Falling (Todobakudeku) (depresseddeku)

chapter 1

(A/N it some details are not like the anime)
Izuku P.O.V
Beep Beep Bee-
i punched my alarm useing One For All. Dang it now i need a new alarm for the fifth time this week. I got up and changed into my new uniform. My first day and i kinda don't wanna go i waited so long but now i am tired and rather go to a normal high school less work and without Kacchan the bullying would die down. I stood up and rolled up my sleeves knowing what will happen when he go down stairs. He pulled out a razor and begun to cut
I am not good enough
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I have One For All but i still don't defend myself
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I will always be a worthless loser
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I did too many i can't even hurt myself correctly.
I cleaned the cuts and wrapped them up. I walked down stairs to see my dad chugging a beer down his throat.
I tried to run outside but was picked up by my book bag was then thrown across the room "Good morning to you too" i said under my breath. Heh let out a loud laugh as he began to punch me "you think you can just run away from your father?" He hissed
As he kicked me in the gut. I got up and ran faster than ever out the door i then i tripped over a boy with bi colored hair i. "Sorry i was not paying attention to my surroundings" i said as i held my stomach my father kicked me harder than usual. The boy held a hand in my face for me to grab but then decided to grab my arm instead. I yelled in pain as he held a strong grip to my arm as i felt one of the cuts open back up he looked at me in confusion as he let go. I ran into the building looking for a bathroom after 5 minutes of slowly bleeding out the gauze wrap i finally found it i sat in a stall and locked the door. I pulled a razor out of my pocket and cut a few more cuts i rewraped and washed my hands. As the boy from outside walked in. I nervously dryed my hands as he spoke"why is there blood in the stall? And why are your arms all wrapped up?" I laughed and pulled down my sleeves "uhhh my q-quirk is a b-blood quirk it works better with arm wraps." I lied only so he wouldn't know. He looked at me and left the bathroom. I walked dow the hall only to hear "DEKUUUUUUUUUUU" i grumbled and turned around only to be punched in the face and pushed to the ground as he walked away with a smirk. I stood up and whipped the blood running down my nose and walked to the  1-A classroom i opened the door and almost cried. THE BOY I LIED TO AND KACCHAN WERE THERE!!! I walked in and sat in the only seat left the one between them both and put my head down.

Todoroki P.O.V
I was walking down the street only to get pushed over to see a small cute green haired boy he quickly apologized and i tried to help him up but he was mumbling to himself so i grabbed his arm and he screamed i let go and he ran i soon ran after him to apologize for hurting him i walked in the bathroom to see him washing is hands. His arms wrapped up and blood in the stall when i asked him he said it was because of a quirk i soon left but could only think something was off. He walked in the classroom to my surprise but looked sad very sad. He took the only seat left in front of me and put his head down

(TIME SKIPPING TO TWO WEEKS BUT THEY ARE IN DORMS BECAUSE IT IS PLOT CONVENIENCE) 

IZUKU P.O.V
Somehow Todoroki believes i have a hidden blood quirk. I walk in my new dorm room and drop all my stuff at the door T-TODOROKI A-AND K-KACCHAN!?! Kacchan and Todoroki smirked i can't believe i said that out loud i blushing and made my way to the bunk bed and put my stuff in the drawer i accidentally kicked my bag as about 20 razors fell out Todoroki looked at the floor to see what fell as Kacchan stood there frozen i tried to pick them up when something even worse happend the one in my pocket fell. I could have lied about the new clean razors but as the one covered in dried blood fell it was over. I rushed even faster. Maybe they didn't notice. I felt a arm go around my waist "k-Kacchan w-what are you doing." I said trying to get out his grip he then said something that made my hart drop "Todoroki search his bag" he called him by his actual name i tried even harder to get out of his grip but nothing worked Todoroki begun to pull
knives,razors,drawings of me dead,a fake ID, a pack of cigarettes,and my diary. Todoroki begun to the book."STOP PLEASE S-STOP LEAVE ME ALONE ITS NOT O-OF YOUR CONCERN"i yell in a desperate act to stop them. Kacchan placed me on the top bunk and Todoroki made a thick ice wall i realized my phone was on the desk and i cried i could only watch as my secrets and personal stuff were gone through.
Todoroki read the diary out loud
"Another day of bullying and i am tired of it all i am going to end myself in a month" "i got everything i dreamt of but i still am sad." "I like two people in my class but one hates me and the other pretends i don't exist." Todoroki looked up at me and cried. It was not like him to even show emotion i yelled again a Kacchan grabed my phone.
(This is for older viewers warning)

"JUST STOP PLEASE YOU DON'T KNOW THE PASSWORD ANYWAY!" ...he typed my mom's death date in the phone and it opend. He look threw mortified at what he saw videos of me getting beat relentlessly by my dad but you couldn't see his face me being tortured and raped. I cried louder begging for them to stop they watched each video as the cry and held there hand over there mouths. I sat there as they looked up at me and back at the phone shame and embarrassment ran through me the last one was me singing with a gun at my head
It plays and i gag at the memory
"Y-you are my s-s-sunshine my only sunshine"

the video continued in the video my face was puffy and my eyes were red. I spoke "T-that was when my mom died  they held a gun to my head and made me sing as i stared at my m-moms lifeless body....heh...hahahahah" i was laughing as tears fell Todoroki melted the wall and hugged me Kacchan picked me up and rolled up my sleeves i was only laughing. He unwrapped the bandage and cried an uncountable number of new and old cuts were engraved in my arm they just hugged me "we will talk about this later" Todoroki said with sadness covering his face...

--LATER---
It was 2:00 AM and i couldn't move i was trying to get up but something strong was holding me down i tried to move my legs only to be completely stuck i then realized it was Todoroki and Kacchan. The more i moved the tighter the grip. Kacchan smirked "you can't leave ya weak nerd" he said...it was oddly comforting. I blushed and turned around only to see Todoroki grinning i jerked around because I WAS IN BED WITH PERVS...i lied saying i had to use the bathroom so they would let me free. I quickly and quietly grabbed a extra set of clothes and changed i put my ID and the clothes in my bag and left quickly.
I arrived the bar after 15 minutes of walking i bought 5 rounds of vodka... I got up and left after changing i never drank That Much  i was drunk as i walked to the dorm i tip toed in but i was kinda loud due to...well...BEING DRUNK! I opened the door to see Todoroki Azawa AND Kacchan sitting there..."well shit" i said in a slurred drunken tone. I turned at the door and ran stumbling and tripping as all of 1A IS FREAKING CHASING ME. I fell in the ditch and Azawa grabbed me i was waiting to be yelled at but instead i was hugged...

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