all a bet - Ethan Dolan

THREE

Ethan ;

*one month later*

Eventually, my mom asked me to go to school again. She said it would be better for me to go and talk to all my friends. Grayson also offered to enroll in school just for me, but I told him I'd be fine. 

Cause I would be fine. 

I had to face the fact that Bella was dead. As much as it hurt she wouldn't want me to be moping around. She'd want me to be moving on but remembering her as I did. I couldn't constantly be thinking about something I can't change. I still cry every night, but not as bad anymore. I also write in a journal, and it's like I'm talking to her. 

As weird as it sounds, I'm healing myself slowly every day. And I think my mom was right. It was my senior year. I'm graduating soon and I have to get through it for her. 

I walked into school and immediately felt eyes on me.

"Ethan!" Sam yelled running up to me.

He jumped on me hugging me. Keep in mind he's a 6'5 he weighs probably around 180 and he's also 17 years old so when I tell you I started laughing you have to understand how hard I was laughing.

"I missed you so much dude!" He yelled again kissing my cheek.

"I missed you too bro." I said recovering from what just happened.

"How you holding up?" He asked referring to Bella.

"I'm okay. Doing better than I thought to be honest." I said looking down.

"Why is everyone looking at me?" I asked meeting sams eyes.

"Oh shit dude I wasn't here, but apparently they had a whole memorial for Bella and they used pictures of all of us to show her friends and then they showed a picture of you at some random ass dance saying how we all meant so much to her." Sam said nodding his head.

"Who all came?" I asked talking about our friend group.

"I only think a few friends of hers, plus the rest of the school, but I wasn't there." He said looking down.

" I stayed home for two whole weeks just sitting in my room feeling sick to my stomach." he said shaking his head trying not to cry.

"Yeah, it's really hard for us all." I said blinking a couple of times.

"Well, I'm really glad that you're back." He said hitting my back.

"I'm glad to be back." I said giving him a small smile.

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As the day went on I got a lot more looks, but my friends had my back.

"Hey, Dolan!" I heard someone yell from behind me.

I turned around and saw my friend Brock walking towards me.

"Party at my place?" He asked raising an eyebrow

"Tonight?" I asked 

"Uh yeah dude. You should come. Lots of alcohol and hot chicks." He said 

Brock really didn't think before he spoke.

"I don't know." I said scratching my neck.

"You're coming. And you're bringing all your friends too." He said then walked off.

I rolled my eyes and then continued to walk to my class.

I thought about it for a couple of seconds as the last class of the day began thinking about it and decided a party wouldn't be so bad. Plus its senior year, I should be having fun.

I texted Sam, and Blake telling them they had to come with me. They seemed pretty excited about it. Maybe this is what we all needed. 

To get drunk and forget about it for a couple of hours. 

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*after school*

"What should I wear?" I asked Sam and Blake.

"Uh clothes? I'm no girl. Ask your mom." Blake said making Sam laugh.

"Fuck you." I said standing up and grabbing some clothes.

I ended up wearing blue jeans, White high top converse and a t-shirt.

"You look cute." Sam said in a girly voice.

"Not as cute as you." I said in the same tone.

"Not trying to third wheel, but it's time to go." Blake said poking his head in.

So we all packed into Sams black jeep and drove to the party.

There was already plenty of people there. The music was blasting, and it smelt bad. I've only been to a couple parties like this because Bell and I always thought it was just an excuse to drink alot and have sex, but it looked like a lot of fun.

I took a deep breath, then we all walked in. 

"Dolan!" Brock yelled running over

He laid his arm around my shoulder clearly drunk.

"You've gotta try this." He said shoving his cup in my hand.

I took it and downed the whole thing. It burnt, but I couldn't be a puss, so I shook it off.

"You go kid! Aren't you glad you came!?" He yelled 

"Yeah!" I yelled back over the loud music.

"Come on boys lets go have some fun!" Blake yelled with all of us running after him.

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After a lot of drinks and grinding on girls we all ended up drunk and having a whole lot of fun.

"Hey handsome!" a girl with red hair yelled to me.

"Hey!" I yelled back.

"Wanna go somewhere a bit more quiet?" She yelled back up to me.

Without even thinking I nodded and she dragged me upstairs to an empty bedroom.

"What's your na-" she cut me off by kissing me.

I wasn't sure what was about to happen. Was I gonna have sex? Was I ready to do that again? 

Fuck it.

We started undressing each other and one thing lead to another and... well you know what happens after that.