Loving That Stranger

part 1

I was sitting in my balcony trying to enjoy the ambience outside, but nothing excites me anymore. I sighed and got up from my chair heading inside my bedroom.

I searched for my cell phone and found it on my computer table . It's usually on silent mode,  anyways I hardly have any messages or calls except from my three friends or you can say my ONLY friends . Courtney, Emily and Adam, Adam is Emily's boyfriend. They are my backbone.I don't know what I would do without them.

I had a text message from courtney informing that they will be at my place within 2 hours. I checked the time it was one hour older text....I replied with a smiley.

Because nowadays I don't get words to speak. I just reply with facial expressions. Everything since last two years seem to be tensed. I hate enjoying,I hate smiling, I hate being happy anyways there's not even a reason to be happy.

I was checking for snacks  and  bell rang. it's still not two hours...... I told mentally and ran to open the door.

I opened the door only to find my always giggling friends.

"Why you both always have to giggle in the door way? It might disturb others"

"Hi to you too Scarlet"....Courtney said making a weird face which made Emily giggle again..... these girls......

"Gosh! !! Scarlet, why so dark in your room??? Open the curtains please" Emily complained.

I wondered no sunrays can bring light in my life.Forget about the room, when there's no light in my life then what's the use of THIS light.

"Hello Madam, I am speaking to you" Emily said waving her right hand in front of my face.

I just shrugged and went inside the kitchen while she was opening the curtain.

Three of us made ourselves comfortable on my bed. I wanted to declare something to them. I was nervous, sad, anxious. I was confused. No,confused is an understatement I was beyond confused. I was broken from inside. I wanted to cry loudly. I was going away from Him.

"Girls, I wanted to say that I umm I mean we"... courtney interrupted

"Scarlet I want you to know that whatever your decision is just know that we are with you". ..she squeezed my hand and said.

Emily nodded.

I took a deep breath and thought that if not today then tomorrow I have to do it then why not today itself. It was tough but it was important as I can't continue with it anymore.

"Guys we won't go London this year.....I mean from this year". As simple as the statement might be sounding right now was not the real case.It was very difficult. That statement would change my life forever.

Both Emily and Courtney were looking at each other's face in utter shock.

"Scarlet, I always wanted you to say this but never in this circumstances, You getting my point? Come on you can't do this just because of..."

I cut her sentence "No courtney I am not doing this for anyone, we can't blame anyone. ..IT'S MY DECISION. "

"Scarlet, we are not fools.Okay forget about going London,just tell me why are you stuck with  THIS problem??? "she said pointing towards my cell phone.

"I think you know very well that why am I stuck with it".

"Scarlet for God's sake , you are a strong independent woman and you just can't let this happen to yourself".

Her words were stabbing my heart. she was right but I was helplesss. I didn't have any other option.

"Babe WE want you to move on from that London episode but not with him." Courtney said.

At this point I wanted to cry, I never wanted to forget him.I wanted to cry  at the top of my voice. I hated all this. I hated this feeling. I was missing my dead family.I hated my unwanted relationship.  I was missing him.

" What do you both think huh that I love being stuck with this fucking problem??? I hate this more than you both do.But what else can I do, , where else would I go? ? I am not doing this out of love for that fucking dreadful bastard, I am doing this because I have no other option. And I should be happy with this because atleast itz not emotional, atleast I am spared with any emotional shit. And yeah about London, there would be no more discussions about any damn thing related to it."

I said all this, I vent out my anger and frustration. I was a complete mess.

Both of them were silent.

"Honey listen, You can move on from that London episode because you have a right to do that.But what you are doing right now with this bastard is not good. It will harm you later . Darling please understand.And you NEED an emotional support, why don't you understand this? You deserve the best guy ever.And please stop replying ti this pervert. And hardly he misses you, maybe once in three months. "

"No discussions please, he doesn't contacts me am happy with it because even you both know that I don't want any man to contact me except for him... which we all know is impossible"

"Scarlet you are playing with your life"Emily said sadly.

"My destiny is playing with me Emily". ...I said slowly,fighting back my tears.

"Scarlet, we miss the old you"...... yeah me too.

#FLASH BACK#

I was sitting at home, it was a weekend.

"Mom did I tell you before that I love you so so so muchhhh"......I told to my mother who was busy making world's most delicious muffins. And  I was trying to steal it.

"SCARLET DAVID ANISTON GET THE HELL OUT OF MY KITCHEN."

"Mom am I not your most loved specy alive?" I pouted.

"Do not make that face honey, , I know your ways" she smirked.

"Mummy please give me one, I can't wait. please please please mom.If you let me eat this now ,then I promise that ummm I will come to church this sunday...okkhay????"

"Don't okkhay me darling, I don't buy whatever you say and u can have one..
No need to do promises which are never going to be fulfilled."

"Mommmm you are soooo sooo awesome . I love you so much ,but ........not more than dad....hhehehe"

With that I ran  towards the living room in front of my dad and did the happy dance dramatically.

"Come on Mr David Aniston, give me my 30 dollars I won the bet, mom allowed me to have this muffin " I smirked.

"Really, how?"

"I have my ways dad, there is nothing on Earth which I can't do"I said raising an eyebrow.

"Yeah after all you are MY daughter"

I high fived dad...aand snuggled with him on the couch and we started discussing about football.

END OF FLASH BACK.

A tear was about to slip but I controlled my emotions. I hate crying since I do  that a lot nowadays. I miss my dad.I miss him.

But now I won't think about all that since I have to concentrate on my fucked up life now.