Desiring Her

Part 4

CHAPTER 17BEING ACCEPTED for who she is and for what she'd been through changes her. Pagkatapos niyangikuwento kay Cadmus ang madilim niyang nakaraan at hindi nagbago ang pakikitungo nito sa kaniya ay masnaging komportable siyang kasama ito.Mas naging malaya ang galaw niya at emosyon niya. She felt free to express her emotion knowing thatCadmus will treat her just the same.Berry can feel herself changing as the day pass by since she told Cadmus everything. She bacame moretalkative, more arguable, more physical closeness and she's getting more comfortable with Cadmus. And shelikes it.She like being close with Cadmus. He makes her happy and it's an addictive feeling. Gusto niyang magingmasaya siya at isa si Cadmus sa nagpapasaya sa kaniya."Welcome to Heaven's Gateway Resort, Ma'am." Anang lalaki sa likod ng front desk na pumukaw sa pagiisip niya, "how may I help you?"www.ebook-converterNapatingin siya sa lalaki at pinakiramdaman niya ang sarili. She's not comfortable under his gaze but she'snot afraid."Ma'am?" Pukaw ng lalaki sa kaniya.She smiled. "Ahm, I need a room."The man in the front desk smiled back. "The only vacancy we have is the Executive Room, Ma'am."Berry spend two years of her life in Hotels, so she knew what to say and ask. "Double bed or queen bed?""Queen bed, Ma'am. Soft and very comfortable.""With Jacuzzi?""Yes, ma'am."Wattpad Converter de"What type of key are you using?""Card key, Ma'am.""Is the room facing the ocean? With balcony? Is there a free breakfast for the room? Towels ready? Newbeddings?""All yes, Ma'am.".?""Seventy-two inches, Ma'am. HD. And our Channel goes up to 79.""Oh." Napatango-tango siya. "Do you have a pool here?""Yes, Ma'am." He smiled. "It's part of your room. In private.""A private pool just for us?""Yes. It's part of the Executive Room, Ma'am.""Oh. Okay. I'll take it.""Okay, ma'am." He smiled at her again, "name, please?""Berry Lacsamana.""Are you alone or do you—""I'm with someone. He's ahm, he's just getting our bags."www.ebook-converter"How many days are you staying, Ma'am?""T-two days?" Napangiwi siya, "I'm not sure.""Okay, Ma'am. Just a minute..." he faced the computer, maybe to input something then he gave her a key card."Tenth floor, Room 103."Tinanggap niya ang card at napangiti siya sa saya ng hindi napaigtad kahit nahawakan ng lalaki ang kamayniya."Thank you." Aniya na nakangiti.He smiled back. "Enjoy your stay, Ma'am."Tumango siya saka umikot. Kaagad na nagliwanag ang mukha niya at awtomatikong kumaway ang kamay niyang makita si Cadmus na nakaupo sa waiting area at nakatitig sa kaniya."Hey..." masaya niyang sabi ng makalapit dito. "Did you see me talk to that man in the front desk?" Sheclapped her hands in happiness. "I rocked, Cad."Wattpad Converter deHe forced a smile. "Yeah. Nakita ko nga."Nawala ang ngiti sa mga labi niya ng makitang mukhang may iritasyong kislap sa mga mata nito. "Nagagalitka ba kasi hindi natin kasama si Snow? I missed Snow too. I haven't seen her for a week and I missed her.""We'll see her when we get back." Anito sa malamig na boses."Cadmus..." pinakatitigan niya ito. "Why do you look mad?"P 19-2"It's nothing." He, then, smile. "Don't mind me."Hindi alam ni Berry kung pilit lang ang ngiti na 'yon o kung totoo. She's not good at reading people's emotion.She suck at it. Kaya naman hinayaan nalang niya si Cadmus. Magsasabi naman ito kung may problema sila."Namimiss ko na si Snow." Sabi niya habang naglalakad sila patungong elevator."Pagbalik natin, nasa bahay na siya. Don't worry. I'm sure she misses you too."Napabuntong-hininga siya. "Okay...""Why still sad?" Cadmus asked as they enter the elevator, "kasama mo naman ako, ah. Masaya naman akongkasama. Saka hindi kita maaakit kung kasama natin si Snow."Tinaasan niya ng kilay si Cadmus, "puro nalang pang-aakit ang nasa isip mo, hindi mo naman ginagawa."Mahinang natawa si Cadmus saka parang nanggigigil na hinalikan siya sa nuo. "Ang Berry ko talaga.Nagbabago na."Napangiti siya sa tinuran ni Cadmus. "Talaga? Nagbabago na ako?""Yes." He nodded. "You're becoming naughty."Nawala ang ngiti niya at napakunot ang nuo niya. "Masama ba 'yon? Nakita ko sa TV na gusto iyon ng mgalalaki?""Yes, We do like that. And you're killing me with your new found naughtiness."Berry chuckled. "The last time, you said I'm killing you with my innocence, now I'm killing you with mynaughtiness." She clapped her hands, grin on her lips, "I am indeed improving, Cadmus. I'm looking forwardto meeting a lot of people to see if I'm really getting better." Malapad siyang ngumiti, "did you see meearlier? I didn't feel comfortable but I didn't had an anxiety attack. Nakakaya ko nang makipag-usap sa mgalalaki kahit hindi ko kilala. Nakakatuwa naman 'to...""Yeah. I'm happy for you."Napatingin siya kay Cadmus ng mapansing walang buhay ang boses nito. "Okay ka lang? Masama ba angpakiramdam mo?"Cadmus shook his head and offered her his hand. "Hold me?"Wattpad Converter deShe frowned. "Why?""Because I like holding your hand." Anito. "It makes me feel that you need me.""I do need you." Aniya na kunot ang nuo. "I really do."Hindi umimik si Cadmus at iginiya lang siya palabas ng elevator at patungo sa kuwarto na uukupahin nila.Hanggang makapasok sila ay walang imik si Cadmus at parang ang lalim ng iniisip nito.Something is wrong with him. Berry can feel it."May nagawa ba akong mali?" Tanong niya ng maisara ni Cadmus ang pinto ng kuwarto. Ayaw niyangmagalit sa kaniya si Cadmus, baka iwan siya nito at pabayaan. "May nasabi ba akong hindi mo nagustuhan,ha, Cadmus?"He remained silent."Cadmus..." humawak siya sa braso nito, "Cadmus, please, talk to me...""You didn't do anything." Itinabi nito ang mga bag nila saka malakas