Savage: Confessions Of a Tainted Lover(Book 2)

Chapter 3 - Who's at Fault?

I remember that day as if it was yesterday. The day I found out that Julius and his mother were in danger. Even though I was just a child, I knew trouble when I see it.

Then..

"Julius, what's going on?" My eight-year old self ask while I stand in his doorway. Since my mother worked right around the block from his place I always come over to play until she gets off but I haven't seen him in over two weeks and I was begining to worry. "You never come over and play with me anymore; Is it because you became best friends with that one kid?" I ask.

Silence.

I continue standing there, staring at his back as he sits on his bed. I've always liked playing in Julius's room because it was so big and he had every toy you can think of. Plus his mom always made us snacks. She treated me as one of the family.

"You should go Lily. I don't feel like playing today.." I finally hear him speak. Even though it's not the words I want to hear. 

"But-"

"NO BUTS!" He yells, cutting in. "Just go. I don't want to play with you anymore!" He continues. I gasp softly, feeling the tears filling up in my eyes. "You don't mean that you jerk." I say, whipping my eyes with the back of my hand. The sound of their front door opening and slamming close catches my attention and so does it with Julius.

It's the first time he's turned around, the large black and blue mark overing his eye is enough to know what's going on but being so niave I didn't know better. Why does he have a black eye?

"Julius, what happen to your face?" I ask curious from how he got it. "Was it from Tony? Is he playing rough again with you?" I ask more but he just ignores me. Getting off his bed quickly, Julius comes over, grabbing me by my wrist and pulling me out of his room. 

"You have to leave." He says, dragging me along down the steps, I being to hear Julius mom and dad talking as their voices being to get louder. "But why?" I ask as we reach to the end the steps and to the front door.

Julius sighs, opening the door and gently pushing me out. "I'm sorry Lily, I'll play with you tomorrow." He says as I get a clear look at his face. It looks swollen and puffy.

"Promise?" I ask and he offers me a small smile. "Promise." He says as the sound of glass breaking and yelling fills the house. Julius hands me my bag that I left next to the door and closes it. The door closing and locking away all those families secrets.

If only I have had known all those secrets back then.

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Now..

"You can't do this!!" I shout, following Julius sr. out the hospital. "You haven't seen Julius in ten-years or when he took over your company." I say but he continues walking, ignoring me which only pisses me off more. 

"Why!? You don't love him or care about him like his mother or like we do so why are you doing this? To get money? To take your business back?" I continue firing off questions, wanting to know what he's planning.

He soons stop in his tracks, almost making me knock into him. "Why my querida? It's because I'm doing this for the same reason that you are." He replies, narrowing his eyes at me. "Just because my son and I haven't had the best father and son relationship; That doesn't mean I do not care about my son."

I stare at him for a moment. "Bullshit." I spat, narrowing my eyes at him.

Julius sr. steps forwards. "I want to keep my son alive. He wouldn't be laying in the hospital hanging on to his life if it wasn't for you're crazy step-father that seems to hold some type of gurge against my family." He says, clenching his teeth, turning around to walk away but stop. "This is all YOUR fault!" He points a finger at me, shouting as he steps towards me again. "I've always known you were nothing but a daughter of a tramp; You're nothing but trouble! My son shouldn't of had anything to do with you so say your good-byes because this will be the last time you get to see my son."

I slowly step back, never knowing that he hated me so much until now. I did the only thing I could do. "Fuck you." I say in a low voice. I could careless if he thinks this is my fault but his words cut deep.

"Likewise." He simply replies before turning around and walking off to his car that awaits. I feel the tears slowly coming down my cheeks and I whip them away quickly as I turn to head back inside the hospital.

I'll be damned if he thinks he can come and do whatever he wants.  

I spot Tony and Elizabeth sitting in the waiting room, Tony on his phone talking away quickly as Elizabeth sits, her hand on her stomach and that's when it hits me. It really is all my fault. If I never started seeing Julius then he wouldn't be in the hospital; Tony and Elizabeth wouldn't be going through all this stress and having their family in danger. 

It's all my fault.

It's all my fault.

It's all my fault.

I walk over and grab my purse. "Lily, where are you going?" Elizabeth ask as she sits up slowly, looking so tired. I take a deep breath. "I'm just going outside for a bit to just..clear my head." I turn and walk off before she has a chance to say anything. I know what I have to do, I have to leave town. I never thought running away would fix anything but if me leaving town for good to keep my friends safe then I'm willing to do it.

I continue walking, feeling my pace picking up as the tears continue to fall. Julius, what is he going to think when he wakes up and finds out that I'm gone? 

Probably go on a man-wide hunt for me.. 

The thought of that makes me smile, knowing that he cares for me so much that he wouldn't stop looking for me. I stop by the front deck and ask for piece of paper. The least I can do is leave them someting so they know why I left. 

After I finish writing, I head out of the hospital and find the car we took here. I fold up the piece of paper and place it right on the dashboard. I take a deep breath and being walking off to the nearest bus stop.

Without really having a clue where I'm going and with only five-hundred dollars to my name, I step on the bus and slowly being to disapper.

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