant for a while, until it needed me and then it took control; of my emotions, my health, my friends and my family. It made everything just like itself. Dark. Cold. Lonely. But what it didn't realize was that it was giving me the opportunity to become accustomed to it. I learned it's habits. The way it liked to do things. The things it liked to feed on. (Just as it had been doing to me for years.) This was all I needed. It took a while to get up the courage to confront it. To tell it that instead of a parasite I was going to make it a partner if you will. If it was going to bother me the way it had been I was going to borrow it's power. It didn't like this idea. It attacked me. But I knew it was coming. It was quicker than initially anticipated. It's sudden anger and confusion to my unexpected actions made it mutate and grow stronger. This was a slight problem but not one I wasn't prepared to tackle. We struggled and fought back and forth for some time before coming to some sort of agreement. He was never going to leave. (I learned it was a he). He had secrets. Secrets about why he was here. Why He picked me. And that's what I needed to know. I needed to learn about myself. Who I was and who I was meant to be. We learned to select each other in a way only former mortal enemies could. He was a force to be reckoned with. I knew this. And I was one of the few humans he had come across that was able to stand toe to toe with him. So what was the deal you ask? He agreed to lend me his power and information but at a price of course. He didn't want control. Not like he used to at least. In exchange for all the things he promised me, he asked 2 things. One that he stayed, forever, and both of us knew this would happen anyways. And two that he still had an impact on my decisions, emotions, etc... I didn't necessarily have to act on them but I did have to listen. It hasn't been long since then. About a year now. He is still right here beside me. And I can say things have changed since that cold November night seemingly so long ago. I can see other people's darknesses. Their entities if you will. They pay no attention to me and most of the time it's hard to figure out why they are there. He's also affected my sense of humor. I don't get along well with people (never did to begin with so no loss there.) But there is a positive to that also. Before I couldn't understand other peoples darknesses, the way they acted, and their interactions with the entities that had attached themselves to them. But now that I have the friendship of mine I am more than comfortable with others that have these entities by their side. It's like a brotherhood or secret society if you will. This is only the beginning of my journey with him. He still tries to take control of me from time to time and he still does a damned good job of it too. But what fun would power be without some kind of down fall? Him and I both knew this road wouldn't be easy but it was one we had to travel, side by side as some sort of twisted pact. We were stuck together so we decided to make the best of it. And only time will tell where it will lead us.