One Day

Chapter- one

I am running too fast that I'm not able to breathe. I'm tired, but I can't stop, I can't stop myself, it's too dark, and I'm running so fast in the middle of a forest. Someone is following me I don't know who but I'm so afraid and terrified of him.

I don't want him to caught me, my heart is beating so fast, and my legs are tired they are shaking but no I cannot stop. I'm sweating my eyes are red and blue because of all the crying I did before. He is calling me, as soon as his voice getting closer, my feets are speeding.

Suddenly I stumbled, and fell down,  "sweetheart, stop running please you know I love you." His voice, hearing his voice I want nothing but die I don't know even how to die to here. I have no choice, I have to run I cannot give up easily. He is a monster with no mercy, my clothes are torn my lips are bleeding I have wounds in my body every where. Blood is pouring from my forehead.

"I gave you everything you want, I loved you more than anything els in this world but look at you, you betrayed me". His voice is so rough it scares me. I got up somehow and stumble through my leg to hide behind the tree. There he was standing, looking here and there for me, I hope he do not see me. I can't take it anymore, I'm so sick of him.

I don't know why but I'm not able to see his face. I cannot see him and it makes me more terrified. I can hear his voice, I can feel his presence which makes me shiver. But I never saw his face not before not I can see it now. And it's frustrating me I want to know who is this cruel person.

I don't know what happened, i just know that he hurt me, he hurt me a lot. From inside to outside I have wounds everywhere. He is disgusting,
"sweetheart, please come out now. Enough of this running game. The more you hide the more it makes me angry." I put my palm on my mouth so that he cannot hear my sobbing and my heaving. I can hear his footsteps coming toward me. I squeezed my eyes shut. 'please not anymore help me, help me' I'm chanting in my head.

"Caught you" I didn't open my eyes, and started to cry louder. "Please stop" I shout. He put his hands on my head " sweetheart, I love you please don't be scared it hurts me. "Stop, stop please" I started to scream.

I jolted up on my bed all  sweating and crying. I opened my eyes and looked here and there. Again a nightmare, I don't know why I'm so scared and sad. No matter how happy I act in front of everyone, always smile at others but from inside I'm hollow, something is bothering me and it's so frustrating and stupid that I don't know what is bothering me.

It's like that something is eating me from inside. It's been years I'm having these kind of nightmares. I got off my bed and went to the bathroom with my shaking legs. I closed the door with my shaking hands and went towards the mirror.

My hair is mess my eyes are red and puffy there are dark circles under my eyes and a mark on my forehead which I got from an accident I had few years ago. When I was fifteen years old I had an accident which left this mark on my head. Dad told me that someone found me on the middle of the highway and took me to the hospital. I lost few memories before my accident, and I don't know how that accident happened, how I got hurt and wounded in the middle of the road.

I tried a lot to remember but I cannot and it's so frustrating. After that accident I started to feel this way the nightmares, anxiety, I got nervous in a crowded place. Dad told me maybe it's all because of the accident and it will go away I need to give it some time. But it's not, it's not going away. This is increasing day by day and I'm tired of all these.

Something happened, something happened before my accident I'm sure but what?. I know dad is hiding something from me, who is this guy from my nightmare. Why I'm running wounded and scared of him. I put both my hands on my head and tears started to pour out of my eyes again. I look at me at the mirror and took a deep breath.

It's been five years that accident happened. It's been five years when some stranger found me in the middle of the highway and took me to the hospital. I don't remember anything but still that incident from the past haunting me giving me nightmares stoping me  from living a normal like others and I hate it.

After I took a shower, I wore my pajama shorts and tank top. It's Sunday so I don't have college. I went downstairs to make breakfast for dad and me. When I was seventeen years old my mom and dad got divorced. I have a brother who is fourteen  years old at that time. My brother live with my mom and I live with my dad.

William love mom a lot but that doesn't mean I don't love her. We all love each other except mom and dad, I guess. They used to fight a lot, they ignore each other all day but whenever they used to talk they just fight and shout at one another calling names. Where I and will used to ignore all those drama and behave like nothing happened because we had no choice.

Finally they got divorced when I was seventeen and will was fourteen. I still go to meet mom every weekend. But this time I didn't because dad is not feeling well from two days so I chose to stay here and take care of him. My mom has a fiancé whose name is Benjamin, he is really a nice guy and he loves mom a lot. I know that because I saw love in his eyes whenever he looks at my mom. He loves William and me like our own father. He is funny, caring, loving and I'm happy for my mom.

When I went downstairs to make breakfast, dad was already sitting there near the dinning table and reading newspaper. "Good morning dad" I wished him with a kiss on his cheek. "Good morning sunflower" he took off his glasses and smiled at me. I went toward kitchen and started to prepare breakfast for us.

"You can go, you know, I'm fine" he said while putting his glasses on. "No, I cannot. Listen dad you are sick and I'm not going to leave you. I can go next next weekend. He sighed and looked at me "are you okay?" He asked with a low voice. I closed my eyes "why are you asking"? I said and started to put our eggs and bacons on plates.

"I'm your dad sunflower, and you are quite" I took the plates near the table and put his in front of him. He fold the paper and put it aside. I sat down next to him. "It's just..." "nightmares" he completed my sentence with worry written all over his face. I looked at him and nod with a gulp.

"Why, it's been years dad and I'm still the same, even worse, you told me it will stop but it's not, it's increasing day by day" I told him with a teary eyes. I'm so sick of this, it's like I'm getting mental or something. He put his hands on my head which make me burst into tears, I cried hard like a baby.

He held my both hands in his "let me take you to the therapist, I told you that before and I'm saying it again, you need one" I took my hands away from his "dad, I lost my memory and a therapist cannot do anything. It's about something before the accident. I just need to remember what happened and I'll do that otherwise I'll go crazy".

"Don't put pressure on yourself sunflower, you remember what doctor said right? You  cannot put pressure on your can harm yourself" he put his hand on mine "always remember that no matter what happens I never leave you sweetheart and we'll fight this together". I smiled at him "I know that you are with me, and I love you dad". 

We ate our breakfast in silence after we finished our breakfast he stood up and took his plate to the sink "I think you should go and meet her, look at me I'm fine" I chuckled "fine, it's like  you want to get rid of me. You have date or something"? I looked at him with an raised eyebrow. He turned around and narrowed his eyes at me. "I'm too old to date lilith" i gasped "are you serious​ dad, no one is too old to date, you can date at any age you want it's your choice. So stop thinking and start dating, I want you to be happy".

"I am happy" he walked toward his room "I'll drop you at your mom's get ready", "fine" I muttered but I'm too excited to go to mom's. I missed will, mom and even Ben. Maybe I'll forget about my stress little bit.