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Chapter 1

TRIGGER: Swearing, drugs and pills (mentioned) and terrible English ヾ(ﾟ∀ﾟゞ)

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"Hey Jack! Are you coming? The doctors say's we can go outside for awhile." A boy with black hair was standing in the door of his best mate, Jack.
But the blond haired boy didn't move from his spot next to the bed.

"Hey, everything alright? You don't look so good over there."

Slowly he made his way to Jack and waved his hand in front of the boys face.
No reaction, not even a blink.

"Don't waste your time on him Nelson. When this idiot doesn't want to go outside it's his
problem. " said a sickly sweet voice behind him.
"Oh for god sake, shut the fuck up Anastasia." He turned around to the other patient. Her hair was in an tight bun and her Make up circled around her eyes.
In Nelson's eyes: She was the biggest bitch in the planet.

"I think the doctors should look him up. This psycho doesn't belong in here." Anastasia smirked.
In this moment Nelson wanted to punch her so hard in the face.

"You're a bigger psycho than any of us. So shut up and get lost."

Nelson stood up and walked over to Anastasia. The girl backed away and literally run the hall down to get to the backyard.

Nelson groaned, Anastasia could talk a lot, but in the end she was very scared of him.
He closed the door and turned back to Jack, but the boy didn't show any reaction to Nelson's voice, just hugged himself and rocked back and forth.
Nelson sighed, again. And here he thought Jack would be cooperative.

"Hey Jack... I know life is bullshit and you want to get out of here. But could you at least come out of your little bubble and go outside...I think the fresh air would do you really good.". Jack nodded a bit but didn't show any reactions to stand up.

"Come on." Nelson grabbed Jack on the arms and hieved him up to sit on the bed.
Jack's eyes were a little focused again and he looked at the older boy.

"Nel? What're doin' here?" Jack's voice was a bit slurred and he looked confused.

"I was trying to bring you back from Disneyland. Since...more than 20 minutes."
"Disneyland?"
"Some park... I don't know. But I'll show you when we're out of this hellhole."
"Yeah.. That's a good idea." Jack looked to the watch on his nightstand.
"Can...can we go outside?"

Jack stood up and swayed a bit, but Nelson got him and laughed.
"Hell yeah we can. We still have half an hour to motivate our asses to go outside."
Jack nooded and walked with Nelson to the backyard of the clinic.

It was like a little park with a playground on it.

"Hey guys! Sweet that you decided to join us!" A tall guy with long brown hair run up to the pair ans hugged them.
"Hey Jason, yeah. The weather is too good to miss it." Jack laughed shyly and looked away.
"I told you you don't need to lie to me Jacki." Jason's eyes were concerned and he laid a hand on Jacks shoulder.

The 19 year old was like a brother to all patients (expect for Anastasia) and everyone loved him. He was kind and once he punched Anastasia when she wanted money from Miranda, a little girl who was always scared.

Since this day Jason and Nelson were best friends (and Jack) and no one could tear them apart.
Expect for food, because Jason and Jackson loved it.
"Hey.. Ehm.. Could we sit down? My head feels a bit fuzzy." Jack looked a bit up.
"Sure, we could sit with Miranda if it's okay for you." Jason smiled and started walking.

Jack just nooded and followed him with Nelson. Second boy noticed that Jack was getting pale and he grabbed Nelson's arm like his life dependent on it.
On the bench Nelson placed Jack careful next to Miranda.
"Is everything alright? Should I get the Doctor?"
Jack shook his head "N... No, I'm just tired I think."
"I hope that's no excuse that you use for not eating today." Jason stood behind Nelson and looked down on Jack.

"Jason!" Nelson looked at him shocked. How could he think that Jack is using it as an excuse.
"I'm just saying that I notice that you're trying more often to be absent on the meals. I know you can't eat and so but since two weeks you don't even try to be there."

Jack looked at Jason as if he just said something terrible.
"It's not the eating problem... It's..." He was rambling but no one understand what he was saying.
"What is it? Just tell us we won't judge you Jack. You know that."
Jack was shaking a bit and his hands were fumbling with the hem of his shirt.

"I didn't take anything since 4 days and 6 hours." now his voice was shaking too.
Everyone gasped, even Miranda.
"Jack! Fuck we need to tell the doctors...right now." Nelson stood up.
"N...No please don't." Jack was near to tears now. He tried to grab Nelson's Arm, or Jason's.
In the end it was Miranda who grabbed his hand.

Jack looked at her hand, Miranda, who hates touching more than anything else has grabbed his hand to comfort him.

He gave her a weak smile and looked at the other two boys.
"Please-"
"No. Jack we love you and we would do everything for you. But not taking ANY meds is just...No. I can't even find any words. What are you even taking? And how did the doc's didn't notice anything?  Antidepressants, something about seizure...fuck if you had a seizure right now you would be death or something. What else are ya taking?"
"I don't know...something for the drugs I think...and for anxiety. But they were making me dizzy..."
"It doesn't matter if they make you dizzy. Hell is doesn't matter if you're sleeping the whole day. They gave you these pills to help you. And now: How did you manage that without the docs noticing?"

"They trust me. They bring them to me when I need to take them and then just leave."
"That's going to change. Jason stay here and watch him. I'm searching for the doc's." and with that Nelson was gone.

Jack gritted his teeths and looked at Jason and Miranda, who was standing now next to the boy.
"Jason please...I don't want to take them anymore..." Tears were filling his eyes. But Jason just shocked his head.

"I'm sorry Jack. But you don't know what's best for you in the moment. Let them help you."
And with that his vision blurred and everything was going to fast.
He felt hands on his arms and hears voices around him. He didn't even notice that some doctor injected him something in the arm. But the dark that followed was welcoming to him, because fuck, was he tired.

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Hey, I hope you like it so far (and that you can read this terrible English XD) It's my first fan fiction in English that I'm publishing so please tell me when something isn't right and/or sounds wrong.