The Answer is in Our Hearts

Final

Fuck I'm in love with him, was Krist's first thought when Singto began singing "You Made Me Able To Know". This was really not the time to come to this realisation. They were on stage in front of thousands of their fans, at a concert and Singto was in front of him.

We can't let him know. Hide your feelings, not the time to cry. This is really not the time to cry. He'll know something is wrong if you cry and then ask questions that we don't have suitable answers to!

He tried turning away discreetly and blinking away the tears but he knew he couldn't keep his back to Singto or the audience forever. They'd definitely figure out something was wrong. Even if the audience would think this was part of the show the expression on Singto's face would give it away.

He turned to glace at Singto, even though he was still singing, there was a slight frown on his face and concern in his eyes.

Fuck I can't do this.

He couldn't keep his emotions at bay any longer. It really was the worst time to burst out crying but he couldn't stop himself. He vaguely saw Singto's eyes widen in panic before tears swallowed his vision.

He groaned quietly. Great now he's going to have to answer questions from the fans, the press, the managers, his family and Singto and he's not managed to come up with an acceptable lie. He couldn't exactly say, oh yeah I started crying because I might be in love with my costar with is also my P' and he is a man so you know going through gay crisis too, no big deal.

Singto was walking towards him, he tried to move away, he couldn't be near him right now, but Singto grabbed his arm and pulled him to face him. He grabbed his chin and gently manoeuvred him to look him in the eye.

He's going to know, P' always knows.

So Krist bit his lips and looked his P' in the eyes, trying to convey how sorry he was that he messed up the stage, how sorry he was that he was realising that he was in love with him, how sorry he was that Singto could probably tell and wouldn't reciprocate or want anything more to do with him. He tried to convey how he wasn't going to mess up the show, how things would go back to normal, how he was going to stay professional and how he was going to push down his feelings so they could continue being friends.

Singto hand came up to his face to softly brush away his tears, he couldn't stop the sobs that rose up again. He turned away to collect himself.

Ok so we might be in love with P'Singto, this is a thing for another time, we got to continue with the show now.

So he took a deep breath and tried to collect himself. Singto had come to check up on him again and the song was finishing. He reached out to hug him and Krist clung on to him tightly.

"I'm sorry P'." Krist whispered as the lights went down, then ran backstage.

Singto followed him, he made sure to remove his mike as he approached Krist. "Are you ok? What happened?"

Krist let out a small laugh and tried to smile as big as possible. "You know me P', I get so emotional and it's our last time doing anything SOTUS related so it made me cry."

Singto look at him sternly. "Kit." He didn't believe that was all there was to it.

"We don't have time for this, we need to get changed for our next stage."

Singto knew their next stage was much later on but he didn't want to argue now. "We'll talk later."

The tone of his voice didn't leave any room for contradiction so all Krist could do was nod.