itong napabuntong-hininga. "I was justover thinking."Tumungo siya sa harapan ni Cadmus at tinitigan ito sa mga mata. "Huwag mo naman akong takutin ng ganun.Akala ko may nagawa akong mali. Ayokong magalit ka sakin. Hindi ko kakayanin."Cadmus' face softened. "I'm sorry...it's just that, from where I was sitting, I saw how well you interacted withthat man on the front desk. Para kang ibang tao. You look lively and you don't look afraid. Nanibago langako.""It's a good thing right?" Usisa niya."Yes.""Then why do you look sad?" Naguguluhan niyang tanong. "Hindi ba dapat masaya ka para sakin, kasinagagawa ko na ang ginagawa ng mga normal na tao? I can speak to a man now, Cadmus. It's not just youanymore that I can speak to without being afraid. I'm improving, Cad.""I know..." hinaplos nito ang buhok niya, "naisip ko lang kanina habang pinagmamasdan kang kausap anglalaki sa front desk... kung tuluyan ka ng gagaling tapos ma realise mo na hindi mo pala kayang suklian angnararamdaman ko at aalis ka sa poder ko." Marahas itong umiling. "Hindi ko yata 'yon kakayanin, Berry.Hindi ko kayang makita na magmamahal ka ng iba at sasama sa iba. And I'm getting scared every time I seeyou getting better at dealing with people around you.""Cad..." hindi niya alam na may ganito palang nararamdaman si Cadmus. "Hindi naman ako aalis sa tabi moah.""You don't know that." Malungkot itong ngumiti. "Nasanay akong ako lang ang kasama mo. Sa akin ka langmay tiwala, sa akin ka lang komportable, ako lang ang hinahayaan mong hawakan ka at sa akin ka langngumingiti. At natatakot ako na makahanap ka ng ibang lalaki na mapagkakatiwalaan mo rin maliban sakin atiiwan mo ako para sa kaniya."Wattpad Converter de"H-hindi naman mangyayari 'yon—""Gusto kitang ipagdamot sa buong mundo, Berry." Hinaplos nito ang pisngi niya, "gusto kitang ikulong sabahay ko. Pero mas nangingibabaw ang kagustuhan kong maging masaya ka...na gumaling ka. And I'm willingto risk my happiness for your happiness. Bahala na. Iniisip ko nalang na kung akin ka, akin ka."Kung akin ka, akin ka.Umangat ang kamay niya para haplusin ang pisngi ni Cadmus. At nang hindi siya magkasya sa paghaplos sapisngi nito, iniyakap niya ang mga braso sa leeg nito saka pinakatitigan ang guwapong mukha ni Cadmus.As he looked back at her, her eyes dropped to his lips. They look soft and inviting."Puwede kitang halikan kung kailan ko gusto, hindi ba?" Pabulong niyang tanong.Cadmus gulped. "Y-yes.""I-If I kiss you..." pinagdikit niya ang ilong nilang dalawa, "would you smile for me and would you stopbeing sad?""Kiss me and you'll know."Napalunok siya. "I n-never kissed you in the lips before.""You're not ready then.""And you think I'm ready now?""It depends...if you can kiss me."Buong tapang na paunti-unti niyang inilapit ang mga labi sa labi ni Cadmus habang palakas ng palakas angtahip ng puso niya.Her heart is palpitating... it's about to burst open in nervousness and other emotions but her mind didn'tchange. She wanted to kiss Cadmus. To prove to him that she would never look for someone else to make herhappy. That he's enough for her to be happy.Ipinikit niya ang mga mata kasabay ng paglapat ng labi niya sa malambot at mamasamasang labi ni Cadmus.Berry felt like their lips are mold perfectly for each other. They fit perfectly. Her lips against his. Theirbreath mixing with each other as Cadmus lips started to move.Napahawak siya sa balikat ni Cadmus ng mag-umpisang gumalaw ang mga labi nito at naramdaman niya angkamay nito sa likod niya, humahagod kasabay ng paglalaro ng dila nito sa dila niya, nanunudyong mas ibukaspa niya ang bibig.Hindi niya mapigilang kagatin ang labi ni Cadmus ng makaramdam siya ng kiliti sa puson niya na bumabiyahepababa sa mga hita niya patungo sa talampakan niya.Wattpad Converter deThat pleasure... this is the sensation she felt when Cadmus kissed her on the lips the second time.That addictive pleasure... oh, jesus. What is she feeling like this? Is this desire? Lust?"Move your lips, baby..." bulong ni Cadmus sa mga labi niya bago siya hinalikan ulit.Mas mapusok. Mas mainit.P 19-5And Berry obliged. She move her lips. Ginaya niya ang paggalaw ng labi ni Cadmus, pati ang pagtukso ngdila nito sa dila niya.Cadmus' lips tasted like ecstasy ... his lips is addictive. And she wanted more of its addictive taste...thataddictive pleasure. So she kissed him, move her lips like his, she mimic the movement of his tongue teasingher as her body fell towards the soft mattress.Berry was breathing heavily as she run her fingers on Cadmus' hair who's on top of her, her tongue is battlingwith Cadmus'. Their lips are kissing fervently and her body is scorching hot.She's trembling...but not in fear but in desire that's consuming her.Cadmus' deepened the kiss even more and her hand fisted on the cover of the mattress, her eyes squeezedshut. His hands caressing her body, moving down to her waist, down to her hips, making her body squirm intingling sensation.Kumawala ang mahina pero sunod-sunod na halinghing sa mga labi ni Berry ng humaplos ang isang kamay niCadmus sa dibdib niya.Her body felt so hot and there's something inside her that wanted to get out but his hand moved to her innerthigh and brushed against her womanhood.And everything faded. Everything disappeared. Every emotion, every desire and pleasure was replaced byfear and the kiss was broken.Para siyang napaso na itinulak paalis sa pagkakakubabaw sa kaniya si Cadmus at niyakap ang sarili habangpilit na nilalabanan ang takot na nararamdaman.It's okay, Berry. It's Cadmus! It's Cadmus! He won't hurt me. He won't hurt me. He cares for me. He won'thurt me—Natigilan siya ng yumakap sa kaniya ang matitipunong bisig ni Cadmus at hinalik-halikan siya sa