The Trouble On Your Lips (Kellic)

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The days and even week that followed my relapse were much like the time I found out I was bipolar. I saw a therapist again and got back on medication. I wasn't allowed any technology and my mom looked after me. She wasn't too disappointed in me for going off my meds. She was more guilty that she hadn't noticed. She started fussing over me and making sure I was okay every five minutes, not that I minded. It was nice to know someone cared. I probably should have just asked for help when I started getting bad and then all of this wouldn't have happened.

I was doing okay though. I was kept in a hospital for a few nights because I had to be under 24 hour supervision, and then I was allowed to go home. I didn't go back to school straight away. There wasn't much point when I had already missed the beginning of the week. I wanted to go back quickly though. I didn't want to be sitting at home doing nothing. I wanted to get my life back on track.

I missed out on going to all the big Halloween parties because it wasn't a good idea for me to be near alcohol. Alex always threw a pretty big one each year. When my mom let me have my phone back I didn't even get an invitation text from him. That made me a little upset since I go every year, but I didn't let it get to me. I couldn't. I didn't have texts from Tay wondering where I was either. I didn't get anything from Vic, which was good because I told him to leave me alone for a while and if he texted me then I'd be focusing on him too much and less on getting better. I did however get a couple of texts from Mike just asking how I was, but I was 99% sure Vic made him send them.

I was finally on my way back to school now. It was Monday morning and I was finally feeling like my old self again. I had lost sense of who I was a person, but not anymore. I'm Kellin fucking Quinn and I don't let petty things like high school drama get to me. That's just not who I am and I felt a lot better once I realized that. I just wanted to be my carefree self again, and I felt like that as I walked into the school building.

First things first; I owe both Tay and Alex an apology for the little scene I caused in biology. That wasn't right of me to do. I had no idea what came over me. I knew it was a coward's way out to blame my lack of medication for how I acted, so I wasn't going to do that. I would accept responsibility for it.

I saw Alex first, but it didn't particularly go to well. All I said was his name and he walked straight past me like I didn't even exist. He really was stubborn when he wanted to be. I shook it off and went to find Tay, but before I could find her the bell rang. It was an annoying twist of fate that I happened to have biology class first thing on a Monday morning. Last time I kind of lost my mind. Hopefully this time would be better.

I made my way into class, and like usual Vic was already there setting up for the lesson. I kind of wanted to avoid him, at least for now. I told him to wait until I'm better before talking to me, and really I am better, but I still have a few things to sort out. I directed my attention to the classroom. There were a few other students here, including Tay. She wasn't surrounded by any of her female friends like she had been lately. Considering she wasn't in her usual seat where Alex and Mike sat, I figured her and Alex still hadn't talked. I walked straight up to her and when she saw me she rolled her eyes.

"I owe you an apology," I got straight to the point, "What I did in here; kissing Jack and taunting you about Alex's feelings, it was wrong. I wasn't...I wasn't me, let's just say that, and I'm sorry. I was angry at you and Alex, so I'm sorry."

She looked at me for just a moment longer, then looked down at her notepad, completely ignoring me. Well, at least I got what I had to say off my chest. I sighed and turned back around, but then I stopped, and why? Because getting something off your chest is supposed to make you feel relieved, only I didn't feel relieved. I had more to say. I was sick of being treated like shit for this. Tay needs a fucking wake up call, so I turned around and went back to her.