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Slamming the door behind me, i make my way towards the bed gazing at the items sprawled across the comforter.

I bend over and reached for the bottle of happy pills, and plop my butt down on the edge, flipping the container multiple times as I blanked on how i was gonna execute this whole ordeal.

My eye's widen as i remember that theres a tall abandoned hotel at the edge of the city, my body starts to feel tingly with excitement and eagerness.

Imagine me, Namjoon Kim going out with a bang, so much drama as I exit this house, imagine the tears and sadness they're going to feel and be one with.

A lazy smirk etched onto my exhausted face, that was perfect idea.

I push myself off the bed and make my exit, slipping the bottle in my back pocket beside my wallet, i lift my gaze from the ground when i make it the the bottom of the stairs, looking to see if my note was still on the ground, and it was.

I pick it up and head towards the living room, spotting all the members, i think of how this couldn't be better.

"Jungkook."

He turns with a questioning look across his features, "Yea hyung?"

"Here-." I say as I throw the note at this face, I immediately see him flinch as a shriek emits from his mouth.

"And fuck this, im killing myself!" I say in a cheerful voice, sounding so happy as i turn my back on the boys, i hear a shout of 'what the fuck hyung!' As i shut the door.

Taking in a deep breath i make my way down the steps and trot along the sidewalk into the distance.

Jjk's POV

I peal open the so called 'last letter' after hyung slams the outside door shut.

All my mates rush to the door screaming and flipping their shit, his words on repeat making me a nervous and anxious wreck.

Finally getting the letter open i scan it as quickly as i can,

"From the first day I remember to this very moment, you and your presence was always involved.

My thoughts and actions strive on your likes and dislikes.

To the way i eat, sleep, and even smile is because of your judgement, and most people my age strive for your approval, but most never get it."

I start to tear up and make a sour face
'What, why is-'

"You realized how powerful you are didn't you, your criticizes and negative comments fly out in the atmosphere to come down and penetrate anyones heart like a spear."

' how is hyung able to write like this?'

"Every syllable so painfully harsh, that anyone could feel the agony and wrath of your right but so wrongfully created sentences.

I cannot stress enough about what you have done to countless lives-"

I start to shake violently and my mind going to mush.

"And I'm going to end it here and now, my existence, my sadness, my stress, my emotions, relationships, bonds."

'What-'

"Good bye and so long dear humans, for i have ended my pain, pain that onc-"

"Hyung!" I drop the letter and shout loudly as i take off out the dorm door in a rushed mess, my mind barely processing my past and current actions.

Whiplash seemed prominent as I finished my weird and quick turning back and for looking for my hyung.

But no human is in sight, i turn only to realize that I stopped mid turn and seen the floor becoming bigger and bigger as everything else dissolved out of sight and soon it was light's out.

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So I finally got motivation to write a little bit, ik its not much.

So i wont be telling you anytime a chapter will come out because i feel that I cannot remain consistent on writing,

Peace