HIDDEN

Chapter twelve

I'm curled up in the blanket on the bed, persistently rolling myself like a fish out of water.

What if he thinks I'm stupid because I pologized. What if he thinks low of me now. What if I hadn't apologised. A lot of thoughts were eating my brain up.

I'm unable to sleep. I have kept rolling myself persistently on the bed for about 2 hours now. Everybody is asleep. It's midnight already.

No. I shook my head. He wouldn't think like that. He's indeed cool as Javy said. My thoughts abruptly drifted from worry to pleasure.

His face is like pasted to the eye of my brain. How he  smirked. Oh gosh. I love it so much. The smirk I have always hated. I was so close to him today. I could hear his heartbeat and I could smell his fragrance. He smells like mint.

I noticed something when I was closer to him. I thought his eyes were always filled with emotions but I was wrong. They weren't emotions. They were sweetness.

I have not had the opportunity to get close to a lot of guys, but I can swear that there is no one like him.

I really wanted to, but I couldn't bring myself to despise the thought of him.

I wish I wasn't thinking about him this way, but I'm glad I am.

NEXT DAY

I can hear a lot of noise. It sounds like it's from afar. It isn't frequent though. It is a laughter. It doesn't sound like it's a laughter of just two. They are more. It was a heartly and a loud laughter but I heard it from afar.

I suddenly woke up. It's a dream. I brushed my fingers through my hair.

It's like the sun is already scorching. I checked the time and it was some few minutes to 11 a.m. I got up to the washroom and brushed my teeth, then I heard the heartily laughter again.

So it wasn't a dream. It doesn't sound like a female voice either, so it's definitely not Nanny Carla.

What the hell is so funny. What has made Javy laughed like he has good four throats and he's laughing for 10 people. He can't disturbed the whole neighborhood. I'm going to shut him down.

I went out of the room, walked through the hallway then bumped into the hall.

The most embarrassing moment of my life finally arrived. No wonder it sounded like a laughter of 10 people.

The laughter was from Javy and Ray.

I was frozen and it was just for a second. I am staring at everybody like I'm a moron. The whole place is quiet and they are all staring at me. I look so stupid.

At this point, I wasn't in control of my legs. The next thing I realised was, I was in my room, banged the door and leaned against it.

I slided down off the door, like water snaking down a slope. I got up and run to the washroom to look at my face. Gosh.!! I had wanted to scream out loud but they might hear me. You can't imagine how horrible I look.

All I did in the morning was to brush my teeth. My hair looks entangled and scattered and I have dark circles under my eyes . I really look like a witch in my short banny nightwear.

How can Javy do this to me. I thought to myself as I flinged my makeup bag for comb. I got hold of it and    heedlessly combed my hair unmindful of the pain I was feeling.

I look ok now, but I still feel horrible. Then I heard a knock on my door. Javy is probably coming to tease me.

"What do you want. Come in." I said, then entered Ray.

Oh... my... God. "R...Ray." I stammered

"Good morning Bianca." He said smiling at me, like this is the most beautiful face he has ever seen in the morning.

I couldn't speak. I just nodded my head. I wanted to deep my face down in the depth of an ocean and forget that there is a world. It seem like I want to say something but the words were choked in my throat and it was obvious to him.

It is a sheepish moment and I must accept that it has come to stay. Yeah, because he has closed the door behind him and he has walked in. I have to face him. I have no choice.

" how are you" he said, and I just noded my head, staring at him blankly like he just fell from heaven. And indeed, he really looks like he just fell from heaven, and here I am, looking like a saoked teddy bear.

"I want to hear your voice so please speak." He said softly and all smiley.

The more he becomes nice, the more I blush. " I'm fine." I said hesitatingly. "Ok." He said, nodding his head like he has figured out something new.

Now, we have both warmly welcome an awkward silence and it is here to stay. Ray is also looking shy, just that he's not blushing. Now we are even. We are both shy.

I scratched the back of my neck and he toured the ceiling with his eyes, like there is something interesting there. He cleared his throat to break the silence.

"Errm. I was just waiting for you to wake up so that I can say hi to you." He said.

"Ok". I said nodding.

"Ok, see you some other time." he said and left the room.

I waited and lock the door a while after. He might come back who knows. In case maybe he forgot his pant. I uttered a sign of relief. My night wear is partly wet. It's all because of mental pressure.

There is no noise coming from the hall. Maybe they are gone. Or maybe they are not. An inner voice said. I'm not going out yet. I am going to be extra caution from now on wards. I leaned against the door and close my eyes trying to calm my nerves.

" knock knock." My heart mentally jumped out of my chest but was immediately brought back. "Who is that please." I sounded polite this time. I have already had my first experience and I'm going to learn from it.

"Bianca open the door." Javy said. I signed. "What do you want."

"But why? Are we fighting? At least open the door."

"I'm not going to open the door. You've been a pain in the dick since yesterday morning, but I've decided not to mind you. Why didn't you tell me that Ray is coming here." I uttered sounding pissed off.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know that... I mean... It's going to turn out this way." He tried to sound sincere but it didn't work.

"Ok, I have heard you. You can leave now."

"Ray is gone. You can come out now."

"I'm not coming out. I won't believe you until an angel from heaven comes to confirm."

"Ok. Dear Bianca, I'm an angel and I'm from heaven. I'm here to confirm Ray's departure. He's indeed gone asshole. Just come out."

I hesitated before unlocking the door. I don't believe my dear cousin one bit. Javy is full of jokes and pranks.

"So where is Ray now huh? Tell me. Where is he." He said signing in the air. I passed him by and went to sit at the hall. Nanny Carla is still seated there.

Both Javy and Nanny burst into a mighty laughter.

"Bianca, this is nobody's doing. It's nature's own way of getting back at you for whatever pain you've caused Ray."
Javy said out of his heartly laughter.

I'm so pissed off. I can't believe Nanny is also in collaboration. I leaned back in the couch and relaxed my head, watching the ceiling.

"Bianca, I'm not laughing at what happened to you. I'm laughing at your weird behavior." Nanny Carla said and couldn't control her laughter.

"Bianca, by the way your breakfast is there. It is obvious that is all you are wishing for." Javy said, smiling nicely. So sarcastic.

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Everywhere is calm now.