Within Body and Soul ~Rewriting in prog~

Chapter Six

~ The next day

Yoongi's Pov

How do you tell yourself to keep calm at times like these? Every breath, movement , picture , smile all make me think about him. Im constantly being reminded of him. My heart swoons at his very mention of his name. My brain stops working becoming a blank slate when I catch a glace of him. My words don't form like they want to when I have his full attention. My body trembles when he stares into my eyes. I melt when he touches me.

His name is Jung Hoseok.

My fellow band member and a friend. Without me knowing each time that time would pass I seem to become closer and closer to him. Until I am literally him. Doesn't that sound ridiculous?

The man that makes me feel all these emotions. The man that fucks my life up entirely just by existing. I am him.

I stare in the mirror for what feels like forever. His familiar features make my heart sink as I touch my-his cheek. It was soft as I remember. Every second I stood there looking in the mirror only made me feel like I was frozen in time.

If I stay just like this I have his attention. If I stay like this Jimin won't bother him. If I stay like this we will be alone. If I stay like this no one will take him from me.

"If I stay like this...."

The bathroom door opens and creaks as the platter of footsteps get closer. I stay put not moving an inch. My body trembles unable to keep the emotions bottled up.

" It's ok man...." His arms rest at my shoulder.

"Maybe he will love me this time...." I sniffle and look down falling weak to Namjoon's chest.

He still holds a special place in my heart....

I don't want to let go....

But I need to...

Hoseok's Pov

How do I explain this? How can someone put these feelings into words? Can actions even explain it? Someone please explain it to me...

Tell me what I'm doing wrong. Explain what I need to change or what I need to show. What are the requirements of keeping someone's heart? How do you protect instead of break?

He was already so fragile. He was always silent and distant for a reason. The many times he spent alone.

I was so selfish asking and luring him to open up to me. Knowing each piece he shared of himself I could smash into pieces. His puzzle pieces of 50 easily became thousands when I messed up.

Is it wrong to say I loved every moment we had together? Is it wrong to say how his gummy smile would make my day shine brighter? That his laugh made my heart do these crazy flips and turns. Can it be the times he says 'Seokie I miss you' when just being apart for a few moments? His soft head kisses he would give me as I fell asleep. Can it be how he would cling onto me as we slept and mumble my name in his dreams with an adorable smile?

My point is...

The reason I'm saying this is because...

"Hyungie!!" Taehyung attacks me giving me a bear hug. I cover my face not wanting to be seen like this.

"I...I thought I had locked the door.." My voice cracks as I spoke. Taehyung goes quiet for a moment and takes my hand away from my face. He gives a sad smile but nuzzles me comforting me more.

"I figured you would be in the private dance studio." He says giggling and I tilt my head.

"How? " was all I could think to say and he pouts.