Music Lyrics

Poor individual

(Verse)
Imagine waking up every morning,
Don't understand where your life's going,
All of these demons come and go,
Every time they come back they come back stronger,
Every time I put on my headphones to help myself,
I get hallucinations of my mama calling my name,
No matter how good my smile looks,
On the inside I can only think of quitting this game,
Don't try to compare me to anybody else,
I know you're not a man if you cry,
But will you still be a man if you decide to die?,
Yeah can't even write anything happy for my life,
Most of my stuff is negative and it will be for some time,
I write these lyrics to help myself,
Haven't cried since I was 13,
So sick and tired of all these damn things,
Where's the Lord when I need him?!,
All these demons telling him,
"Hey I came back to finish him",
It's so hard not to listen to them,
Too busy listening to my past memory,
When's the positivity gunna come back?!,
Over getting hit from the back,
I feel that this depression is taking over me,
Yeah why did it all come back?!,
Yeah none of my family want to see,
When I'm done helping I'm like who's next?,
I'm hurting so so bad,
And it's making me so so sad,
There you hear this demons?!!,
You won!,
You beat me!,
Now just stick the blade inside me,
Just so I won't feel pain no more,
I've been so worn,
I'm sick and tired of being tortured,
Now it's just making me more sore,
Put the cross on my forehead,
Father son Holy Spirit,
All this negativity broke my spirit,
So let all the damn demons hear it,
Because I'm so sick and tired of hearing it,
Hearing all this "You'll be okay. It's just a phase",
Yeah well maybe it is,
Turns out I'm not sure if I'll escape this damn phase,
I'm so sick and tired,
Hearing my life saying "You're fired!",
Now I'm being burned to the ground,
I'm losing my feeling of love,
Even though I could never get the drug,
I can feel it,
I can feel my soul being pulled from my own body,
No matter how much I pray,
Even though I want to stay,
I'm not feeling right,
It's too much,
I want to escape,
All my voices gathered around me,
Man just FUCKING HELP ME!!!!,
I'm stuck inside my mind,
I'm just stuck in my mind,
I can't stop moving,
Twitching from my pain,
I swear this is not a game,
Nothing here is the same,
Lord why am I going insane?!!,
I took the pills they ain't working!,
I don't want myself no more,
I don't love myself no more,
I am my own mind,
I tried to control it all,
Now they all watching me cry,
Now they all watching me die,
The blade in my back,
The back of my heart,
I can't grab the fucking gun,
When I crawl,
They kick me hard,
When I bawl,
They surround me with dark,
I don't know what I'm doing,
I don't know where I am,
Stuck in some trunk,
It's all a slam dunk,
They push me off a cliff,
Slowly falling off this cliff,
Knowing that there's nothing I did,
Now I can never fix it,
Hit the rocks they throw a match,
Throw it on the car feeling my last match,
Now I can't fight it no more,
Feeling the fire around me,
I don't want to know how I'll die,
I'm slowly dying burning in the trunk,
The car exploded nothing left for me to do,
Long behold I'm at my funeral,
Kneeling in front of my grave,
I can see my name engraved,
Seeing my family cry as I try to hug them,
Screaming at them "WHY DIDN'T YOU HELP ME?!!",
Now knowing they can't hear a thing,
I see the darkness start surrounding as my casket is slowly going down,
Now there's nothing I can do now,
It's the end of my life now,
Died in the back of a trunk burning slow,
Now there's no way for me to glow,
Was kidnapped by my demons and put me down the cliff,
Now I see that I drove myself off that cliff,
I see myself in the car,
Then I light it on fire,
I killed myself,
I didn't love a good life,
Now it's time for a new life,