Who's girl?

Unexpected

<A week after taeyongs death>

I stayed at home all week crying all the time.
My mom is really worried and so is Jungkook.
I could see Jungkook was shocked by taeyongs death I saw him crying a couple of times.
Lisa would text and call me nonstop to see if I was okay......
And taeyongs parents...they were in such state that they couldn't even hold a funeral for him.

And I've realized a lot after taeyongs death...

<flashback>
(5 days ago)

Rm: y/n! Where were you for the past two days??!
Don't tell me you were with that Jungkook guy again! You still have a lot of explaining to do...I didn't forget what happened that night.
Not only him but that Taeyong,he-
Y/n: taeyongs dead rm...
Rm: what?!
Y/n: he's dead! Hes died because of me!!! Because I'm with you!.....
I'm sorry rm....I don't know what our past relationship was but,I never felt anything towards you to be honest.....
Rm......let's breakup...(crying)
Rm: y/n!....

I walk away after I put the necklace in his hand crying....

<end of flashback>

I realized that Taeyong died because of me...I didn't even get to talk to him after rm came....
That's why I've locked myself in my room,crying the entire time....
My mom is always worried about me

Mom: y/n-ah! I bought lunch for you....please come and eat,I'll keep it here...

My mom has been doing that for the past week...I dont want to leave my room so she brings the food and keeps it outside my door...

Mom:y/n,I'm really worried about you...please come out,I miss you.....I know that taeyongs death was a shock to you so take your time,but please come out as soon as you can...and always remember I'm here if you want to talk..

I wiped my tears as I listened to my mom from outside the door and after she went,I took the food and ate as much as I can so that my mom doesn't have to worry about me not eating properly because I haven't for a couple of days

<time skip>

I was laying on my bed wrapped up in my blanket,when I heard a knock on my door followed by a familiar voice.....it was Jungkook, he's so worried that he comes to my house every evening to check on me and Lisa used to come as well but she recently moved to her parents place so she usually only texts and calls me...

Jungkook: y/n.....have you eaten?
I hope your eating well,I bought your favorite doughnuts,I remember you really liked them when me,you and.....taeyong hangs out.
Your mom is really worried about you,she asked me to try and get you to come out....
I'm worried too y/n,so please.......come out...

I weeped at Jungkooks words as he was talking to me from outside and I finally started talking back from the room....

Y/n:.....I can't Jungkook
Jungkook: y/n!
Y/n: I can't come out....I was the reason Taeyong suicided,he died because of me!
Jungkook: don't say that y/n!
Y/n: it's true though!

I started crying again....

Jungkook POV:

Y/n's so depressed,I'm really worried about her...
I still can't believe that Taeyong died either...
I decided to go to his house to see if I want to keep anything of his for his memory...

<time skip>
(Taeyongs house)

His house was a mess,just how I remember it the day we found him dead...
I looked around and went to his room...there were pictures of his favorite kpop band(nct127😆)
And there were pictures of y/n and pics we took when we were friends.....
I noticed a picture of me him and y/n and put it in my pocket....
Then I found a notebook....his diary
I read it and it was all about y/n, me and that he was angry at rm and all...
I took the book as well and there was also a framed picture of Taeyong,I guessed I could put it in my room so I can remember him....