The feeling of not being wanted by someone who you want so much is pure sadistic torture. Me the submissive masochist loves every bit of the pain I'm receiving.
Maybe that's the problem, it's always been me. Maybe I've always been destined for this..sort of life. Or maybe...there is no other explanation.
Sighing heavily I turn to lie on my back. My room was my safe space a place where I could just run away, and be free. Which was very much needed on a day like today. I was going to pour out my whole heart to my one only true love. Joshua, his name brought a smile to my lips despite the rejection. What a man he is.
I admire him so much, his dominant aura, hilarious sense of humor, devilishly handsome looks, and amazing taste in music. All combined together to make the man I call Joshua.
If only he could see me. See that I want so badly to submit to him, to love him, to cherish him forever.
I cry heavily in my pillow, feeling like a schoolgirl who got her heartbroken by the captain of the football team. I'm truly devastated.
Joshua rejected every part of me today when he showed up flaunting his girlfriend to me and our friend group.
"Natalia are you alright?" My friend Gina called out from outside my door.
"Yes I am fine just feeling a little sick."
After uttering a small get well Gina retreated from my room. Leaving me to wallow in my pain.
"Girl get your ass up whore." My best friend Anaja said smacking my ass.
I groaned.
"I know it hurts but you have to get over it or you can steal your man back." Anaja says opening a bag of chips.
I nodded we both knew I wasn't going to easily get over him. I must take him back or maybe get him to realize that we are supposed to be together.
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Jealousy:O.H.O.A.D
Short StoryPREVIEW: What is an infatuation? Google describes it as; an intense but short-lived passion or admiration for someone or something. So in lemans terms it's basically strongly loving someone. Am I infuatuated with Joshua? Maybe all I know is I'd do...
