CanEm - My one true love

I remember you.

*This is how I imagine the plot to go on after the car crash in episode 47 of Erkenci Kuş. This is my first story so bear with me and enjoy!*

'Can?', she said with the softest voice before tears started streaming down her face. Can was alive, he opened his eyes. He opened his eyes but they were empty, she jumped into his arms and hugged him tightly but nothing came back, no reaction, no hug, no cheek kiss that he usually added to their hugs. 'I'm sorry hanım efendi, who are you?' This was the very moment where Sanem's heart dropped. Her mouth was dry and the thickening in her throat made it hard for her to swallow his words. He didn't remember her. She stood up and left the room without saying anything. The second she closed the door behind her she slumped to the ground, her lungs searching for air unsuccessfully. 'Sanem?!' Everyone outside the room started screaming as they ran up to her. 'He cannot remember me.. he CANNOT remember me, he..' her words were cut off by the cry she let out. Her chest was rising, grasping for air. It felt like someone was ripping her heart out repetitively and squeezing her lungs together all at once. Leyla immediately sat down next to her, moving the hair out of her face and taking her into her arms while Mihriban searched for a bottle of water in her handbag. But before anyone could say anything, Sanem passed out, her weight falling onto Leyla like a domino stone. Everyone started panicking, approaching Sanem and they instantly called the doctors for help.

'Anne, anne, anne', a curly haired girl shouted with a heartwarming voice, 'bak biz babamizla neler yaptık!' ('look what we have done with dad') Sanem was wearing a silk pajama and was surrounded by their three kids Deniz, Yıldız and Ateş. Can was holding a wooden tray in his hands. There were heart-shaped pancakes on a flowery plate, orange juice on the top right-hand corner next to the plate and a small vase with many marguerites and daisies at the top left-hand corner of the tray. The pancakes were covered with honey and raspberries, just the way Sanem liked them. 'Yaaa Can..' Sanem said placing her palms on his cheeks and slowly caressing his beard and his earlobes with her fingers. His lips came down to hers while still holding the tray in his hands. Their children were smiling from ear to ear and jumped onto the bed to hug their parents tightly.

'Saneeem ablacım n'olur uyan!' ('please wake up!') she heard Leyla panicking right above her ear. She was leaning to her right side, 'Can?!', she called out desperately, hoping he is there and they are still surrounded by their three kids. Instead she found herself in a hospital bed surrounded by their families when she opened her eyes. Can wasn't there and her feelings came crushing over her again. Her right hand started trembling uncontrollably, like all the times a storm stirred up inside of her when he was gone for a year. She looked up and her eyes met her parents' eyes. She started shouting at them, blaming them for all the drama they had caused and for the accident. If they had accepted him, their love and decisions in the first place all of this wouldn't have happened. She was devastated and felt so powerless all at once. She turned to her dad and said, 'Mutlumusun baba? Canım çıktı artık, sen mutlumusun şimdi?' ('Are you happy dad? My soul has left my body, are you happy now?') She was referring to the hurtful father-daughter conversation they had in her parents' bedroom. She was on the verge of a mental breakdown, histerically crying and trembling. Leyla took Sanem in her arms, holding her tightly while the Aydins, Aziz, Mihriban, Emre and Hüma left the room. Leyla tried to comfort her and kept hugging her all the time until at some point Sanem was so tired and weak from all the crying that she fell asleep. The following days were torture for her, he was so close but yet so far. She saw all of her dreams vanishing right before her eyes and felt so helpless because she couldn't do anything about it. The doctors and therapists tried their best to fully bring back his memory but Can's progress stopped at some point. He remembered the company, his family, Ceycey and even Leyla, but he could not remember Sanem or anything linked to her. After re-charging all of her powers she tried to reach out to him, to tell him stories of what they had been through-the good and the bad moments. But he couldn't recall any of those moments. Ever since Can lost his memory during that car accident, Sanem had gone out of her way to bring back every memory of their love, to make him remember her..to make him remember them. Everything was in vain though. She accepted the offer that a giant cosmetics company made her before the series of events took their toll on them, in order to be able to pay the company rent. He got his car back, although she was still traumatized by just the mere thought of him sitting in a car ever again after the accident. She went back to being his çay-girl and endured all of the women surrounding him like he was a single man. There was nothing that she left untried but he was just slipping through her fingers..