aulla
aulla jane
i know you hear me
When that happens I just normally ignore it, I can't deal with it. I know he's my dad I just can't.
But i'll get a fresh start, this is my last day is Texas. I should go visit my dad in the graveyard even though it six hours away in Sweetwater. he wanted to be buried with his parents.
I walk into the kitchen after I finish packing my car to say bye to my mom and sister.
*<3*
As I pull into the parking lot of the cemetery I start to think of Stranglehold by Ted Nugent, that was his favorite song, I start to look around. My eyes finally shift to his gravestone, my eyes start to tear up and I don't know why I hated him when he was alive, the way he died suited him perfectly in my opinion.
ive been waiting for you
I start to picture him next to me, and go from tears to full on balling. I can't take it anymore and slowly back away, from slow I just start sprinting as tears come down my face. I make it to my car and put the key in ignition and drive away.
I can't take this state anymore. I can't take anything anymore. I put my foot on the gas pedal and drive away.
Its ok I start to think to myself.
Thats why I'm leaving.
