Glance
Morning came, napagkasunduan naming maglalakad lakad muna sa dalampasigan hanggang hindi pa masyadong nakaka iritate sa balat ang araw.
I didn't bother to put a sunblock kasi mas prefer ko yung tan skin. I have a coffee on my hand while I'm walking down the seashore. It felt so dreamy.
Dadalhin ko sana yung camera kaso nakalimutan ko pa lang i charge kagabi. No choice kung hindi phone na lang yung gamitin kong pang capture.
I was walking in the middle of nowhere. Kaya naman lumilipad na naman yung isip ko at kasabay nito ang pagbisita ng problema na hindi malaman kung ano ang magiging kasagutan sa mga ito. Kung tutuusin napuntahan ko na yata lahat gamit lang yung pag mumuni muni ko. Pati tuloy sila tita at tito namimiss ko na.
Gusto ko na ulit bumalik sa probinsya. I really missed living a simple life. If only I can go back there as much as possible.
May pagkakataon na tumatama sa mga paa ko yung tubig I couldn't help but to smile like a kid. I could really tell that I missed the ocean breeze I rather stay here forever! Kung pwede lang, I don't think twice na umuwi pa sa city.
After a moment of silence. Umupo kami sa buhanginan habang nakatanaw sa dagat. All my worries disappear when I'm at the beach. It feels like the negative thoughts washed away every time the crashing waves going back and forth.
Sa may hindi kalayuan may namataan kaming surfers with a group of boys.
I quite agree that they screams sexiness and looks so cool. I can't help but to smile on my silly ideas.
How about their attitude naman kaya towards girls ayos naman ba. Hay dami ko na namang naiisip. I am not broken just stating the fact of reality.
The waves seems calming hindi naman ito nakakatakot I wish I can try that one as a hobby.
Habang papalapit sila sa amin mas lalo kong na recognize kung sino yung isa sa mga lalaki doon.
Oh no! Is it the man yesterday? Isip isip ko. The hell with that guy.
Siya na ba yung para sa akin kaya mismong destiny na yung gumagawa ng way para sa aming dalawa? I swiftly shook my head bago pa ako makapag conclude ng kung ano ano.
Nagkatinginan kami pero agad akong umiwas, ngunit nakikita ko sa peripheral vision ko na his stealing some glances akala yata hindi ko mahahalata.
Nag cellphone na lang ako para kunwari I'm busy minding my own business. I was startled nung kinalabit ako ni Celine.
"Pansin ko lang kanina pa sumusulyap sayo yung lalaking may hawak ng surf board na kulay puti"
"Sa pinaparating ng tingin niya sayo, parang gusto kang makuha" Felice added
"Tumigil nga kayo! Baka may problema sa mata niya. I respond calmly
"Come on. He's so obvious, 'wag ka ng mag deny" - Celine
"Do you know him?" I shyly nodded
Ini explain ko yung worst encounters namin para naman manahimik na sila at hindi na magtanong pa.
Napatigil ako because there is someone calling me by my name.
"Haven!" Yes, you are not mistaken. It was Gabriel.. again.. he was smiling widely like there's no tomorrow huh
I simply waved my hand and smile a little bit.
"Oh. Good morning!" i said with a dull tone
I was lost for words. Kaya ito na lang ang tanging lumabas sa bibig ko.
Why he keeps on showing up? May lahi ba siyang mushroom.
"Mas maganda ka pa sa umaga" he said confidently
Trip yata ako nito ah. Matatawa sana ako kaso pinigilan ko yung sarili ko. I don't even know what words i can utter. Think, Haven! Baka akala niya naapektuhan ka doon sa cheesy lines na sinabi niya.
I'll shook my head and when I came back on my senses..
I realized I was staring at him intently. I was screwed. Come on, Haven. Ano na namang kahihiyan yang ginawa mo. I heave sighed. Napayuko tuloy ako.
Talk to him now! I instantly gather myself at taas noong humarap sakaniya.
I chuckled. "Thank you then? You're funny huh"
He smirked playfully.
"Hmm. Are you free this afternoon?"
Sandali lang, saan kaya siya nakakakuha ng self confidence para anyayahan niya ako. Close na ba kami? Bakit hindi ko alam. Ang bilis niya ha walang preno preno. He's so freaking strange huh.
Nakalimutan kong nasa likod pala namin yung mga kaibigan ko. Nagulat na lang ako ng si Celine na yung sumagot para sa akin.
"Yes, free na free 'yan. Kahit 'wag mo na ibalik sa amin" she giggled
As a response I give her what are you saying look..
Argh! Binubugaw na yata ako ng friend ko. Hello earth, please swallow me whole.
Gabriel laughs..
"Thank you! Nothing to worry, I'll take care of her. At ibabalik ko na lang rin siya sa room niyo" he added
Right now, I wished that I can vanish and turn into a dust. Today is the day full of embarrassing moments. Can't take it anymore.
"Pumayag na yung mga kaibigan mo. Ano pa bang pwede kong gawin para sumama ka sa akin?"
Parang naninimbang yung mga tingin niya sa akin at halatang hinihintay niya yung isasagot ko kaya naman..
"Okay, honestly I don't have plans for today and I don't want to turn down your offer too, so I decided to go with you. Happy now?"
I smiled sweetly trying not to be sounds rude and sarcastic.
Napasulyap ako sa mga mata niyang puno ng saya. Hindi ko maitatanggi na may nararamdaman akong hindi ko alam kung ito ba ay tama.
"Really happy, thank you for not rejecting me grumpy lady" he jokes.
I rolled my eyes and teased him back
"No need to thank me annoying Gabriel"
Nagpakawala siya ng ilang tawa.
"I'll wait for you at 3pm outside the hotel" saying while he is still smiling though
I nodded and smiled.
He immediately bid a farewell to me and to my friends as well.
He muttered "Good bye. See you" habang naglalakad na siya papalayo sa amin.
Kahit malayo malinaw ko pa ring naintindihan kung anong lumabas sa labi niya.
I found out that I'm doing the same thing. This ain't right.
Napalingon ako sa dagat. Sana tangayin na rin ng alon itong magulong nararamdaman ko ngayon.
Calm down, heart. Please.
BINABASA MO ANG
Ephemeral
General Fiction"in just a blink of eye everything we had shatters into tiny fragments. maybe he is just a part of my life and we are not meant to be together at all.. "
