CRAZY | X1 CHO SEUNGYUON FANFICTION

Chapter 1

"Your smile was a drug and I lost my mind just looking at it."

01/09/18

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I was just sent out of the training room because I sounded like a choking walrus.

I had no idea where to go so I just walked around the building hoping not to encounter anyone scarier than our trainers.

Nothing really interesting was happening at that time so I decided to just go back to the waiting area and that's when I saw you.

You were making fun of the kids and they looked annoyed at you.

I wanted to hide because I knew that we weren't allowed at that part of the building but then I couldn't move.

Because I saw it. Your smile.

I couldn't take my eyes off of you.

Your smile was so beautiful and it made my heart feel so light. I felt giddy.

Every time you said something, everyone around you just shook their head and smile. I had no idea what you were saying but I knew you were joking and and from their reaction, it was corny.

Suddenly, one of the kids pointed at me and that's when you noticed me. I wanted to turn around but a wall was the only thing behind me.

Again, you smiled, waved to the kids you were with and started walking towards me . At that point, my heart was going a thousand miles an hour and I swore I felt like I was about to pass out.

"Hi, are you lost?" Even your voice sounded like it was teasing me.

I opened my mouth and was about to say something but then you smiled again. It was a kind smile, I wanted to cry.

"Are you okay?" you asked again.

I mustered all the courage I had and looked you in the eyes.

"Ah, 아니." (No.) I had no idea what I was thinking that I answered you in korean. 

What can I say? Your smile was a drug and I lost my mind just looking at it.

"와~ 한국사람이에요?" (Woah, are you korean?) You had this cute confused look on your face that actually looked funny. It almost made me laugh. Almost.

"No. No I'm not." I didn't want anyone to know who I really was at that time. I even wanted to hide from myself. 

"Oh uhm. But you ju-"

"I learned it from watching korean dramas." That was the only reply I could think of at that moment. So smart.

"Right. I'm Cho Seungyoun. What's your name?" 

Choi Lei Na. 

I wanted to tell you that but I couldn't.

"I'm dead." That's what I told you instead.

For a moment you looked confused then you started laughing. 

And at that moment I told myself, I'd do anything just to see that again.

"I'm serious. I'm dead and I have to go." I walked past you and started walking towards the elevator. 

As I was about to enter the elevator, I looked back at you. You turned towards a room and you had this smile on your face.

I wanted to go back and tell you my name. But I didn't.