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You two just weren't working out at all.

You both knew each other even before you two joined the agency. You previously worked in the Port Mafia. He a former executive while you were a low ranking mafioso. When he left the mafia for his own reasons you left shortly afterwards for your own reasons as well.

You two met again when you joined the Armed Detective Agency. You two didn't talk to each other as if you were in a criminal organization, but as normal civilians.

The relationship between you and Dazai then began. You two were very much in love, the love that you shared was like a newly bloomed flower. When you two spent more time with each other it was at the early stage of a flower bud. You were, of course, was very happy. Dazai appeared more joyful around you, even people at the agency started noticing the change in his demeanor. Dazai stopped talking about suicide and his attempts at it, instead he talked about how you were worth living for. He did make jokes about a double suicide with you but you declined his offer many times. He was reborn as a new person, he often dramatically proclaimed his love for you every day. Kunikida always ended up telling him to shut up since he was distracting him from his work. Still, the agency members congratulated you on your relationship and some of them gave you small gifts which you happily accepted.

Even though your love was a fully bloomed flower, even flowers wilt until they fall apart and disappear from life. Your love slowly began to deteriorate and you two began to distance yourselves apart.

It was only a year later and you two didn't interact as much as you did in the past. The dates you often went on always daily turned into only the weekends. The apartment you shared with him the atmosphere was now awkward and you two were often in separate rooms avoiding one another. The only words you said now were a fake "I love you" and "How was your day?" but that was about it. Even sharing the bed felt like you were suffocating from the silence in the air. He often faced away from you and left a huge gap between you two. It felt so empty, your heart began aching because you didn't know what was happening to your relationship with Dazai.

What's even worse is that you two had to go to work together. When the love began to fall apart, both of you smiled at your co-workers like nothing was wrong between you both. Then you gave up smiling and brought the atmosphere from home to the workplace. Now everyone noticed the change in behavior in you and Dazai. They noticed the tension between you both and didn't want to interfere with what's going on, but they did notice that Dazai's demeanor had changed again.

It was now time to go home, you both clocked out and made your way to your small apartment. It was a silent short walk back but you just accepted the fact it's going to be like this. Finally, at home, you cooked a small meal for both of you, but you didn't even bother eating so you packed it into the fridge. You quickly changed into a nightgown and went to bed early that night.

Hearing a noise next to you, you opened your eyes and saw him lay down on the bed in the same position as always, facing the wall not facing you. You noticed that he didn't even bother changing into his sleepwear and he remained in his button-up shirt and pants along with his trench coat. Then you heard him mumble something.

"Goodnight."

It was brief but quiet, you then replied, "Likewise."

Then you pulled the covers over you and closed your eyes and then letting sleep engulf you, you soon were dreaming.

-the next day-

It was raining that morning, hearing the light tapping against the window. It was a raining even during spring. You felt the cold air surround you, you shivered and covered yourself with more of the blanket. You felt the empty space next to you, he was gone again this morning. It was Saturday morning and you usually would find him snuggling up against you, but sadly that wasn't the case. Your hand slide across the sheets to where Dazai's place was, it felt faintly warm to your touch. You moved over to where he slept and grabbed the pillow bringing it closer to you. His scent was still there and you desperately wanted this back in your life.