broken hearth

one last lonely girl

ORIHIME'S POV:
why is it always me, why is it always rukia that he likes being around with, and when he's around her he's free but when he's around me;even if its possible, he'll feel bored and then go for his shinigami duties along side with rukia

*~~~~~~~~~~crying~~~~~~~~~~*

am always the one that gets hurt at the end but nobody knows not even him, he's always with rukia, and rukia! my best friend, how could she do this to me and she knows how deep ah love ichigo soo much and she knows how i feel when he's not by my side, ah told her my secrets 80% being my dream with ichigo in the future and when i finally confess to him. i told her that i was going to confess today to him *sobs* why is it always me *why cant some one just find my heart in the shadow and care for it like its own *sobs* i do hope someone will.
            after 3hours of crying

I better get up from the bed and do my duties before time runs out. i stood up from the bed and the first thing my eyes saw was the picture of kurosaki kun. there it is again, the pain...... but  have to get rid of the pain before it expands and my life gets ruined. i took the picture and removed it from the glass case and i droped the case on my table, the picture in my hand as i moved to the kitchen,opened the drawer, brought out a lighter and lit the picture on fire,  stood there and observed the picture as it was burning, it felt a  lil bit good to see the picture burning
ding dong i heard my door bell. I dropped the picture on the sink as it slowly burns away, "orihime! whats wrong? what happened?? why where you crying???" tatsukai's voice rang in my ear, so hurt to speak but then again, i felt my face being hot but wait then i felt hot salty water past my lips.its just too much for me to bear "oh orihime,dont cry! stop crying!!" tatsukai's voice played in my ear as a soft music as she engulfed me in a warm hug "thanx tatsukai, i really need that" i said "orihime, whats worng? tell me, why are you~~~~ ~~"ding dong  the door bell rang, i went to open the door to find HIM. "orihime, am so sorry, please wh~" "kurosaki kun thoustdou? why did you do it. Ever since we were little, i always liked you
~~~~~~FLASHBACK~~~~~~
lil orihime's pov:
" lil girl, dont be scared of me, just come her and let me give you a squeez" "sir please dont, am just 12 years old,please dont do this" "but why not, you are so socculent and juciy mostly your chest area, now come here and let me squeez you" the man said as he kept on reducing the space between us. somebody please help me, anybody! please save me from this monster i said to myself when his hands were only 2 inches away. "mante, please dont do this" i said as i pushed him and he fell backwards "little bitch, how dare you!!!" the monster said as he slapped me as his long finger nails gave me five long and deep lines of injuries on my left check with his right hands as he was facing me. i fell down towards my right. he started laughing and was removing his belt and next his shirt as he came closer to me "please don't do this to me", i said to my self  " oi" i heard some one say from behind the man, i turned to see a boy of 14 with orange spiking hair "get your hands off her!,your shadow makes me wanna throw up and makes her scared!" the boy said with anger in his eyes "now what do you think of your presence in front of both of  us" the boy spat out with anger "what rubbish! you bastard do you know who your talking to?" the man said as he ran towards the boy with his hands set to kill or squeeze the boys neck. the lil boy just laughed which made the man become angry the more and he increased his speed;before I knew it, the lil boy had beaten the man as the man lay helpless on the floor. "are you alright?," the boy asked with concern on his face as he knelt before me with his right hand on my left hand  "what's your name?" he asked again, just realising I didn't answer the first question "orihime inouwe" "what a beautiful name, am kurosaki ichigo, it's nice meeting you"he said as he stood and stretched out his  hand for me. I grabbed it to know that I was safe with him "my dad owns a clinic, come and i will clean you up,l, he said as he gave me an assuring smile. I became worried at first "don't worry, I won't do anything like that old pervert was trying to do to you" he said. it's as if he can read my mind. we started walking as he held my hands. we passed places were people started staring at us and I could hear them "is he her boyfriend? are they going out?,is she his girlfriend? well they super fit, wish I was younger so I could date him a woman said as we passed. wish I was younger so I can date her, a man said with a smirk as he was looking at me. "don't worry about them,just don't be scared, am here" he said as he smiled at me until we reached the hospital and then he cleaned my injuries and treated them.
~~~~~end of flash back~~~~~
"since that day kurosaki~kun, I'ved always had a crush on you, but you just can't see it. and even though you get the feeling, but you will just flush it away from your mind by always being with rukia, no offence but that's just how I see it, though i force my self not to believe, you'll just practice it the more." "orihime that's just~" "kurosaki kun,on Valentine's day, I confessed my feelings to you but you just took it as a normal "friend_ish" chocolate. you accepted my chocolates and I was very happy but what I dint know was that you gave it out to keigo when I wasn't there" I said as I faced the ground already crying, he was holding my arms as he wanted to pull me into a hug "dont kurosaki kun, I dont need those hugs any more, rukia does. hugging you, will just make me to cry the more cause I know it's not from your mind, that was then when i was hungry for the hug, but now am just not hungry anymore, it's as if the hunger just melted away and then disappeared. I bet it has formed its self in rukia's heart " I said, still facing the ground as I lifted my hands to remove his hands on me. "inou~" "dont ichigo! calling me by my first name won't make things turn out for the good for you. it was then  that when you just call me by my first name, I become very very happy. cause it's as if you only know me as orihime. only you calls me orihime not inouwe, meanwhile you call rukia by her name, her surn name and even a pet name for her, even thou she punches you, you just laugh and hug her tight enough and she blushes, you just love doing it in front of me and you just enjoy doing it to her" I removed his hands from my arms forcefully "ichigo goodbye, the door is just at you back, you know how to use t" I said with my face still focusing on the ground "I can't evenn look at you, to meet those eyes, the eyes that made me a fool to fall for some one like you now: go go run run away away to your ray ray. (ray means rukia) I said as I pointed towards the door and i moved into the kitchen to see the burning picture, it burnt but it looks as if it went off wen it got to ichigo's face. I brought out the lighter and burnt the picture as I threw the remaints away but then again, i felt fresh air inside of me, strange but I like it