The library is quiet, I can hear Blake breathing beside me since it's that silent. I've been finishing my coursework for my English essay, I've been writing bullshit for hours upon end which is in fact making my brain go to mush.
I hear giggling across the room, I roll my eyes hoping they'd shut up, It's a library you're supposed to be quiet.
"Dylan stop it!" I hear a high pitched voice laugh, my heart stops as I look over to see my ex Dylan and some red head practically having sex on the couch. She's on one of his knees facing him and he's kissing her neck with his hands on her thighs
It obviously still hurts because I was with him for two years and he throws it away like it was nothing.
"Wanna get out of here?" Blake nudges me gently giving me a sweet sincere smile
"Yes please" I give him a smile trying to hold in my tears, I won't shed another tear of that piece of shit as Blake said he doesn't deserve them.
I put my laptop and my books into my bag quickly collecting all my supplies and dumping them into my bag not caring that i'll have to organise it later on
We walk through the neatly organized rows of books going towards the exit, I kindly smile at the security guard as we walk out the door
"Are you okay?" He asks noticing my change in behaviour, I haven spoken in the whole 10 minutes we've been walking I guess I've just been in my head overthinking everything
"Yeah" I weakly smile trying to reassure him
"Don't lie" he interrupts me as we're walking back to our apartment
"I'm not" he keeps his eyes on me as I try and focus on the floor
"I know you are"
"Well you're wrong" I lightly giggle trying to make him change his mind, how does he know this? Can he read my mind? Is he reading my mind right now?
"I won't leave your side until you tell me what's wrong" he says, I know Blake like the back of my hand and what he's saying is true. The other day he said he wouldn't put me down on the floor until I admitted he's the king of making pasta and me being myself didn't call him that so he carried me around for 4 hours until I admitted it.
"Nothings wrong its just annoying that Dylan would just do that in front of me it's so disrespectful"
"At least you know what he's really like now and he treated you like shit, he doesn't deserve you and he never did"
"I need no mans I'm an independent woman" I joke, Blake is the best person at cheering me up.
"Cmon let's go home and watch sponge bob reruns" he childishly smiles warming my heart
What did I do to deserve Blake as my best friend, I'm convinced he's an angel who was sent from heaven to look after me.
I feel droplets if water fall onto my face, I look up at the sky and notice its pitch black outside I groan knowing its about to start pouring down with rain any second
"Today is not my day" I fake laugh as it suddenly starts chucking it down with rain, I actually think the weather depends on my mood...am I Mother Nature?
"I have an umbrella" Blake opens his backpack and opens the umbrella but the thing is it's really little "Here you have it" he passes it to me and I reject
"No because you'll get all wet and sick" I pass it back to him, I don't like when people give things to me when it can help them
"I don't care though"
"But I do" I say being the overprotective person I am, I'm not stopping until he has that umbrella in his dumb hands.
"How about we share it then?" He gives up and I smile with a nod, he holds the umbrella and I link my arm with his
I cling onto his arm because he's my only heat source at the moment because the I'm only wearing a white shoulder-less top and some leggings because I was at the gym earlier.
The walk from the library to our apartment is only like a ten minute walk so even if we didn't have an umbrella we wouldn't be that cold for a while
I run into the apartment building and try to make it to the elevator first but Blake is quickly running behind me awkwardly closing the umbrella trying not to fall over his own feet
"I wanna press the button" He says walking into the elevator behind me and we're both standing in front of the buttons
"But I wanna press the button" we both look at each other deciding who gets too press the button
"You pushed the button last time! It's my turn!"
"Are we really arguing about this? I got in the elevator first, so I'll push the button!" I defend myself
"No, I will!" He stands closer too me looking down trying to act intimidating but all I can see is the smile which he's trying to hide
"Are you sure about that pal?" I slap my hand against the 4th button
"I can't believe you just did that"
"What can I say I am a rebel"
We awkwardly run to our apartment, the kinda run where you're soaking wet from the rain and you don't want to slip but also all your clothes are sticking to your body so you're just a mess...yeah that kind of run
"It's like -50 degrees in here" I shiver running to my bedroom to get a change of clothes because at the moment I feel like a soggy rat
"It's colder in here than it is outside"
"Fuck" I loudly say opening to wardrobe to reveal I have no hoodies which are clean. that's the best part of the day coming home and putting on a hoodie and feeling all cosy
"What's up" He peaks through my door to reveal me in sweatpants and a vest top
"All my hoodies are dirty" I sigh walking out of my room with my bunny slippers on and I make my way to the couch to watch sponge bob reruns.
I turn on the tv and try to make myself warm my cuddling the pillow
"Here" Blake says passing me his grey USLA hoodie I put it over my body and it's like a dress on me it's that big, it's smells like his cologne and him which calms me down.
I bring the overly-long sleeves of the sweater down to cover their hands but let the end of my fingers stick out
He runs to his room and returns with his blanket from his bed, it also smells like him mixed with washing detergent.
"You did have t-"
"Shush were watching spongebob" he sits down next to me causing the couch to sink lightly, he pulls the blanket and puts it over the both of us
I gently lean on him in a friend way, my head against his arm, I love nights like this we're we just chill and enjoy each other's company even if we're just sitting in silence
