Angst
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It hurts. Knowing that you'll never love me.
You probably think I'm useless.
You never messaged me back.
That hurt.
But oh well.
Not like it matters... Not like I matter.
No. I never mattered, I'm just a drop of water in the sea. And that's life.
Why don't I have a purpose besides being a burden?
I don't know. I don't have the answer to that yet.
Well, maybe I do. It's probably because I'm just useless and unworthy.
Other people say "get help" . Don't you think I tried that?
"It's just a phase"
No it's not. Being sad and suicidal is not just a phase.
"Give it time, you'll be fine"
No I won't. I won't and i never will be.
Cut after cut and I'm still numb.
One cut. No one loves me.
Two cuts. You're not important.
Three cuts. You're a nuisance.
I'm losing a bit too much blood.
No.. no, don't cry. I deserved this. No one cared anyway. So why should you?
Aw.. don't say that. I won't make it and you know it.
You're asking why.
Well.. I can't speak right now. Let alone think straight.
It's taking all my strength to even think.
I'm sorry.
I have to close my eyes.
I'm a bit tired.
