Sin

~Sin 1~

“Get off me?” I yelled as I was being held by the Portland police officer. “No, we’re done with you causing trouble, you’ll be sent to a special place for a very long time.” I didn’t like the way that was said; the handcuffs just got tighter the more I struggled. The ride to this ‘special place’ was excruciating, I didn’t like it one bit, but by now I should be used to it. 

My first thought of this place I was at was ‘where the hell am I?’ The officers answered my thoughts as if he was reading my mind “Bay, this program will help you a lot; we want to put you on the right path, especially since you are so young and have so much to live for. You should be thanking us.” I just scowled and watched him as he left the room I was in.

During the time of me being there I realized just how much I missed my family and my friend Kelly, whom I'd met about a month after I moved here, she was the one that made me feel better about my life and kept me from going onto the same path my mom did, but I guess when she left I lost it all, god I hate myself for my sins.

“Hey officer?” I ask in tears “Please transfer me to Kansas, I don’t want to be in Oregon anymore.” he looks at me kindly for the first time in months “Bay, you’re almost done with the program, as soon as you’re done here we’ll have you flown there; why do you want to go there anyways?” I look at him “my best friend is there and I want to live there. Her name is Kelly, you can even contact her if you don’t believe me.” He nods and leaves the room.

Many weeks had passed and thankfully today was the day I leave this place and go to where Kelly is and see her for the first time in about 2 and a half years, I wonder if she’ll even want to see me especially after what I’ve done and my mishaps with the authorities? Of course she will, she’s my best friend, I think she’ll only be focused on the fact that I'm alive and well once again. The plane ride took what felt like forever, it felt as though every time I look at my watch the time went slower and slower. Besides how boring the flight was, it was all worth it the minute the plane landed.

There wasn’t really much of view in kansas but that didn’t bother me so much I was just ready to start my new life, not too excited about starting a new school but I know I'll be okay with Kelly by my side so i’m not really worried. The minute I see Kelly waiting for me I just couldn’t contain my excitement, I thought she wouldn’t like me so much after everything but, I guess I was wrong.

Once everything of mine was unpacked I finally lay down and attempt to get some rest, but my thoughts of relaxation were destroyed by Kelly reminding me that my first day to school with her was tomorrow; I didn’t get much sleep that night because I kept overthinking the possibilities like, ‘what will the other students there think of me?’  ‘Will the teachers there like me?’ It was just too much to be thinking about and it ended up hurting my head. Eventually, I fell asleep.