The Protective Boyfriend

About the ex...

 Joseph and I was laying in bed talking and I told him about my abusive ex and he felt, and I quote, “I wanted to kill him” and honestly it’s the same for me, but I am grateful for K, my ex, on one thing for not working out because now I met the love of my life. 

I was a bit nervous
“hey can I talk to you?... it’s kinda personal.. Heh..”
Joseph replied calmly
“yeah, what is it?”
I tried not to cry as I explained
“I have an ex and he… use to abuse me..”
I could see the anger in his face
“does he still come around?”
I was crying a bit, trying to say between sobs
“sometimes..”
I could see the now furious glace in his eyes while he said trying to seem calm
“where can I find him?”
Me, not knowing what to say, just sat there hiding my face so Joseph couldn’t see me cry. I guess he noticed bc he said, in his calm voice
“we don’t have to talk about it, I’m just curious. I don't want anyone to hurt you anymore.” 
I wiped the tears away and smiled while saying
“I’m fine, I just don’t like talking about him”
He knew I wasn’t okay, but he just went along with it.
‘I always kept to myself, it’s been like that since I was young, and I don’t want to bother him with my problems... even if we are dating...’
I thought to myself. We went on and talked all day until Joseph fell asleep in my arms. I smiled as I whispered
“Goodnight darling. Sweet dreams, not bad ones.”
I paused, trying not to cry, then continued to say
“I will always protect you my love, just as you do for me.”
I took one last glanced at Joseph then forced myself to go to sleep also, holding him tightly in my arms. I always had a pain in my heart when she kept things from him or his things, her body would go numb, all emotions would be drained, and she would have to hold back tears. I knew that I could talk to Joseph about anything, but I'm just worried about scaring him off.