sometimes we fake emotions to not let certain people in. in my case i fake them all you may think you know me but you really don't not even the people closer to me don't know the real true me. reading this to yourself you may think oh poor girl what happen to her to make her shut down and honestly i will never tell you because that's who i am I'm a person without words full of hate and sorrow i don't know how to react to the things around me i may put a smile on my face but on the inside I'm screaming for help. I'm not here for your sympathy i get that enough from everyone else in my life i don't need tears or its gonna be OK it may sound nice but i hear it so much that i don't wanna hear it anymore. i don't know how to just be anymore after having to let go and forgive and forget so many times its impossible for me to just be the same. I'm not the same person i was two years go when i was blindly in love I'm not the sweet innocent girl that you see walking down the street and you say "wow i wanna be like her". when people put you down you're suppose to keep your head held high and brush it off but when it happens over and over again you cant stop picking out your imperfections and do not say you don't have any because in life we all have things we hate about ourselves.