likod ng ulo."I'm sorry." Bulong nito habang yakap siya ng mahigpit. Pareho silang nakahiga sa kama. "I shouldn't havetouch you there. I should have been more careful. I didn't mean to scare you. Hindi ko lang napigilan angsarili ko. I'm sorry, baby. Please forgive me.""A-ayos lang." Aniya saka pumihit ng higa paharap kay Cadmus. "P-pasensiya ka na. I-it's my fault." Nakagatniya ang pang-ibabang labi. "A-ako naman ang h-humalik sayo eh. You didn't force me to do it. I-I did it inmy own free w-will. I'm sorry. N-natakot ulit ako. S-sorry..."Shhh..." hinaplos nito ang pisngi niya, "it's okay, baby. It's okay. I understand."She looked at Cadmus, confused. "Bakit ang bait-bait mo sakin? Why do you always understand me?"He smiled at her. "Mahal kita eh." Humaplos ang isang daliri nito mula sa nuo pababa sa tungki ng ilong niya."Yan ang simple kong sagot sa simple mong tanong. Mahal kita kaya kaya kong intindihin lahat. Mahal kitakaya kaya kong tanggapin lahat."P 19-6"Bakit mo ba ako mahal?" Naguguluhan niyang tanong. "Wala naman akong ginawa sayo para mahalin moako. And you've known me for what? Two months?""Love knows no time, Berry." Humaplos ang daliri nito sa mamasa-masa niyang labi saka hinalikan nito angtungki ng ilong niya. "Love is not measured by how many days, months or years lovers spend together."Hinaplos nito ang pang-itaas niyang labi. "May iba nga diyan, ang tagal nang magkasama, naghihiwalay parin. Yong iba naman, nagkakakilala palang pero magpapakasal na kaagad. See what I mean? We can't reallyknow love because it's a mystery. A mystery that people loves to dissect. But at the end of the day, love is ...love. No description is enough to define it. You just feel it.""And when did you feel that you love me?" She wanted to know why he feel that way towards her. "That youcan accept me wholly?""Since the first time I saw you."Kumunot ang nuo niya. "I don't believe you. Sinigawan mo nga ako eh kasi akala mo ako ang asawa mo.""No. Not that." Umiling ito. "The very first time."Mas lalong lumalim ang pagkakakunot ng nuo niya ng maalala ang kinuwento nito. "When I bought a fries andyou saw me?"He nodded and smile like he remembered something funny. "I followed you that day. And yes, I even findmyself creepy at the time."Napangiti siya. "Hindi ka naman mukhang creepy.""Trust me. I know I am." He chuckled. "Nuong una, simpleng atraksiyon lang naman ang nararamdaman kopara sayo. Nagagandahan ako sayo kaya hinanap-hanap kita. I was crazy over you...so everyday, I went by toyour school to see you."Hindi siya makapaniwala sa naririnig. "You went by to my school to see me?""Yes. See?" He chuckled. "I told you I'm creepy.""Pero hindi ka lumapit sakin kahit minsan?"Umiling ito. "Hindi eh. Nahihiya ako sayo. Ang ganda-ganda mo kasi eh, halos lahat ng lalaki na nakakakitasayo, tumitigil para lang titigan ka. Ganun ka kaganda. Tapos ako, nag-aaral palang, wala pangnapapatunayan sa sarili. Parang hindi tayo bagay."Tinitigan niya ang mukha ni Cadmus. "Bakit naman hindi? Guwapo ka rin naman, ah. Siguradong bagaytayong dalawa."Cadmus laughed. "Talagang bagay tayo. Pero nang magdesisyon akong lapitan ka, hindi na kita nakita. Iassumed that you changed school and that's when I started missing you. I don't even know why I'm feeling thatway. Walang araw na hindi ka laman ng isip ko hanggang sa naka-graduate ako. Hindi ako nagka-girlfriendng dahil sayo, alam mo ba?"P 19-7Napalabi siya, "bakit parang sinisisi mo ako?""Hindi naman." Kaagad na sabi ni Cadmus. "Ikaw lang kasi talaga ang gusto ko eh. I can't make myself adoreother woman. So when I saw Cherry applied in my office as my secretary who looks exactly like you, Ithought she was you. So I started courting her. Hindi ako nagpaligoy-ligoy. Pinakasalan ko kaagad siya."Malakas itong bumuntong-hininga saka napailing, "that was my greatest mistake. I should have listen to myinstinct that something was wrong... that she wasn't the woman that I fell in love with at first. Ang gago kolang eh. Ang tanga-tanga ko. I should have listen to my heart back then."The funny thing was... my heart didn't beat fast like it does to you." Mahina itong natawa saka nailing, "itwas just the face ... that beautiful face. 'Yon lang ang dahilan ko kung bakit ko siya pinakasalan. I thought tomyself, I love this woman. I'd been in love with her since I was in College and now I have the chance to bewith her. I'd been looking for her ... for you ... and I thought I found you. I was so freaking happy. But threemonths after our wedding, everything fell apart. She keeps on sleeping around with other men."And I was so disappointed you know. Minsan nga tinatanong ko ang sarili ko, ito ba? Ito ba ang babaengminahal ko? Ito yong babaeng hinanap ko? Ang babaeng hindi mawala sa isip ko? Kasi 'tangina naman, hindiiyon ang inaasahan ko. Then you came..."She smiled. "I came ... and...""And my heart starts beating again. I was so disgusted with myself. Why now? Why beat now? I keep askingmy heart that. Sa dami ng ginawa sakin ni Cherry, bakit titibok ang puso ko? 