I'm not the only one ( COMPLETE)

TIME

It's one year since my life was shattered into pieces, I'm still trying to collect them all but "once the thread of trust is broken it's never the same"
It's been a year and a lot of things have happened, I divorced him. I wanted to be free as its was killing me.

Cause looking at him was suffocating for me, the trust I had was broken into pieces and burned into ashes. He was not ready for it, he asked me for one more chance but I knew it will happen again cause it happened again with my mother.Chanyeol was not ready to let me go, but suddenly after two months of all the stress, he agreed to let me go. Although I know the reason as well, minhyuk was pregnant, he was expecting chanyeol child, how can he gave this chance of having a family again, he never loved me...
And even if he did he didn't love the way I did.Our marriage was not like a consummate love where there were love, passion and commitment, he broke my trust but then also he has someone with him and even a family with a child.

But here I am all alone, after my divorce I let myself drown in work to let go all the pain and suffering. It's not all over but times really heal you, but the pain is far less than a year ago. I have been working on my second exhibition. After my divorce my first exhibition was a real hit, it was liked by everyone, critics appreciated it.

But no one knows it was my
heart that was being showcased in that exhibition, all my painting were shades of grey and black. Everyone asked me the reason for that but....
W

hat could I say my heartbreak, my failed marriage and the biggest loss of losing my child.

All that way being showcased.

It's been a year,baby when I lost you, I really miss you, every day I think about you, even after what all happened if I could have you, I would have been the Happiest person. Baby mommy loves you and will love you always. ALWAYS

I left the flowers ( white rose) near the tree, SEHUN made me plant a tree in his garden so that we can remember my baby, I did it cause I wanted to have something that will remind me of my child, so I did it. Every time I feel sad I come here, I sit under the tress and it makes me happy to remember you, you must be with God, he will love you. Even if I can not.

"Hey" sehun said.

"Hello, how are you?" I asked

"I'm good and here are my two favourite people," he said.
He kept the bouquet of red roses next to mine. He sat next to me. Sehun was always there when I was vulnerable, he helped me a lot.
We sat in silence for a while.

"So how's your work," he asked.

"Fine," I said with a smile.

"Although I know you hate this topic baekhyun ,I will still talk about it. It's been one year, chanyeol has moved on its time for you too, it's not healthy for your mind, you have been engrossed in work all the time if you don't even want to listen to me, at least think about him, he will be really happy to see his mommy happy" sehun said.I nodded at him and gave him a smile.

"You know once the trust is broken it's broken, and now I don't trust anyone when it comes to the same kind of relationship. And I know my baby wants me to move on but it's really hard" I started crying when suddenly a leaf fall on my head. And there was a cool breeze that touched my face.

"Baby I know you don't like when I cry, I will try baby if it makes you happy " I was touching the leaf that came to me.

Sehun looked at me and gave me a heartwarming smile. I thought someone would be really blessed if he will get sehun as his or her life partner, he was a amazing man. I just want sehun to settle down and have love in his life. He was never in a relationship but I knew he liked someone as he told me, he was about to confess to him but then he didn't. I really pity the person, he just missed the best man he or she could have ever dreamed of.We were sitting there and enjoy the cool breeze.