I'm getting ready for a special night. Well kinda, Ariana wants me to come to one of her shows tonight and I get to carry someone. Of course I chose Jessica, Damion would have came if it was Beyonce or some musical. I'm trying to look good but not over do it, after all she's not sure what she wants. I'm a bit pissed that me and Ariana can't be together for whatever reason. It's been weird between us and I hate it. I hate not being able to hold her hand like I use to. But it's my fault anyway. If only I could've just not say anything about our relationship status. I should've thought about her and not myself.
"Yo y/n!" Jessica yells at me.
"Huh?" I turn around and look at her. I didn't notice I was so lost. I need to get my head in the game.
"Listen, I know what's going on okay but you can't keep blaming yourself. She's been pushing you away, and don't get worked up. Cause it's not like you and her were a thing anyway" she grabs her bag and Pat's my shoulder and walks out the room.
I sigh and check myself in her mirror. I'm at her place and I'd rather be here than at home. My parents are out so the boys are with my Grandma. My mom and dad would let me go but Grandma is a bit different. She thinks books are everything and she talks all the time. She complains too much but when I need someone to talk to she's there. Don't get me wrong, I do think education is valuable but so is fun. I run after Jess and meet her in the kitchen. Her parents are on the couch watching some horror movie and I turn away. I don't understand why people watch those things.
"Ma, we're leaving" Jessica parents turns and look at us. They told both tell us to stay safe.
That's what I like about her parents. They want us to have fun and be safe. They don't really care about the time you reach home as long as everything is fine. That's not a really good thing but they understand teenagers. Unlike mine. "I promise to take care of her Mr and Mrs Marshall" they nod and we leave.
We get in an uber that's been waiting. The lady drives off and the part I hate starts happing. She starts making conversation. I don't mind I'm just not a social person and I get awkward in conversations like this. It's weird because I want a relationship with someone who's always in front of camera's.
I open my phone and decide to text her.
Me: hey :)
Wifey: hi :)
Me: so I'm on my way
Wifey: yay! You're gonna be here!
Me: lmfao ofc stupid, I told u that already
Wifey: ik ik. Just hurry I miss u
Me: I'm almost there Ari
Wifey: don't u miss me :/
Me: I miss you so much
Wifey: please hurry :(
Me: I'm not driving
Wifey: I know, but I miss you. You're warm and it's cold here
My phone gets taken away. I look at Jess confused. "Dude gimmi my phone back"
"You're warm?" I nod at her question and reach for my phone. "Y/n listen, you need to remember she denied you"
I frown at Jessica. I don't want her to remind me about it and she never hesitates to. "I know." I stop stretching for my phone and sit back.
I hear her sigh and she puts my phone on her bag. I turn and look out the window. I miss her. I hear my phone ping multiple times, Jessica hears it too but ignores. What the hell is wrong with her?
We arrive at the concert and I get out. I walk up to the building and smile. I can see her. In no time Jess is by my side, we walk up to the entrance. I hear a voice call me and I look over the crowd. I see her security, one of them and I walk over. I tell him Jessica is with me and he let's us both in. We are escorted down a hall way that leads to back stage. He knocks on a door and it opens. The other security nods and we walk in. I'm told she's a meet and greet and will be back soon. Courtney and Alexia walks in and gives me hugs. I tell them that Jessica is my best friend. I then introduced Jess to them both. We all sat and talked about nothing but everything. It was casual convo but I was still awkward. I'm dead Serious something is wrong with me. One minute I'm talking and all confident then the next I'm in a shell and silent.
"Y/n, so tell us what's yours and Ariana's deal?" Alexia asks and place her cup down.
"Um, well we're friends at the moment" I say and smile. I actually answered with something that makes sense.
"At the moment huh? So you have further plans?" Courtney sits up and puts her hand under her chin.
"I-i don't know."
"Ariana doesn't want a relationship with her." I glare at Jessica as she blabbers.
"Well she's not ready." I stare at Jess making sure to tell her with my eyes to shut the fuck up.
It's already embarrassing chasing a girl that doesn't know what she wants to have it thrown all over the place. The door opens and in walks the star. She smiles and her eyes meet mine. They sparked for a second and she smiles. The conversation stops and I'm so glad, overwhelmed actually. I hated it, the while conversation made me sad.
Ariana leaves and to go get ready soon after. I get to sit in Vip with all the big person's in the business, well in Ariana's career. I was too busy being shy and looking down at the ground to notice anything.
"When raindrops fell!"
I jump and place my hand over my chest. Oh my fucking god!
"You okay?" I look over at and see her brother. I nod still breathing a bit shakily. "I know it's a bit never racking when she just sings out so suddenly"
He smiles at me and I return it. I took back up at her and her dances and God is a woman starts playing. I watch her perform and it was perfect, I not once took my eyes off her. Believe me God Is A Woman. I'll make her mine. Somehow but I'm not giving up. I walk backstage after the show and she greets me with a smile. We hug and she leads me into a room. Jessica was behind me and for the first time she's quiet. I hold on to Ariana's hands and we enter a room. I see her friends and family and a couple new people.
We talk until I have to leave because Jess said she wanted to. I wave them bye and soon I'm at her house. She gets in bed and I take my phone from her back. I see messages from Mom, Ari and Damion. I see some messages from Christine come in. I didn't answer any, I closed my phone and lay back on the bed. I got under the covers. I thought back at today. I need to talk to Jess tomorrow.