'Yon pala, ibang tao ka talaga.'Yon pala, ikaw 'yong babaeng matagal ko nang hinahanap." He smiled happily. "And now, here we are,together."Her smile didn't falter. "I'll stay with you...that's a promise."Hinawi ni Cadmus ang ilang hibla ng buhok niya na nakatabing sa mukha niya. "I hope you do. Kasi kungkinaya ko na sumama si Cherry sa iba't-ibang lalaki, hindi ko 'yon kakayanin sayo. Just the thought of youbeing this close to a man angers me. It's just thought... paano pa kaya kung gawin mo na. Baka makapatay akong tao, Berry. Makakapatay ako.""Hindi ko 'yon gagawin sayo." Inilapit niya ang katawan sa katawan ni Cadmus saka iniyakap niya ang brasosa beywang nito habang ang ulo niya ay nasa ilalim ng baba nito. "I will stay by your side like how youstayed with me. You can count on that, Cad. You can count on me, that I promise."Cadmus hugged her tightly and kissed her head. "A decade or so.""Hmm?""That's how long I'b been loving you. A decade."Hindi niya akalaing sa isang dekadang puro paghihirap ang naranasan niya, mayroon palang taongnagmamahal sa kaniya.She let out a long soft breath. "I think you just made my heart skips a beat."Cadmus just chuckled and continued caressing her hair and back softly.Silence. Soothing silence.Then she remembered something he said."Cad?" She called his name softly."Yes, babe?""You said 'love is not measured by how many days, months or years lover spend together'.""Yes. What about it?""I have a question.""Ask away.""Are we lovers?"Seconds passed. "Do you want to be my lover?""No." She closed her eyes. "I prefer the word love. Lover has a negative connotation.""You're already my love, Berry."Napangiti siya saka natahimik habang pinakikinggan ang mabilis na pagtibok ng puso niya.I'm his love. Cadmus' love. Why does it sounds so good? And my heart is pounding so loud. Ngayong langniya kailangang pakalmahin ang sarili hindi dahil sa takot kundi dahil sa masasal na tibok ng puso niya dahilkay Cadmus."Babe?""Hmm?" She hummed."Gusto mo bang bumaba para makaligo tayo sa Beach?"Kaagad siyang na excite sa sinabi ni Cadmus. Mabilis siyang kumawala sa yakap nito at umalis ng kama."Let's go!"Natatawang bumangon si Cadmus saka tinuro ang isang pinto sa loob ng kuwarto. "Hindi naman puwede angjeans sa dagat. Bihis ka muna.""Okay." Masaya siyang sumunod at nilapitan ang bag niya para kunin ang damit pang-ligo niya.Then she immediately went inside the bathroom to change.Mabilis siyang nagbihis dahil excited siyang maligo sa dagat. Nang lumabas siya ng banyo, nakita niyangnakahiga si Cadmus sa kama ng patihaya saka nakaunan ito sa sariling braso na naka-krus sa ilalim ng uloP 19-9nito at nakikinig sa kanta mula sa T.V. habang nakapikit ang mga mata.'...I'm not afraid to look insane, 'cause I'm crazy about you.'Cadmus was singing along softly with his deep baritone voice and she can't help but to stare.'There's nothing that I won't do,Just to make you love me, love me, love me,Throw away my pride for you,Just to make you love me, love me, love me,Baby, I know I'm all but shameless,Need you and I could careless.If everyone knows that I'm your fool,Girl, there's nothing I won't do,Just to make you love me, love me, love me.'Nagmulat ito ng mata at natigilan ng makita siyang nakatitig dito. "W-what?""What song is that?""My Gospel by Charlie Puth." He answered. "It's a good song for hopelessly in love person like me.""Oh..." she wants to hear him sing again, "can you sing again?"Cadmus didn't answer but he did sing along again as he looked at her.'Say this whole world can know you're all I need,'Cause, baby, someday I'll drop and hit one knee and tell you,I'm not afraid to change your name,'Cause I'm crazy about you.'Wattpad Converter de"Para sa akin ba ang kantang 'yan?" Tanong niya kay Cadmus ng tumigil ito sa pagkanta, "kung hindi, huwagmo nang sagutin."Tumawa si Cadmus saka bumangon mula sa pagkakahiga, "baby, lahat ng ginagawa ko, para 'yon sayo.""Pati paghinga mo?" Biro niyang tanong sabay sumampa sa kama. "Kasi hindi na talaga ako maniniwalakapag pati 'yan para sakin."P 19-10"Yes. I'm breathing for Snow and for you."She took a deep breath and kneel on the bed. "I'm breathing for you and Snow too. See?" She smiled. "Tapossabi mo kanina hindi tayo bagay.""Noon 'yon." Kaagad na bawi ni Cadmus saka lumuhod sa kama at ipinalibot ang mga braso sa beywang niya."Noon hindi tayo bagay, pero ngayon, bagay na bagay na. Mahal na mahal na nga kita eh, tapos hindi tayobagay? Ah, hindi puwede 'yon."Tumawa siya saka natigilan ng marinig ang kasunod na kanta sa pinapanuod ni Cadmus na channel."Oh! Waaaa!" Berry was excited when she heard the song. She was even jumping up and down on her kneeson the bed. "Wow! I know that song! I know that song, Cadmus! I saw it on TV!""Then sing it, baby." Cadmus urged her. "Sing it.""This is for you, Cad." Malapad ang ngiting sabi niya saka sinabayan si Camila Cabello na kumanta habangnakaharap kay Cadmus at ginawa pang microphone ang sariling kamay..."...Blurring all the lines, you intoxicate me...Just like nicotine, heroin, morphineSuddenly, I'm a fiend and you're all I needAll I need, yeah, you're all I needIt's you, babeAnd I'm a sucker for the way that you move, babeAnd I could try to run, but it would be uselessYou're to blameJust one hit of you, I knew I'll never be the sameIt's you, babeAnd I'm a sucker for the way that you move, babeWattpad Converter deAnd I could try to run, but it would be uselessYou're to blameJust one hit of you, I knew I'll never ever, ever be the sameI'll never be the sameI'll never be the sameP 19-11I'll never be the same...'Sa sobrang saya niya, pumalakpak pa siya pagkatapos kumanta saka tumingin kay Cadmus na nakatitig sakaniya na para bang may ginawa siyang kamangha-mangha na hindi ito makapaniwala."What?" She asked, confused."You sang ... for me.""Yes." She smiled. "Para 'yon sayo."He blinked, dumbfounded. "Do you even know what that song means?"Nakangiting tumango siya. "Of course. It means finding someone very important to me and never letting himgo because you're my drug and my cure and I know how much you changed me and I also know that I'll neverbe the same again ... because of you."His jaw tightened. "Don't tease me, Berry. I'm serious."Sinalubong niya ang mga mata ni Cadmus. "Seryuso din naman ako. Sa tingin mo hahayaan kitang lumapitsakin, hawakan ang katawan ko at halikan ako kung hindi? I