What's her name

Thought I ran into you down on the street, but then it turned out to only be a dream...

I sigh, staring into space as I mindlessly walk down the street. The sound of my feet dragging drowned out by the cars zooming by and everyone talking among themselves, in their own little world. I heard a small bell chime as I walk into my favourite coffee shop,  Coffee Stains as I almost crashed down on the seat, groaning a little. Closing my eyes, trying to forget that this very seat was where we had our first date, first kiss, first time I fell so so in love with her beautiful eyes and gorgeous smile. Damn did she know how to make a guy feel special just by being with her...

I made a point to burn all of the photographs, she went away and then I took a different path...

Now comes the sad and depressing part; I remember the smell of ash and the heat against my face as I tried to burn out all the memories, everything I've ever been through with her. To say it hurt would be the biggest understatement ever. Each memory the fire consumed it took along a piece of my heart and my sanity.

Just like that one after another they all burned to ash, memories both good and bad. The fire burning the photographs may be strong and bright, but the flame in my heart had long since gone cold, leaving only a few charred remains.

And thus we went our respective ways, one to find another love and one to find something to fill the emptiness left by the old one. And now I finally find myself here, in a coffee shop, staring at the cute little waitress slip and fall spilling coffee all over another guy and getting really blushy. I sigh again, hopefully they'll have a better love story then mine...

I remember her face but I can't recall her name...now I wonder how Whatshername has been...

How ever furious or hot a flame is, the flames of love would always overcome it, as one memory stayed forever carved to the back of my head, no fire however powerful could ever burn it away...

I smile a little, sipping my coffee as my mind wonders back to the days, where I stared deep into those amazing brown eyes, ran my fingers through her soft long hair and kissed her on her irresistible lips, those kisses always made her squeal and blush, the most adorable blush you've ever seen. Her smile..oh the way she smiled, words alone nowhere near describes how beautiful and perfect her smile was. Imagine the most beautiful and perfect girl in the world, imagine her smile..yeah now multiply it by 10, and you might get a brief idea just how stunning she was.

Her name, her name..what was it..I couldn't for the life of me remember what her name was, all memory of it was destroyed....what a shame. I vaguely remember something like, Michy or Michie, along those lines.

Seems that she disappeared without a trace, did she ever marry old Whatshisface..?

She just left one day, packed up her stuff and walked out of my life, BAM! just like that. Gone. Only text from her after that was saying something like, I'm too clingy or obsessed or some nonsense like that.

She basically ditched me because I loved her too much.

I wonder if she ever went back to her ex, which she cheated with on me a few times. Dyllon. The bastards name I'll never forget. I don't remember what he looks like, just the name, but that's enough.

I didn't even get made at her for cheating, I forgave her, again and again! I thought maybe I'll try playing the good guy, well look where that got me.

I made a point to burn all of the photographs, she went away and then I took a different path.. ~

I groan, forcing down those memories as I glance around. Why do I keep getting these thoughts in my head! Forget about her dammit!.....but if I forget about her, I'll go crazy. This sucks. Love sucks.

I remember her face but I can't recall her name, now I wonder how Whatshername has been ~...

I close my eyes, sipping more of my coffee. She's gone and she doesn't care anymore, why can't I just move on? Find another girl? Be happy again?!

Well I ask myself that everyday and I have no bloody idea. Maybe I really am obsessed. So here I am today, at the local coffee shop, replaying old memories and helpless to do anything to make things right.

Remember, whatever

It seems like forever ago..

The regrets are useless..

In my mind. She's in my head I must confess

The regrets are useless

In my mind. She's in my head

From so long ago...~

Over and over again, the memories and images play in my mind, each hurting more then the last.

I remember the time we lay in a field watching the stars and the moon..

I remember our late night conversations over text, how I'll clutch my phone waiting for your reply...

I remember your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine, telling me more then any words could say...

Hmm maybe I didn't burn as many photographs as I thought I did.

I stare deep into space, until a tap on my shoulder jolted me back to reality. My eyes shot open as I came face to face with the cute waitress, looking at me worried. I blink a little, as she told me the coffee shop was closing, and I had too leave now.

Gosh was I here all day?

I nod and I swore I heard her gasp softly  as I got up and left. What? Did I smell bad? Is my hair a mess? I sigh and rub my eyes, oh it's just the eyes. My bloodshot and teary eyes, puffy from hours of crying, I must have looked like a zombie.

My regrets, are useless..

In my mind..

She's in my mind, from so long ago...~

I walked and cried while my heartbeat, kept time with the drag of my shoes. Beneath the halo of a streetlamp, I just stood, looking around at everything around me; the cars, the road, the lights, the apartments....everything. It all just seems so surreal, like everything was just a painting on a wall. And one day if this all disappeared, it would be completely normal, and nothing would change in the world. Maybe I should just make everything disappear...

And in the darkest night

If my memory serves me right

I'll never turn back time

Forgetting you, but not the time...

The time when love an everything was just simply so so much better...

*gunshot*