my heart belongs to me. only me!

Its A Sweet Melody Of Life

Its been a long day since i haven't visited my profile..

Life's making us busy and knowledgeable as we grow. I cannot imagine how i survive all these years without Him. I thank God how lucky i am now.

Let me start my story as I was in college.

Its my 4th year when my dad came home permanently. He used to be an overseas Filipino worker in South Korea for almost 19 years. He left us when i was 1. Yes. Definitely, he worked for us, me and my sister were both in medical field. Its quite expensive, yes. I thought i couldn't finish my studies but here i am now.... Working overseas also as of today.. To gain experience and apply for a better future ahead.

I got my license when i was 22, worked in different businesses and clinics. Been to korea also for 5mos last 2017....something bad happen so i chose to leave the country and go back to Philippines October 15, 2017. For few months i worked as a store keeper in different area just for the sake of travelling from Cavite to La union almost every 2weeks.

Yeah i forgot to tell you... I haven't been into a relationship seriously... Almost all have the same feelings but i haven't officially said we're On. Mostly were flings and dates only.

December 2017 when we were spending our 3days vacay at Baguio, my friend used to message me before that vacay that he wanted to meet with me together with his friend.

After we went home (last day in Baguio) he seriously said that he wants me to meet that guy which i already added in facebook and tried to message yet he wasn't even trying to reply... So i just said OK for the sake of my friend i meet him.

Then that was our first meeting. Riding motorcycle going from bauang to Agoo to San fernando then going home Naguilian.

Later on, he courted. And to cut it shortly, after a month i said yes already because of the fact that he went to my house everyday for 2 weeks and its 40kms everyday away from his home then for just 3-4hours spending only on my house.

Then later on, this friend of mine whom pleaded  me to meet my lover now said that it was him who tried to reply when i was messaging my lover before we met. And i definitely made awkward because it was like me who made the first move. But i dont care now because all i know is he loves me and i love him soooo much!

Let me put a plot or timetable on my life for the past years..

2013 i graduated college... Age 20
2014 got my first job..age 21
2015 got my license.. Age 22.. Entered hospital as chemotherapy nurse in OPD
2016 took my ielts exam.. Resigned in clinic..
2017 went to korea... Devastated life august that year.. Went home by october.. Being broken for months..
2018 luckily at age of 25 im in a relationship already..
2019...........my first LDR.

I made him my life, my world.. I gave everything to him. I spoiled him with lots of love and affection that even when he trues to go home i am with him.. I am his shadow and he was my world. That's why its breaking my heart when i always remember that we were apart now...

But i am trying to understand our situation because i am not here for fun but its for our future together... I love him so much that there's nothing left of me..