know what that song means, Cadmus. I craveyour presence, I need you touch and I want your kisses. Hindi ko man masabing mahal kita ngayon kasi hindiko pa alam kung anong ibig sabihin no'n para sakin pero alam ko naman sa sarili ko na mababaliw ako kungiiwan at pababayaan mo ako. You're my strength, Cadmus. Ikaw ang bumabalanse sa mundo. You are thelight to my darkness. You're my anchor, my salvation and my hero, don't you know that?"Gumalaw ang panga ni Cadmus. Akala niya galit ito sa kaniya pero bigla nalang nitong hinawakan ang batokniya at marubdub na hinalikan ang mga labi niya.Mahina siyang napadaing sa ginawa nitong paghalik. He was kissing her fervently, non stop and he just keepon moving his lips, biting her lips, sucking her tongue and making her breathless. Sa sobrang alab ng haliknito ay halos mapugto ang hininga niya kung hindi pa nito pinakawalan ang mga labi niya.Pero hindi si Cadmus tumigil doon. Hinalikan ulit siya nito na para bang hindi ito makuntento sa paghalik sakaniya ngayon-ngayon lang."Berry?"She's still catching her own breath. "Y-yes?""Let's go and swim." Anito pero ang mga labi nito ay humahaplos pa rin sa labi niya at parang ayaw pa siyanitong pakawalan.Wattpad Converter de"Why?" She asked and gulped. "P-parang ayaw mo pa naman...""If we stay here, I don't know if I can still control myself not to kiss you, touch you, taste you, lick you andfeel you." He pressed his lips with her and slightly bit her lower lip then he whispered, "every word thatcomes out from your lips makes my heart pound and makes me wanna make love to you so hard. And we bothknow you're not ready for that."P 19-12Nanunuyo ang lalamunan na tumango siya saka ihiniwalay ang katawan kay Cadmus.Napakabilis pa rin ng tibok ng puso niya habang nakaluhod siya sa kama at si Cadmus naman ay nakaupo sagilid ng kama at nagpapalit ng damit.She looked at Cadmus bare back.Unti-unting nanlaki ang mga mata niya ng makita ang mga sugat nito sa likod. Para iyong bakas ng manipis napamalo. She would know because she also have the same scars on her back.Oh, her Cadmus...Nakaluhod siyang lumapit kay Cadmus at niyakap ito mula sa likuran. She keeps on hugging him until hefinished changing."Let's go?"Tumango siya pero nanatiling nakayakap sa likod ni Cadmus. And when she didn't let go of him, he looked ather over his shoulder."Babe?"She rested her chin on his shoulder. "Hmm?""Hindi ka aalis diyan sa likod ko? Ipi-piggy back kita."Napangiti siya sa tinuran nito. "Piggy back me then."Naiiling na natawa nalang si Cadmus saka tumayo at binuhat nga siya sa likod nito.Impit siyang napahiyaw saka mas hinigpitan ang pagkakakayakap niya kay Cadmus habang naglalakad itopalabas ng kuwarto nila.Sa halip na mahiya sa mga taong nakakasalubong nila na pinagtitinginan sila, tawa lang siya ng tawa dahilnatutuwa siyang karga-karga siya nito sa likuran nito. Hanggang sa makasakay sila sa elevator, palabas nghotel at patungo sa beach, naka-piggyback siya kay Cadmus.Cadmus only put her down when they reach the shore.Nang makababa siya, hindi na niya hinintay si Cadmus. Patakbo siyang lumusong sa dagat habang ang lapadng ngiti sa mga labi niya. Ngayon lang niya naranasang maligo sa dagat kaya siyang-siya siya. Para siyangbumalik sa pagkabata at naglaro sa tubig.Wattpad Converter deShe was grinning from ear to ear and spinning around and playing in the water. Splashing herself with waterand laughing with herself.She's happy. Very happy.Then she saw Cadmus, just a meter away, staring at her softly with a smile on his face.P 19-13"Thank you." Sabi niya at malapad itong nginitian ng buong kasiyahan. "Thank you so much."He just smiled and take a dip.Kaagad niyang hinanap si Cadmus at akmang iikot siya para hanapin ito sa tubig na nasa kabilang banda ngbigla itong umahon sa harapan niya.Malakas siyang napasinghap sa gulat. "Cadmus!"Cadmus just laughed and carry her towards the hallow part. She keep screaming for him to stop moving sinceshe can't swim but he just continued while laughing. And when he's done teasing her, they play with thewater, they splash water at each other, he piggyback her towards the deep part of the ocean again and hekeeps on teasing her about sharks.Hindi naman niya nagawang magalit kay Cadmus dahil kahit siya ay tawa rin ng tawa.'Yon ang ginawa nila mula alas-kuwatro ng hapon hanggang sa lumubog ang araw. They play like they're kidsand had fun. She had fun. A new happy memory to treasure. A new happy memory to replace her nightmares.A new happy memory with Cadmus.My Cadmus.Putang ina?? Ano ba yan di natuloy but I understand you berry I really do but gusto ko talagang matuloy ehhWattpad Converter deP 19-14CHAPTER 18KHappy Anniversary to you and your hubby Maria Jenelyn ??????CHAPTER 18NAKAHIGA SI BERRY sa isang malapad at pahabang salbabida habang si Cadmus naman ay nasa tubigkung saan hanggang dibdib ang lalim niyon at siyang humahawak ng kinahihigaan niya para hindi siyatangayin ng alon. Nakatingala siya sa mga nagkikislapang bituin sa kalangitan. Napakapayapa ngpakiramdam niya. Napakasaya."Cad?""Hmm?""Ang daming magagandang babae kanina." Aniya, "tapos ang si-sexy pa nila at ang gaganda ng kutis, hindikatulad ko, maraming pilat sa katawan.""Oh, tapos?"Bumaling siya kay Cadmus na nakatitig din pala sa kaniya. "Hindi ka ba naakit sa kanila? Ang gaganda nilatapos ang kikinis pa.""Tapos ka nang magtanong?"Nag-isang linya ang kilay niya. "Hindi ka pa nga sumasagot.""Tapos ka na ngang magtanong?" Ulit nito.Humaba ang nguso niya. "Oo. Tapos na.""Sige, ako naman ang magtatanong." Anito saka mas lalo siyang pinakatitigan, "sila ba, si Berry Lacsamana,para magkagusto at maakit ako sa kanila?"Natameme siya sa tanong ni Cadmus at hindi kaagad gumana