A Court of please let this be the book storyline

Nesta's PoV

It had been days since Cassians offer, and I... missed him? Not in some lovers way, but I missed having someone to scream at, even if it had lasted only a few minutes.

I knew that even if I wanted to accept it, he probably wouldn't let me at this point. I've done enough to him and his family, and he probably went off in a rage just to

discover that. But I can't help to wonder... what if? Sure, I hate the whole species, but maybe it would finally show them that they needed to stay away.

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A week passed by, no news from Cassian. I had decided that if he truly wanted me to come with him, I would go with him. Of course, I didn't give an actual shit

about him or the other overgrown bats, but it's what I need to do to keep them away. How long will it take for him to come back and recieve my answer...? Or will he

even come back...? I think that if he doesn't come back in two days, I'll go looking for him.

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After the two days had passed, I still hadn't recieved word. I gather my things, sniffing them to see if i really had lost my scent. Yup. With one more look around, I

step outside, sniffing. I only want to sniff around my road, find out if he's been here lately.

An hour of sniffing, checking around, and I've come up with nothing. If he isn't here tomorrow, I'll check the sorrounding blocks. With a defeated huff, I stalk back

up to my front door and walk in. Stupid bat.

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For three days, I wake up at dawn and sniff around, but not a hint of his scent. Each day, I spend over an hour searching for his scent, disappointed each day. I look

around, disappointed with myself for suddenly caring. Why do I care oh so fucking much? You made a deal with yourself, and you are breaking it. You've watched enough

people die thanks to you, so stop looking. I look up, and I'm already half way home. Huh. Tomorrow you check that town house.

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The next day, I go to the house first thing in the morning. When I walk through the door, the mating bond between my sister and her mate practically burns my nose.

I cross to the chairs and couch, but his scent isn't there, which tells me I probably won't find it anywhere else. I check the wine celler first, and then the kitchen. Not

a single bit of him. I start towards his room, knowing I won't find it but needing to see with my own eyes and nose. I carefully walk to his room, watching his door the

whole time and counting how many steps I've taken towards it. 17... 18... 19... still no smell... 20... 21... here. I crack the door open, and the smell of emptiness washes over

me. Damn you, Cassian. With a growl I storm out, not once looking back or even sniffing for him.

I told you not to bother. He knows what kind of a monster you are, he knows every bit of bullshit you pulled on Feyre. Hell, would you even look back for you? No, you

wouldn't, and you know it. You remember what happened with your father? You hated him for years, even when he had gotten better, and you didn't give a shit. You only

gave a shit when he showed up on that boat, the one with your damn name painted on the side of it. On top of that, you sat back on your lazy mother fucking ass and

watched as I killed him. There went your only chance at redemption, huh? You really think he'll sit around and wait? He's probably at the site already.

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When I reach my apartment, everything smells different. Not like something I hadn't smelled before, it's very familiar, but it isn't from anyone I know. I look

around and sniff, just to find it everywhere. Nothing's been moved, but it's everywhere. After a few deep breaths, I look at my arm and slowly sniff it. Sure enough,

it's me.