We had just got back to the house and Layla was fairly quiet I put kiara to sleep before sitting next to her on the bed I leaned in to kiss her but she moved away
"You still in love with her" she mumbled
"Don't start layla damn" I huffed
"Just answer the question" she shouted
"No I'm not in love with her" I lied I knew I was very much deeply in love with miracle but I couldn't tell that to my wife who the hell could
"I'm trying dave I really am but I can't compare to her" she whispered wiping the falling tears from her eyes
"Don't cry Layla"
"why not to watch the man that I would lay my life on the line for love another woman like he should be loving his wife it hurt" she cried
"It not that I'm not in love with her" I lied again
"Then what is it the way u stare at her the way your so attentive when she speaks like u block the world out as soon as you hear her voice if your not in love with her then what are you because you look at me is like your just here to make me happy don't do shit to make me happy do what makes you happy"
"I am happy I'm trying to work on this marriage ain't I"
"That was my idea remember your the one who asked for a divorce in the first place to go and be with her ready to throw your entire family away for her you missed three months of being at home to be with the baby in the hospital neglecting your other responsibilities like u don't have two other kids that asked for u and I had to lie like you where on tour then one day u bring in the baby without any warning and put this sickly new born on me so your baby mother can get herself together like she didn't have a big ass support system u throw him on me like that didn't hurt me like I didn't have to swallow my pride and take care of him because your my husband IM HURTING can't you see that dave and it's your fault" Layla cried
"Layla I'm sorry"
"Yes the fuck you are a sorry ass husband a sorry ass man your ass is just sorry here I am busting my ass for this marriage for your career for everything making sure I hold down this house that use to be a home while u cheat lie and everything else to me how much u think I can take before I snap"
"So what are you saying"
"That you need to leave....leave me the hell alone" she shouted she tried to walked off and I grabbed her tightly she tried to fight me but I just held her until her body went limp crying in my chest
"I FUCKING HATE YOU DAVE" she cried
"I know"
"Why are you doing this to me" she cried
"I don't know I'm sorry though she just got this hold on me that I can't shake you are perfect wife mother everything a man needs she just came on the scene and threw me off" I explained
"So you are in love with her"
"Yeah Layla I am and I don't want to me because I have hurt her so bad" I sat on the bed
"Not as bad as you have been hurting me"
"I've never physically hit you and kidnapped you have I" I looked at her she looked at me
"Both of y'all deserve better than me I'm not the man I need to be with either one of u" she nodded
"Why would you hit her knowing her past" Layla asked
"I was angry with her I felt like Dino had her in a way I could never have her"
"That's your best friend"
"Yeah that I have physically fought twice it's a lot you don't know Layla" I told her
"Wow you kept all this from me your wife" she mumbled "even in therapy you have been lying I'm thinking we are fixing shit when you have been basically lying to me to my face"
"I know"
"Let me finish though"
" ok"
"The day I left you I went to talk to Dino and apologize to him for fighting him and all the other shit to hitting miracle I knew he cared about her and that was my best friend I needed him to help me get this shit straight with you but when I seen him miracle was there and I saw the baby numb she didn't tell me anything so I thought it was Dino so I hit him and we fought a second time after everything was settled months had passed and I started being active in miracle and the babies life but she was so scared of me after me hitting her the day the baby was born he was actually pronounced dead they had told miracle this and everything at one of her check up she had to have a emergency c section and everything this was all due to stress I didn't know I was causing I brung the baby home to you because I knew I couldn't do it alone looking in my sons face knowing I was the reason he was almost dead never sat well with me and I made sure to do everything that I knew miracle would have wanted because it was my fault but in that process I didn't realize I was hurting you u never showed any emotion to it so I disregarded your feelings for that I'm truly sorry" I told you
"Wow I can't believe this" she cried
"Your a monster" she cried
"Don't. Say that baby I was trying the best way i knew how"
"By hurting the people you love I need you out my fucking house now the only thing we need to talk about is our daughter
