Allowing

Waking

(Yuri's p.o.v.)
TW:self harm
Note:'=yuri's bad thoughts
*=natsuki's bad thoughts
Remember that now cause it's to much work to tell you that every chapie

I tackle MC to the ground " tell me what you saw?!" I say as I start to shack him with no mercy " I'll say if... you s-stop sh-shaking me!" He tries to reason. I stop and help him up . " speak!" I shout at him as I run over to Natsuki who's on the floor. I move the hair from her face and crease her cheek. 'Dam burning up' "what did I just tell you speak now or forever not have a free tutor!" Monika shouts as she looks through her book bag. I lay natsuki's head on my lap.

"uh she was walking and two guys came up to her and I couldn't hear what they were saying but one of them punched her the other pushed her but I looked away for one minute and she was gone and the guys were wiping there hands I saw some red " he said trying not to mess up . " I don't have anything sorry I can't help." Monika said feeling useless . Sayori goes up to MC and punches his arm" and you didn't help her !" Then she walked to monika and hugged her. I slowly and gently pick her up . "Still light like last time." I whispered to my self only Sayori hearing me due to her good hearing. "I'll take her to my house I'll text you if she wakes up."

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Location: yuri's home
Time:5:45 pm

Sayo-sun-cat🍪☀️😸

Is she awake yet?
Nope not yet. Hope she
Hope she does soon.
Ok gtg tell me when
She does.

I put my phone down and look at the cute little tsundare. I slowly reach up and take the ribbons off her head and her hair clip and put it on my bedside table. I put on my earbuds and put on my favorite song : clarity by zedd
I start to sing unintentionally:

"High dive into frozen waves
Where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain
And it's worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash
'Cause we both know how this ends
Our clock ticks till it breaks your glass
And I drown in you again
'Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don't know why"

I stop singing as I noticed the short baker looking at me I look away as she gets the other ear bud and puts it on. She closes her eyes and gets into the song

"If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity
Why are you my remedy
Why are you my remedy
Why are you my clarity
Why are you my remedy
Why are you my clarity
Why are you my remedy
Why are you my clarity"

She looks at me as she sings then she looks away. A pink light fills the room . 'Oh gosh I might get blind with all this dam bright light.' I yell in my mind. I look over to Natsuki now she has her tail and ears. " can you tell me why your so beat up now?" I gently say to Natsuki as I inch closer. Her eyes start to water as she hugs me. I gently hug her back as she lets it all out. " you don't have to tell me now. You are still vary tiered maybe you should go to sleep." I say as she looks up at me still with tears in her eyes. She nodded as she cuddles closer to me.
'Uh she so warm'
no no no thoughts like that not right now!
' yes hem you've been a bad girl maybe you should do it while she's sleeping'
No she could wake up any moment
'Who cares she'll still think your a weirdo edgy bish'

I slowly get up and Natsuki tightens her grip on me I gently pry her hands off of me and get off the bed I get up and walk to my closet. in my closet there is a bunch of different stands with different knife I pick up my 2nd favorite knife still not used

The scorpion tip butterfly knife. I walk into the bathroom and look down at my sleeve I gently pull it up reveling many old scars and new ones too. I line the knife to my wrist and with a swift move both my knife and my wrist have blood. I do it
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"Yuri? Why .... why ... "

"DAMMIT "