ang utak niya kaya ilang segundo ang lumipasbago siya nakasagot. "H-Hindi. Ako 'yon eh.""Then there's the answer to your question."Napangiti nalang siya saka tumingin ulit sa mga bituin. "Cad?""Yes, babe?""I'm tired.""Sinong hindi mapapagod sa pinaggagagawa mo kanina."P 20-1She yawned. "It was fun. Nag enjoy ako.""Yeah, it was fun." Ani Cadmus saka maingat na inalis siya sa salbabida at binuhat siya patungongdalampasigan.When Berry's feet touched the shore, she immediately felt tired. Tumayo lang siya doon saka hindi nagumalaw."I'm so tired, Cad." Mahaba ang nguso niyang sabi na naiiyak. "Hindi ko na yata kayang maglakad."And like what always Cadmus do, he carried her. Ihinilig naman niya ang ulo sa dibdib ni Cadmus sakaipinikit ang mga mata.Hindi niya alam kung paano pero hindi niya namalayang nakatulog pala siya sa bisig ni Cadmus habangbuhat-buhay siya. Siguro sa sobrang kapaguran ng katawan niya sa dagat kanina.Nang magising siya, nasa kama na siya, nakapagbihis na ng tuyong damit at nakakumot. Wala na rin angpagod sa katawan niya. Mukhang nakapagpahinga siya ng mahabang oras.Nang bumaling siya sa katabi, napangiti siya ng makita si Cadmus na mahimbing na natutulog.Maingat siyang bumangon saka umupo sa tabi Cadmus at tinitigan lang ang lalaking mahimbing na natutulog."You're so handsome, My Cadmus." Bulong niya habang nangingiti.Hindi niya maintindihan kung bakit niloko ni Cherry si Cadmus. He's the nicest, caring and loving man shehave ever meet. A sincere person but with humour and so witty. He's perfect in looks department, but still,what was Cherry thinking when she cheated on Cadmus?Cadmus is such a sweet man. How could she hurt him?Umangat ang kamay niya at masuyong hinaplos ang pisngi ni Cadmus. Masyadong mahimbing ang tulog nitokaya hindi naramdaman ang ginagawa niya."Alam mo, Natatakot akong mawala ka sakin." Wika niya na para bang gising ang kinakausap. "Ikaw kasi'yong naging sandalan ko. Ikaw ang nagbigay liwanag sa madilim kong mundo. At ikaw rin ang dahilan nglakas ng loob ko. Pakiramdam ko kasi, kapag nandiyan ka, kaya kong gawin ang lahat kahit imposible."Kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit natatakot kang iiwan kita kapag maayos na ako, kasi kabaliktaran angnararamdaman ko. Ako ang tatakot na baka iwan mo ako, na baka may dumating na iba o bago, at siya angpiliin mo. I'm a broken soul with a worthless body, how could you stay and love someone like me? That'swhy I'm so afraid to lose you. And maybe I'm naïve at some things but I know, your patience with me iswearing thin."I know that every-time you touched me, the control you exert not to continue what you're doing is hard foryou. Nararamdaman kong nahihirapan ka na, pero kahit nahihirapan ka, kahit alam ko, hindi ko pa rinmagawang ibigay ang gusto mo."Hinaplos niya ang buhok ni Cadmus saka hinalikan ito sa nuo saka bumulong malapit sa mga labi nito, "IP 20-2want to make love with you too, Cadmus. I want it too. I want you too. Pero paano ko gagawin 'yon na hindiako natatakot sa gagawin mo?"Napabuntong-hininga nalang siya ng maalala ang nangyari kanina ng humaplos ang kamay ng binata sapagkababae niya. Para siyang binuhusan ng malamig na tubig at nilukob ng takot ang buo niyang pagkatao.How could I fight that kind of fear?Akmang lalayo na siya kay Cadmus at papalik sa pagkakahiga ng bigla nalang yumakap ang mga braso nito sakatawan niya at sa isang iglap, naihiga siya nito sa kama at nakubabawan siya!Her eyes is wide in shock. Her lips are even parted in shock.What just happened—"Subukan natin..." biglang sabi ni Cadmus sa pabulong na boses habang nakasubsob ang mukha sa pagitan ngleeg at balikat niya. "Let's try to make love, Berry."He's awake the whole time I was talking?!"Cadmus—""Subukan natin kung kakayanin mo ngayon. I'll be gentle, I promise."Napahawak siya bedsheet ng kama, "i-it's not about being gentle...it's about my fear.""Then I'll erase your fear.""P-paano?"Itinukod nito ang kamay sa kama, sa may uluhan niya saka tinitigan siya ng matiim, "let's make love and whenI start touching you there, don't push me away. Give me time. Three minutes—no, hold your fear even foronly a minute. That's all I need. At kapag hindi mo talaga kaya, kahit gaano pa 'yon kahirap, titigil ako parasayo."Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso niya dahil sa pinaghalong kaba at pagkasabik sa gagawin."S-sa tingin mo g-gagana ang gagawin mo, kung ano man 'yon?""We'll see."Wattpad Converter deAbo't-abo't ang kaba niya. "Paano kung magkaroon ako ng anxiety attack habang nasa kalagitnaan tayo no'n?""I'll stop."Hindi siya makapaniwalang napatitig kay Cadmus. "Can you? Stop?""It'll be hard." His jaw tightened. "But I can. For you."P 20-3Napatanga siya rito. "Cadmus...""Subukan natin, Berry." Anito na nangungusap ang mga mata. "Susubukan lang natin tulad ng gusto mo. We'llfight your fear together. Kapag hindi kaya, tulad ng mga nangdaang pagkakataon na sinubukan natin, titigilako.""I-I d-don't want to p-push you away again." Pabulong niyang ani. "A-alam kong nahihirapan ka na sakin. Bbaka iwan mo ako kasi h-hindi ko magawang ibigay sayo ang gusto mo.""Don't you want to make love to me?"Her eyes on his. "I do.""Hindi ka napipilitan lang dahil natatakot ka na baka iwan kita kapag hindi mo 'to ginawa?""T-there's that, but..." umiling ito, "that's not my only reason. I do want to make love with you because I wantyou. Gustong-gusto kita, Cadmus. Sobra kitang gusto.""Then let's try..."Huminga siya ng malalim saka tumango at pumayag na rin. "O-okay. L-let's do it. L-lets make love."Pabilis ng pabilis ang tibok ng puso ni Berry habang palapit ng palapit ang mukha ni Cadmus sa kaniya. Hertongue rolled over her dry lips, wetting them