My Wattpad Diary

I know, I know

I really should be putting this in my songwriting book, but I can really relate to the lyrics I made. Some of you have heard part of it, here we go:

I'm stuck in a place I don't wanna be
Somewhere far far away from reality
Where my demons really can hide under the bed
BECAUSE I'm stuck in my very own head

I am the MASTERMIND but I'm also the VICTIM

I have nice family
I have good friends
But I have too many thoughts in my head
I just want it to end

I'd stop but my current situation is pressuring me
My problems coming nearer the others closing in on me

I always think I'm free
But then
I'm back where I was all over again

Call me trash
I don't care
Saturday Mornings
Gum in my hair

Slowly darkness begins to consume me
Trying to hide my sadness, pretend to be happy
Protect those you can that's all that matters
Listen to the children's laughter

One gone, two gone
It's all of my fault
Shut out the voices
Don't give in to my head

Three gone, save her
She is the one that matters
I cannot lose her to the monster too
Stay with me please, I need you

I hear what you're saying
Repeat it all you want
They think I'm real
When I'm just a font

No life
Low life
Need to get my own life

This happens every time
I'm her puppet, her stupid mime
I try to get her away but I let her back in
I'm not an angel..

....I'm a sin.

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