cₗₐₛₕᵢₙg ᵣₒₘₐₙcₑ || ym. tk. nj.

jimin's self-reflection

Jimin POV

The stunt Yoongi pulled yesterday was still fresh in my mind. That kid really kissed me. I only said that because I thought he wouldn't have the guts to do it, but he actually did.

Did that mean he really... cares? Was he that desperate to prove he wanted to be my friend to the point of actually doing something so reckless that's so unlike him?

It was now the afternoon and it was almost lunch time. He avoided me all day. My previous class was with him and he didn't sit next to me as usual. He was at the other side of the room. I couldn't help but feel angry.

This was confusing me as hell! Why am I yearning for his attention? Why do I feel so bad and guilty over what happened yesterday? I didn't know the answers to my questions, but what I did know was that I wanted him back and I'm going to talk to him.

I walked out of the classroom. Class finished and I was on my way to the cafeteria, hoping to see him.

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"Just talk to him."

My eyes snapped towards Namjoon's. He was looking at me with a deadpanned face. "What are you even saying?" I muttered.

He sighed then said, "What I'm saying is that you've been staring at Min Yoongi who's alone at a table a few meters from us for the past 10 minutes, obviously guilty of doing something wrong to the poor kid."

I retorted, "I am not staring!" At that moment, V joined the conversation with mouth full of food.

"We can't understand you, pea brain." I stated, eyes rolling. He quickly chewed on the food, then immediately swallowed it. He began, "As I was saying, Namjoon-hyung is right! You've been silent the whole time looking at him. What happened anyway?"

I shook my head harshly and groaned. "It's just— The kid wants to get close with me."

"Duh. It's pretty obvious man. He was also super enthusiastic about it, until today." Namjoon replied. I nodded my head slowly then added, "But don't you think it's weird? A newbie wanting to get close with me?"

"He's just being nice."

"That's the thing! No one is nice to me, everyone is scared of me. No one wants to go near the Park Jimin."

"Maybe, that's it. The reason why he's curious and wants to get closer to you, I mean."

My mouth fell unconsciously at what Namjoon had just suggested. Was that true? No, why would he?

Namjoon added, "Look, Jimin. I know you, and you're not as bad as you think you are and how people make you seem. V and I have been with you for years now and we know you want someone like Yoongi. You've probably been waiting for someone like him. Someone to understand you, to accept you, simply love you for who you are."

I clenched my fists and muttered, "Don't we all?"

V smiled, "Exactly, so don't feel ashamed for feeling a certain way. I think you're pressured on acting a certain way because you're Park Jimin, supposedly the heartthrob heartbreaker. You're forgetting that Jimin is human too who has emotions and insecurities."

I fell silent at V's words. As much as I didn't want to admit it, he was right. It's not that I was a phony and pretended to be the way I am now to gain popularity or shit like that. I really am like this, but it would be a lie if I said I had not fantasized over the thought of someone like that.

"You really can be a genius at certain times, can't you, V?" I lightly teased. He playfully glared then threw some fries at me. I laughed at his childlishness then threw it back at him which made the fries get stuck on his hair. He didn't seem to notice the fries tangled on his hair and just continued eating, making me chuckle. Just then I saw Seokjin and Jungkook walking together.

Seokjin had a rather red face buried in his hands, seemingly explaining something frustrating to Jungkook. On the other hand, Jungkook had his hand on his back, patting it as if he was comforting Seokjin. I shrugged at the strange sight then yelled, "Yo, Seokjin!"

They looked at me then quickly went to our table. V greeted, "Hi Seokjinnie!" Seokjin smiled softly then greeted back. I looked at Jungkook to see his eyebrow arched at V's direction, probably wondering why he didn't get a greeting. Namjoon quickly joined in, "Seems like Jeon has been frequently joining us recently. Hey, Guk."

Jungkook awkwardly chuckled, "Seems like it. It's just that a while ago Seokjin had this—"

Suddenly, Seokjin covered Jungkook's mouth with terror displayed all over his face. He exclaimed, "I had these questions for our l-lovely student body president, of course!"

We all looked at them both skeptically. They were acting very weird and suspicious. I spoke, "Chill dude. If it was only that, why did you have to cut off Jeon here?"

Seokjin forcefully chuckled then said, "No reason. I just wanted to be the one to say it, that's all!"

I squinted my eyes in confusion but chose to let the topic go. "Right. Catch you guys later!" I said as I grabbed my trash then walked towards the trash bin with my eyes looking at a petite outcast.

V POV

"Where's he going?" Jungkook asked as Jin finally pulled away his hand from his mouth. I answered cheerily, "You know, to Yoongi, the other transferee along with Jinnie! He's been avoiding Chim all day."

I widened my eyes as I realized that I just responded to the one and only person I was ignoring. I hesitantly looked at him as I chewed on my sandwich to see him already looking at me. We stared at each other for a few seconds before he broke off into a small chuckle. I got confused and wondered what he found funny. I looked around to find something comedic to which he chuckled even more, then started walking closer to me.

Seokjin walked to my opposite side to sit beside Namjoon where Jimin originally was. I looked up to see Jungkook standing beside me. I gulped with red cheeks as he sat down beside me.

He whispered to me, "How are you,  Taehyung?" My cheeks grew redder as I felt his breath on my neck and the warmth of his presence. I wasn't used to Jungkook being so close to me. Usually, he didn't want to be near me or even look at me. He'd always have this disgusted look on his face when he sees me. I'd say he rather loathed me! Why is he acting like we're friends now?

I swallowed audibly as I tried to get myself together to seem scary. Failing to do so, I weakly responded, "I-I'm fine. Why were you laughing?" He smiled then reached his hand towards my face. I froze as I felt his thumb swipe over my chin and the side of my lips. "You've got sauce all over your face." He said nonchalantly. He retracted his hand then licked the sauce off his thumb.

"Hey no!!—" I exclaimed as I tried pulling his thumb away from his mouth but he pulled away. He laughed then said, "Relax tigress, it's not like it's dirty."

I was dumbfounded by his actions then glared at him, "You're weird today." He responded almost too quickly, "I'm the weird one today when you have fries sticking out of your hair?"

I stood up abruptly with my right hand on my hair, immediately feeling the scattered fries. "Wha—"

"Did you forget Jimin threw back the fries you threw at him just a while ago?" Namjoon asked. I exclaimed back, "Why didn't you tell me!?"

"It doesn't look as weird when it's you."

I grunted then ran off to the nearest restroom, not knowing someone was trailing behind me.