and Cadmus' eyes is on her lips, they way he looked at her, hisdilated eyes and his lustful stare...The oxygen was robbed off from her lungs when his lips touched hers. A shaking moan escape her lips whenCadmus' lips automatically move to taste her tongue.Napahawak siya sa balikat ni Cadmus ng laruin nito ang dila niya at sinisipsip iyon habang ang mga kamaynito ay humahaplos sa katawan niya. Umarko ang katawan niya ng maramdaman ang mga palad nitongpumasok sa pang-itaas niyang suot at minasahe ang dibdib niya."Ohh..." a soft moan escape her mouth as she kissed Cadmus back.She moved her lips and mimicked the movement of his tongue. Bahagyan niyang nakagat ang labi ni Cadmusng bumaba ang kamay nito sa hita niya."Cadmus...""Shhh..." he dropped small kisses on her lips, his hand palming her breast and his other hand caressing herwaist down to her thigh. "I got you, baby."Wattpad Converter deBerry's breathing ragged when she felt Cadmus kiss her neck. Mariin siyang napapikit sa sensasyongnaramdaman. Iyon ang unang beses na pinaglandas nito ang dila sa leeg niya at mas lalong nag-init angkatawan niya.Her body is burning, it's scorching hot and it's getting hotter as Cadmus' move his tongue to lick her neck, upto the back of her ear down to her collar bone while his hand continued palming her breast and rubbing hisP 20-4finger around her taut nipples.Berry sucked a loud breath when she felt Cadmus' suck the skin on her neck, then on her collar down to thevalley of her breast."W-what are you doing?" She asked, panting.Every suck of his lips on her skin stung but pleasure replaces it. Kaagad na binabalot ng sarap ang sakit nanararamdaman niya na mas lalo pang nagpa-init sa katawan niya.Then Cadmus return to her lips, kissing her fervently, non-stop, lip locked, tongue to tongue, their saliva andbreath mixing making her groan in pleasure. They're both panting, catching their own breath but Cadmusnever stops kissing her and sucking and licking her tongue like he needed it. Badly."Cadmus..." she called his name when their lips parted for a second, "Cadmu—"His lips is locked on her again. Mapusok ang bawat paggalaw ng labi nito sa labi niya. Marubdub ang bawatpagtatagpo ng mga labi nila. Pareho silang kapos ng hininga pero patuloy pa rin ang halikan nila na para banguhaw na uhaw sila isa't-isa at ang tanging makakapatid lang ng uhaw na iyon ay ang halik na pinagsasaluhannila.She was already high with pleasure when she heard a sound of fabric being ripped off, but she didn't heedany attention to it. Tuloy ang mapusok nilang halikan ni Cadmus. Tuloy ang uhaw nila sa isa't-isaAnd then she heard the same sound again.Berry open her eyes and saw Cadmus' hand throwing a ripped bra to the floor.Her bra!Nanuyo ang lalamunan niya ng marealise na damit niya ang una niyang narinig na napunit.Cadmus tear off her upper garment?Nakagat niya ang pang-ibabang labi at mahinang napahalinghing ng maramdamang pababa na sa dibdib niyaang mga labi ni Cadmus.Why does she find it so hot that he tore her clothes off?Umawang ang labi niya at napasabunot sa sariling buhok kasabay ng mahaba at malakas na halinghing nghalik-halikan ni Cadmus ang paligid ng nipple niya at sinisipsip ang balat do'n na dumadagdag sanakakahibang na sensasyon.Wattpad Converter deOh, Jesus Christ... it feels so good.Napaigtad siya ng ipasok ni Cadmus ang utong niya sa mainit nitong bibig pero hindi dahil sa takot kundidahil sa kakaibang sensasyong sumalakay sa katawan niya."Ohh..."P 20-5Halos bumaon ang ngipin niya sa pang-ibaba niyang labi ng maramdamang umiikot ang dila ni Cadmus sautong niya. Para siyang nawawalannng lakas habang umuungol. Parang siyang nahihibang sa kiliting hatid ngginagawa nito sa katawan niya."Cadmus..." mahigpit ang pagkakasabunot niya sa sariling buhok, "Cad...""Shh...relax, baby..." Cadmus whispered as he licked and sucked her nipples, "I won't bite."Her tongue rolled over her dry lips and she gulped as Cadmus rolled his tongue around her nipples. He wasmoving from her left breast to right like he can't get enough of them and then he would suck her nipples,making her body squirm."Oh! Cadmus..."Nanunuyo na ang lalamunan niya at panay ang lunok niya ng laway habang pinagsasawa ni Cadmus ang sarilisa dibdib niya. And she just let him. She like the pleasure too much that she gave in and let him have his funas she savour the pleasure its giving her.And then his lips moved down. Mas lalong umawang ang labi niya ng bumaba pa lalo ang bibig nito habangang dila ay humahaplos sa maselan niyang balat.Bawat haplos ng dila nito sa balat niya pababa sa puson niya ay napapaigtad siya at nang sapuin ng mgakamay nito ang dibdib niya at minasahe iyon at pinisil-pisil ng mga daliri nito ang utong niya, halosmagdeleryo siya sa sarap.www.ebook-converterHis tongue played with her navel and she can't help but to gasped as tingling sensation shoot through herwomanhood."Cadmus..." napahawak siya sa balikat ng lalaki, "oh, Cadmus..."Then his lips moved down.Napalunok siya at napatitig kay Cadmus na nakatitig din sa kaniya. Puno ng pagnanasa ang mga mata nitohabang nakatitig sa mga mata niya."Put three pillows behind your head." Utos nito na kaagad niyang sinunod.At sa posisyon niyang iyon, na nakaunan siya sa tatlong magkakapatong na unan, kitang-kita niya si Cadmus atkung ano man ang gagawin nito.She gulped. "W-what now?"Wattpad Converter de"Just looked at me." He's almost begging. "Look at me and never take yours eyes off of me. And when youfeel scared, just keep on looking at me and see me, not those who hurt you, but me."Tumango siya."Baby?"P 20-6"Y-yes.""Look at me.""I am." She whispered."See me.""I d-do.""And let me taste you and pleasure you and let me erase all your