Letting him go is the last thing i can do , This is what i thought before leaving him standing on aisle at front of hundred peoples.. Not once i thought that humilliating him at front of this much crowd will break him this much ...
Ohh , About me so i m a girl who left her love of life on aisle because i was affraid , Affraid from responsibilities and wedding , Affraid from everything which this married life will bring for me in future..
A month later when i found myself emitting every damm thing inside my stomach and Falling after two steps , I went to Doctor and there i got to know that there is someone else devloping inside me which is mine as well as his too , But the fear of facing him after what i did stopped me.
Months later , When my flat stomach started bulking and my guilt start eating my soul and mind , I start harming myself too , It's not like , i didn't care about the one devloping inside me , It was my depression my guilt which started eating me , I regretted for leave him alone on aisle and running away ,I hated myself each second for leaving the man who bringed light in my dark life , I hated myself for the insult , humiliation and pain he received that day , All over i hated myself for everything.. The pain, regret , guilt and hatred from my ownself was eating me day by day but the little soul and the last symbol of his love for me kept me alive .
I can't forget that day when i almost lost the last ray of light of my life, I can't forget when that lady Doctor told me that "If you don't want this baby , You can abort it instead of harming him and yourself each passing day " . That day i decided , No not anymore ,I will never hurt myself and our baby .
Like this Six month passed and i once again start falling in love and ,the person i was in love with meant world for me , A world which was mine as well as his , My flat stomach shaped like a big ballon ball and that feeling was best , when our little he kicked me for the first time ,Day by Day i was falling hard for our love , But At one point of life i realised that karma is a payback bitch , My depression once again start over powering my mind , Need of having ur arms around me made me cry all night , I cried for everything i did with him , I don't know How you will react after reading all this Mom , And at the time when you will receive this , I will be far away from you all , All i did was my mistake Mom , I don't want my baby to face the consequence of my cowardness , I want him to see and know his father , I want him to know that i loved him , I ran away because of my fear not because i didn't love him , I love him to the moon back and much more , I don't want you all to try to save me , Please let me go i don't think i can face him ever .
The letter read breaking him in pieces , The little baby beside a lifeless body cried out hitting his mother from his little fist , This gained everyone's attention and the solid man who hated that dead woman for her cowardness fell down on his knees and cried his heart out.
"I am sorry" He didn't knew why he apologised but deep in his heart he knew he too is guilty for not trying to search the woman once whom he claimed to love..
THE END
