ENDS

13- Distraction

Iris's p.o.v.

" I'm gonna get some groceries, you wanna come?" Megan asks as she throws on a baby blue tank top.

I slowly shake my head as I stayed rooted in the spot I had been laying since last night.

Megan's eye's clearly turn into one of sadness as she watched me. I didn't want that pity but sometimes in life you don't get what you want.

" Iris, I really don't know what to do. I'm confused and really broken at this, I don't even know if I'm trying well enough but I know we'll get through this" she says as she leans in to give me a comforting hug.

I don't reply her words, but I'm only believing them.

" I'll be back soon, okay?" She says again and walks out the door, shutting it behind her.

I finally feel the dawn of loneliness on me and unknowingly, my tears began to escape once again.

I couldn't help it, I've tried but I just couldn't. I can't stomach the feeling that my baby is out there. My tiny, fragile baby is somewhere out there.

Using my pillow to quieten my cries before a knock sounded on the door.

As usual, I wipe my face quickly and inhale sharp breath before responding.

" Come in"

A little shuffling comes from behind the door before it was slowly opened and Dylan walks in, holding his phone by his ear with a semi amused look on his face.

"She's right here" he says and pauses for a while like he's listening to the receiver. That was when he spared me a glance and realized that I had been crying, if the way his features collapsed when he saw me was anything to go by.

"Alright " came his next response as he hands me the phone. Out of confusion I collect it and he whispers Meredith, that was when I figured out who's on the other end.

"Hello?" I start as Dylan takes a seat by my side and places a silent kiss to my temple.

"Sugar plum how are you?" Meredith called into cellphone as I recall how much I've actually missed her voice.

" I'm fine I guess, what about you?"

" I am so not fine in any way. I've been trying to get through to you since I saw the news but your number has been out of service, so I called Dylan and he said you lost your phone in the house. I've been scared shitless !"

Her reaction on the phone got me imagining an over dramatic Meredith gasping for air while using her right five fingers to impersonate a fan.

  And believe it or not... it got me laughing.

From my side view, I could see that Dylan was satisfied seeing Meredith make me smile. I was actually glad too.

" I'm alive Mer.. it's okay "

" oh please spare me all the ' I'm fine but not totally fine but I'll lie to you that I'm fine so you wouldn't pity me even though I love you so much' talk.. I'm heading down to New York first thing tomorrow morning, I've already booked my flight so don't even think about convincing me that there's no need to show up, understand?"

  With a slight smile, I responded " I can't wait to see you then" and I meant it.

" that's the spirit. Tell Dylan he's a nut head for me. Take care of yourself okay hun? It's gonna be alright "

" I will. Thanks Mer"

" Always at your service love. Goodbye "

" Bye" afterwards I heard the beep.