I'm not the only one ( COMPLETE)

When my world shattered into thousand pieces

It's been 3 years when I and love of my life took vows infront of God to love and cherish at all the times, no matter if it was  good or bad.He brought me out of the darkness, he taught me how to love. Love was all I was scared of, I hated the term love. But he came into my life and made me realise that I can love him by overcoming my insecurities and fear.

I am at the hospital right now, I was not feeling well from past weeks and I am hoping for some good news, that I have been waiting for a long time.  I hope God will bless me with your love again.

"You are 3 months pregnant, Mr Park" Doctor said.I couldn't hide my happiness and joy and said thank you to the doctor.

The doctor told me it's my 3 months and the chances of having a miscarriage are high and i have to stay away from all kinds of stress , but if I go to my next month the  chances will reduce significantly. I called my best friend Sehun to share the good news. He was really happy and I'm at   my way back to our house, my home, my world.

I don't know how will chanyeol react to this news, I am sure he will go crazy out of happiness and joy. I just want a baby that will be his mirror image of him.

I got a text from sehun.

"Baekiee, I am here for you all the time, now I have two people to take  Care of, I'm so happy , let me know when you reach home and congratulations to both of you again"
      - SEHUN

I just got out of my car, on my way i bought a cake for channie,I have the sonogram picture of our little one. I just want to thank God for everything.
I will go to church tomorrow to thank the one who was always there for me.

I was in the elevator when I felt something is not good, I felt this weird feeling, and I am aware that  a time getting  this feelings means something  bad can happen. I left the thought in the elevator and touched my flat tummy.

"Baby you will be meeting for father now, I'm sure he will love you as he loves me" I was smiling and was thinking of  when I will be holding you for the first time when you will come to this world to complete my small world of my own.

I opened the gate,it was weird when I saw chanyeol shoes and someone else shoes too.Maybe some of his colleagues have accompanied him. I kept the cake on the dining table, I lighted the candles and kept the picture of our baby next to it. I was so happy I couldn't stop smiling.I went to our bedroom and I opened the door.

What if I say the thing I feared the most happened to me, what if I say all of my insecurities and fear were in front of me. I never wanted to fall in love because of this thing but it happened to me too. She always told me that what happened with her will never happen to me.  But it's true it happened to me also, I was betrayed just like my mother. I was broken into pieces just like her. I felt the same pain and heartbreak like her. I was just crying like her.

"Who are you?" A guy asked me as he was sleeping beside chanyeol on our bed, on my bed.Chanyeol woke up slowly and saw me.

" Mr can you leave us," I asked

"Who are you to tell me to leave, its chanyeol house" He said.

"Minhyuk leave"Chanyeol said loudly.
He got scared, he dressed up and left us alone, I could hear the door being shut.

I went downstairs, I was contemplating what all I just saw, I pinched My self....  maybe it was one of my nightmares I had.But no...it's not.....because I can feel the pain in my heart, its like someone is poking my heart with thousand of needles at the same time, it was like my heart was being led on the bed of needles. It was killing me , I wanted to die. I felt weak and took the support of a near by wall to stand up.