fears away."Lumulunok na tumango siya. "I'm l-letting you, Cad. I trust you.""Good." Then his teeth bit the waistband of her cotton short.And per his request, she didn't take her eyes off of him. She stared at him as he pulled down her short withhis teeth.Her breathing ragged. He looks so hot as he pulled off her short. How can a man be this handsome? And howcan this handsome man love her wholly?www.ebook-converterBerry bit her lower lip when Cadmus' teeth bit the waistband of her panty.She gulped.This is it.It's Cadmus. He won't hurt me.As he pulled down her underwear, her eyes never leave his and so is he. Their eyes locked at each as heundress the last piece of cloth she's wearing.When Cadmus let her underwear fell into the mattress, he rolled his tongue over her lips as he moved closerto her.Panay ang lunok ni Berry habang titig na titig kay Cadmus na matiim din ang titig sa kaniya.It's Cadmus... pagkausap niya sa sarili. He won't hurt me. And he respects me. And he accepts me wholly.Nahigit niya ang nanginginig na hininga ng hawakan ni Cadmus ang mga hita niya at unti-unti iyong ibinuka.Para siyang robot na naging sunod-sunoran habang titig na titig pa rin sila sa isa't-isa.Wattpad Converter deHindi niya inalis ang titig kay Cadmus.Ramdam niya ang panginginig ng kalamnan niya sa antisipasyon na may halong kaba at takot habang dahandahang dumadapa si Cadmus sa kama at inilalapit ang mukha sa kaselanan niya.Berry wanted to close her eyes as fear consumed her, she wanted to push Cadmus away, she wanted to runP 20-7and hide but she remember what Cadmus said.Just look at me. And she did.Sumunod ang mga mata niya sa bawat galaw ni Cadmus. Her eyes are trained on him and only him so whenhe touched her womanhood with his lips, she saw him.She sees him. Not her father, her uncle nor her cousin. She sees Cadmus. Her Cadmus. The man she trusted.The man who is the light to her darkness. Her salvation. Her hero. And her anchor.The man who painted her world with happiness and love."I see you..." she whispered softly.Cadmus looked up at her as he pressed his mouth on her femininity.Umawang ang labi niya habang tinititigan si Cadmus na nakatitig din sa kaniya. At nang mag-umpisanggumalaw ang mga labi nila at dila sa kaselanan niya, napahawak siya sa mga hita niya at mahabangnapadaing."Ohh, god..." iyon ang lumabas sa bibig niya habang hinahalikan ni Cadmus ang pagkababae niya.www.ebook-converterShe didn't want to but her eyes dropped close and her body shivers in pleasure.Automatically, she felt fear when she closed her eyes consuming her rapidly.She quickly open her eyes again and looked at Cadmus, licking her womanhood and nipping her cl-t-ris withhis soft lips and pleasuring her.Her breathing shakes... her hand trembles in pleasure... her soft moan turns into long and loud groans."Oh...Cadmus..." napasabunot siya sa buhok nito habang sinasamba pa rin ang pagkababae niya, "Cadmus...Oh... Baby, oh, please... don't stop."This pleasure... this mind blowing pleasure. It's more addictive than the pleasure of his kisses. This is thetrue ecstasy. The drug that she knew she won't stop craving for a lifetime.Humigpit ang pagkakasabunot niya sa buhok ni Cadmus ng maramdamang parang may gustong lumabas sakaniya, pakiramdam niya parang may sasabog sa kaibuturan niya.Umarko ang katawan niya, umawang ang labi niya at sunod-sunod na ungol ang lumabas sa bibig niya atpakiramdam niya ay nahihibang na siya sa sarap. Hindi na niya kaya pa ang lumulukob na sensasyongkumakain sa kaniya ng buong-buo.Wattpad Converter deShe's losing her mind and her self. The only thing in her mind is Cadmus and the pleasure he's giving her."S-stop... s-stop..." she begged as pleasure continued to assault her. "Stop, Cadmus, s-something is coming..."But Cadmus didn't stop licking her and eating her, he continued lapping her womanhood and drinking herP 20-8wetness.And Berry is about to burst. There's something inside her that wants to get out. She's trying to stop it but shecouldn't. It keeps getting closer and closer as Cadmus licks and lapped becomes faster and her moansbecomes louder."Cadmus... Cadmus..." she's panting, "Cadmus... ohh! Cadmus..." she's breathing heavily, "Cadmus... Oh,baby... Cadmus!"Berry screamed Cadmus' name as she burst open. Hindi niya napigilan ang gustong lumabas sa pagkababaeniya at nararamdaman niya iyon ngayong dumadaloy sa bukana ng kaselanan niya at sinasalo ng dila at labi niCadmus.Kung ano man ang lumabas sa kaniya, inubos no'n ang lakas niya. Bumagsak ang mga kamay niya sa kama atnakaawang ang labing hinihingal siya habang nakatitig sa kisame ng kuwarto.She was still breathing heavily when Cadmus crawled unto her body, his lips kissing her belly, up to herbreasts and to her collar bone, to her neck and to her ear.Napapikit sa nakakakiliting sensasyon si Berry ng panlandasin ni Cadmus ang dila nito sa gilid ng taenga niyasaka bumulong.www.ebook-converter"Thank you for cuming for me." He whispered, his hands caressing her inner thigh and softly rubbing on herwet mound. "Your moans drove me crazy."She gulped. "Cuming... is that what it's called? When I f-felt like something is coming out f-from me?"He kissed her ear and whispered, "yes. That's called cum, baby. And you cum for me."Napalunok siya. "It feels good.""Like you're in a Heaven's Gateway?"Hindi niya alam kung bakit napangiti siya. "Like the name of this Resort?""Yes.""Then yes." She said with low voice. "It feels good like I'm in a Heaven's gateway."Cadmus chuckled and started kissing her neck, collar bone down to the valley of her breast and then move hisface closer to hers, his lips nearly touching her and he whispered sexily and seductively with his deepbaritone voice.