FINDING TRUE LOVE

Chapter 4

"Will's Pov"

After Jake walked away and left me on the ground in front of my locker i just laid there crying. How could i be so weak and helpless? Why does everyone hate me because of my sexual preference? it shouldnt matter if its a man and a man or a woman and another woman, love is love... But i dont have any of that, my mother tells me every day after the incident.

* Flash back to the incident*

" Daddy!!! look out!" i yelled right before the car hit us. i Blacked out and the last thing i saw was my father covered in blood in the front seat. i woke up in the hospital, i felt so weak and my throat was so dry it hurt to try and even speak. I started looking around and i saw some pretty flowers sitting by my bed, but nobody else. where is everybody? Just then the nurse came in " your awake, how are you feeling? does anything hurt?" i shook my head yes and pointed to my throat " my throat is raw and really dry can i plz have some water?" she smiled at me and told me that she'd be right back with some water and that she had some news to tell me.

As she left i lay/sat there wondering what she has to tell me, At the moment my mother came in "Mommy!!!" i reached out my arms expecting her to give me a hug and tell me it was going to be okay but she just scowled and scrunched her face in disgust. I just stared at her whats wrong with mommy? "Mommy whats wrong? wheres Daddy? " I could see the anger coming off her in waves, and her face was turning bright red " Your father is gone.." she gritted through her teeth " wha.. what?" i whispered in disbelieve thats when it happened. My mother slapped me across the face and yelled " YOU FUCKING KILLED HIM!!! YOU KILLED YOUR FATHER YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!" she hit me over and over and even tried choking me. I could fell myself slipping into darkness as she choked me harder, There were tears in my eyes as i cried. "My own mother is really killing me..." I thought and then all of a sudden i could breath again, i sat up wide eyed as i saw a man restraining my mother on the floor. " I HATE YOU!!! I COULD NEVER LOVE SOMETHING THAT KILLED THE GREATEST THING IN MY LIFE!! she kept screaming, she kept yelling more things at me , but at that point i couldnt hear anything as i passed out..

* End of flash back*

i still lay there on the ground thinking how pathetic i am when i realize i've been laying here forever and i missed 1st hour and if my mother found out that i missed classes she would hit me and tell me how much she hates me. Well fuck it.. Its gonna happen anyways so why do I even try anymore, I thought as I made my way to second hour: gym. This should be just great. We always play dodgeball and they always make the teams so unfair. They have all the big athletic popular guys and girls on one side and the weak,fat,and geeky nerds on the other side. I think the coach does this cause he think its funny. I hate him.

     Everyday when we play I always get hit in the face, can you guess by who? Yes, Jake Mr.perfect. As, I look around I realize that we actually did good to day.. Or so I thought as Jake hit a small chubby kid on my team and then it hits me that I'm the last one. Jake just looks at me, I can see the fire in his eyes from all the adrenaline but the thing that surprises me is that it slowly fades the longer he looks at me. We are staring at each other for quite awhile now then all of a sudden " WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING JAKE HIT THE FAGGOT!!" Coach yells and then the fire is back and I'm all of a sudden struggling for air as jake whips a ball into my stomach knocking the air out of me. Jake just walks away high fiving his friends and he yells over his shoulder " see you later fag" and walks into the locker room. I look down and start to to cry.. I can't take this anymore! So I just run out the school to my special place where I can be alone and think.