The Gray Olympian

Nightmares

Tartarus Thats were I am at this moment. I was locked in the Primordial Nyx's castle. The sick entity walked in with Oceanus and the being of the pit themselves. Nyx had a wip in hand. She startes beating me like it was an everyday experience. Oceanus and Tartarus walked out to me and started hitting me in the stomach. "Wait up" Tartarus said everything stopped I felt a little pain but not enought to trigger anything. Tartarus hit my stomach again "Shes got padding on" I do? Nyx unlocked the shackles and ripped my shirt off. As said under there was some leather padding from Nico. They ripped that off and chained me back up. 

I was left in my shorts and bra showing the beings the small scars here and there. "I dont think she beat up enough" Oceanus snarled like I wasn't even here. 

"Agreed" Nyx smiled. She handed a dagger to Oceanus who promptly started craving his name into me. I bit my lip in refusal to give them the pleasure of seeing me scream. This continued for days on end. Different entities marking their territory on my skin, constant beatings with a wip or being punched and kicked, my once pale unmarked skin was now covered in red streaks blood and bruises. The worst though was when I was stabbed with a dagger coated in a purple substance. Gods it hurt worse the backbiter. I soon realized that I was poisoned. I prayed to my mother and Grandfather to please send me to Eslyiam with my fallen friends. but I was healed so I could  continue to suffer. 

"Listen here bitch" Nyx said grabbing my hair to make me look at her. my face was covered in dirt and blood. "If this place is what your 'heros' say their for then your just like us. A MONSTER and you belong here. How many people has your presents slaughtered? How many did you fail to save? Your a weapon. Your just like us Addison Stark a monster when have the gods ever showen that they care for you their great hero? How many do you know would turn down godhood for you?" she stopped cackling. 

"No thats not true I'm a worrier I'm no monster. I save people and fight for them i dont try to kill them" I yelled back in protest but I knew it was right. 

"Oh yes you are. The gods loved your power not you. Dear no matter what you're just a weapon to them. Stay here I'll protect you I wont use you or send you in to battle to honor me I'll give you my blessing and you can stay here with me and my husband. You never have to suffer again." She looked motherly in that moment pleading even. I looked at the primordial in wonder and confusion. She placed a hand on my cheek "Your tired aren't you, you dont want this anymore you want to rest". I had to remember that it was a trick if Nyx got me she'd be just like everyone else. If Iwas gonna be used I wanted to be used on the side of good.

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I bolted awake in a cold sweat. Realizing I was in the Avengers compound and not Tartarus led to me flopping back on the bed in tears. I curled myself around my pillow. I was trying to will the tears away. I am not weak, I am not a monster. I repeated this over and over in my head. I pulled the blanket over my head a tried to stop the flashbacks. 

There was a knock on my door "Addie ?" 

I peak out from under my blanket and see Wanda at the door. "Yes?" I asked steadying my voice. 

She walked over to my bed and sat on the edge, "I was walking by since I couldnt sleep and I heard you scream. It's just us on the floor so I dont think anyone else heard." 

"I'm sorry I just had a nightmare" my cheeks burn red in embarassment. 

"Hey it's okay I get them too" I smile at the girl who was only a year older then me. "I'm gonna let you get back to sleep." 

I reach out and grab her wrist "please stay I just dont think I can be alone right now"

Without a word she slid in to bed next to me and let me cuddle into her side. She played with the ends of my hair. "I get them about my brother dying and when we were experiments" I stuttered wanting to tell her but I knew I couldn't. "You dont have to tell me" the sound of her heart beat and her breathing lulled me to sleep in no time. "Goodnight" I heard her whisper as I drifted off into a peaceful sleep.