All I Want is Love

Two

"God fucking dammit it hyung. JISUNG WAKE UP."

"Huh?"

"GET. UP. NOW. Stupid little brat." Chan yelled at waking

'What did I do? Wait why am I in the dorms I swear i was in the practice room.' Jisung thought looking around the foreign room.

"HEY BRAT GET UP." Chan yelled again snapping Jisung out of his trance.

"O–oh sorry hy–hyung." He stuttered becoming scared of what Chan was going to do next.

"Just get up. Hyung is making lunch." Chan muttered slamming the door shut.

"He's so mean...." Jisung mumbled flinging his legs over the side of the bed and getting up to go to the bathroom.

"LUNCH IS READY." Woojin yelled throughout the dorm.

"Hyung I'm not hungry...." Jisung said ealking into the kitchen.

"Alright I'll just pack you some for later." Woojin said taking out a container before scooping some of the food into it and putting it into the fridge.

"Good he should be cutting down on food anyway." Chan said sitting down at the table.

"Don't listen to him Sungie. He doesn't mean it." Felix whispered into Jisung's ear trying to comfort him.

"Huh....sure Lixie." Jisung said putting up a fake smile and walking towards his room.

*Back in the Kitchen*

"Chan can you stop being so mean to him?" Woojin asked breaking the awkward silence that Chan had caused.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Chan said finishing his lunch and heading to his studio. "Maybe he should stop being a pain in the ass. I'll be in the studio."

"That kid...." Woojin snickered at Chan as he walked away.

"Hyung.....we have to stop him. You know how Ji can get." Felix said fearing what will happen to his best friend.

"Yeah hyung can't you stop him?" Jeongin asked hoping for some reassurance.

"Innie....I'm trying but Chan is just—"

"JISUNG GET THE HELL OUT HERE RIGHT NOW." Chan screamed within the hall cutting Woojin off.

"God dammit...." Changbin groaned getting up to go see what was happening with Felix attached to his hip and everyone else folleing after him.

Jisung's POV:

'I don't get why Channie's so mean to me.' I thought lying down on my bed.

'You know exactly why....'

"Shut up....go away I don't wanna talk to you." I mumbled shoving my face into my pillow.

'You can't block me out again....You're not strong enough. You're weak.'

"I SAID SHUT UP." I screamed into the pillow, hitting my head hoping the voice would disappear like it once did before.

'You know I'm not wrong. You don't—'

"JISUNG GET THE HELL OUT HERE RIGHT NOW." I head chan yell from what I'm guessing was the studio door.

Third Person POV:

Jisung quickly got up and ran to the door only to be meeted by a fuming Chan.

"Y–yes hyung?" Jisung stuttered scared of why Chan randomly yelled for him.

"Why didn't you finish the god damn lyrics?"

"Wh–what lyrics? I–I already finished the lyrics for Miroh, Boxer and 19." Jisung said confused about what Chan was talking about.

"FINISHED MY ASS. DID YOU FORGET ABOUT THE LYRICS FOR VICTORY SONG?" Chan yelled backing Jisung into a wall.

"Vic–victory song ly–lyrics?" Jisung whimpered trying to push himself into the wall behind him.

"YES GOD DAMMIT THE VICTORY SONG LYRICS. WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY?" Chan yelled slamming his hand next to Jisung's head getting more pissed than he was before.

"I–I don–don't kn–know...." Jisung muttered shaking with fear.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU—"

"Chan let him go. I have them Jisung already finished all of his writing. Give him a break." Changbin said cutting Chan off and handing him a flash drive.

".....Okay thanks Bin." Chan said turning around and walking back into his studio as if nothing had happened.

He walked away leaving a terrified Jisung standing against the wall and the other members frozen in place, too scared to kove from what they had just encountered. Never in the years they've been with Chan, they've never seen him like this before.

Everyone stood their shocked by the way Chan treated Jisung and the way he left as if nothing happened. They finally snapped out of their trance when Jisung let out a loud sob and dropped to the ground.

"Oh my god Jisung...." Felix gasped running towards Jisung and pulling him into a hug.

"Why....." Jisung cried into Felix's chest.

"It's okay Sungie. It's okay." Felix said trying to comfort the traumatised boy.

"I'm gonna talk to him." Woojin finally said walking towards the studio.

"No, no, no, no please hyung don't. " Jisung sobbed grabbing Woojin's arm before he could make it to the door.

"Ji this has gone on for too long." Hyunjin said trying to convince Jisung that this was for the best.

"No please don't. Please hyung just leave it." Jisung begged hoping they'd listen to him.

"Hyung....." Jeongin said as tears filled his eyes. Even thought Jeongin was younger than Jisung, Jisung would always listen to Jeongin. They'd always talk about their problems and Jisung would always listen.

Jisung would listen to any of their stories. He'd listen and give them his opinion. he loved their stories whether they were long or short, happy or sad, funny or scary. They confided in him but he wouldn't do anything. All he would do is listen. He'd never tell them stories about his life or how he was feeling. He kept to himself until he couldnt, until the members forced him to open up.

"Hyung please. Please don't please leave it. I promise it'll get better." Jisung said looking Woojin in the eyes hoping he'd change his mind.

"....Fine but if this happens again I'm not gonna let it slide." Woojin said finally giving in hoping this would pass.

"Thank you hyung." Jisung muttered letting go of Woojin's wrist.

"But hyung—"

"Let it go. It'll pass. It has to...." Jisung mumbled before mumbling a quiet thanks to Felix and getting up to go to his room.

"Ji...." Felix said towards the closed door of Jisung's room.

"He'll be okay Lix. He always is." Changbin said collecting his lover and dragging him to their room.

Changbin may not have showed it but he cared and he was worried. He'd been with Jisung through thick and thin. When he was younger, Changbin knew about everything.  Jisung confided in him and only him. He knew exactly what Jisung and his mind was capable of and it scared him. He just really hoped his past wouldn't repeat itself.

SKSMJDJ i finally updated kinda died this week a lot of bs happened.......ya anyways

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