30 Days with You [ChanBaek]✔️

CHAPTER 7

I caught up to him that day but he didn’t believe my explanation, he said that I’m just a big liar. He said that I just kept his hopes up, he thought that I finally like him but no. He was hurt. He doesn’t know that I’m also hurt when he started ignoring me after the happenings that day.

I tried talking to him that I never wanted that kiss and that I was also surprised that happened. I talked him to it that I don’t have any feelings for Dara anymore and that it’s just a coincidence that she was also at the same place and time but he was really hurt that day so he didn’t believe me. I followed him every day at school, I kept on pestering him but he just ignored me and didn’t glanced my way. I’m lonely, I miss him.

I don’t know what to do for him to believe me.

“Dude, you look like a wrecked.” Kai greeted me when he arrived, I just nodded without glancing at him. I was in my own little world while looking outside the window and my mind running with thoughts – thoughts about that boy.

“Wow, are you taking care of your eyebags? When was the last time you slept?” Kai gained my attention when he played with the dark circles under my eyes, the results of can’t sleep because of that boy.

“Stop pestering me, dude,” I said irritatingly while swatting his hand away. He raised both his arms in a surrender way and said, “Woah dude, relax. What’s your problem that you’re not in the mood these past few days?”

“Nothing.”

Kai sat at the vacant seat beside me, since my seatmate is not here yet. “Is it because of that boy?”

“How did you know?” I was surprised that Kai knew since I didn’t tell him about my growing feelings towards that boy. I look at the hand he placed on my shoulder and to him who was smiling widely.

“You’re so easy to read, dude. You think it’s not that obvious how you’ve gotten close to that boy? This is the first time I witness you be in a relationship with someone this long, no two-timing or whatever. This is the first time I saw you this serious with a boy, Chanyeol.”

“Argh,” I messed up my hair using my hands before smack my head on my desk. “What should I do, dude, he’s ignoring me because of a misunderstanding! He’s not letting me sleep, I can’t calm myself because of him! I miss that boy!”

“Cool,” I looked up at him when he said that. I was irritated when I saw him smirking at me like he was enjoying my tragic life.

“What do you mean ‘cool’?!”

“Welcome back to the world of love, the most complicated thing in the world, Chanyeol,” he raised his arm like he’s opening a door and welcoming me in. His face is so serious while he’s spouting corny lines from his mouth, I laughed at his silliness after I punched him jokingly on his arm.

“You’re crazy!”

Kai gave me advice on how that boy can forgive me.

I took my guitar, borrowed a mic from the choir club and asked someone to make me a big banner that says….

“I LOVE YOU!”

I also asked some helped from my friends to make sure that the boy will pass by on the middle of the campus during dismissal, so he can see and hear the song dedicated to him. I spent the whole afternoon in composing a song about the things I want to say.

I only practiced for a short while, that’s why the next day, I was already standing on the mini stage that we built the whole day in the middle of the campus. In front of many people, my palms are sweating, I’m so nervous. I felt a pain in my stomach and I want to puke, it’s not like I’m not used to many people, it’s just that, my pride and my love is at stake here.

“W-what are you doing? I said I’m going home!” I heard him shout so I looked for him despite the crowd gathering. He was being held by my friends on both arms and getting close to where I am, he stopped struggling when he saw me in front of him. Lay and Kai finally let go of him and distance themselves from the both of us.

I grasped the mic tightly, and looked him in the eyes while feeling my cheeks warming up. He just stood there while staring at me, confusingly and waiting for what will happen next. The crowd was silent around us, also waiting for my next move.

“H-hey!” many people covered their ears from my sudden shout on the mic. Even I was surprised on how loud I said that. I mentally face-palmed while looking down, I can’t look at him because of shame. I can almost kiss the mic because of it so close to my lips, when I decided to speak once again but this time, like a whisper.

“Hey boyfie, I’m sorry. Please believe my explanation about what you saw the other day. I hope you believe me when I tell you that,” I looked up at him and stared at his eyes, while he was waiting for what I’ll say next, “I love you.”

He clasped both of his hands on his mouth, his eyes glistened with tears and little by little flowed down from his eyes when I finally started strumming the song I composed to him.

When you were here before

Couldn’t look you in the eye

You’re just like an angel

Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather

In a beautiful world

And I wish I was special

You’re so fuckin special

But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo.

What the hell am I doing here?

I don’t belong here.

I don’t care if it hurts

I want to have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I’m not around

You’re so fuckin special

I wish I was special

But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don’t belong here

He’s running out again,

He’s running out

He’s run run run run

Whatever makes you happy

Whatever you want

You’re so fuckin special

I wish I was special

But I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo

What the hell am I doing here?

I don’t belong here

I don’t belong here

(Creep by Radiohead)

After the last strum of the song, I removed the guitar and ran to him and hugged him tightly, “I’m sorry! Please come back to me. I really really love you!”

I heard him say, “You’re so irritating!”

He pulled slightly away from our hug and look up at me. Even though his face is wet from tears, there is that rectangular smile that I love on his lips. “You irritate me so much, you messed up the last part!” he chuckled.

I chuckled at him, never letting go from our hug. “Forget it, what’s important is the effort. Didn’t you want me to sing for you infront of many people and prove that I you’re my boyfriend? There you go, the whole campus now know that you are the only one I love. The playboy prince sang to you.”

“Thank you Yeol,” I can never forget the tears of joy from his smiling face. His happiness spread like a disease. That the crowd started clapping and cheering for us. I wished during that time that this happiness will last just like the ocean, it never ends.