FIFTH CHAPTER| 'but you never go away'
June 8th, 2019
4:36 pm
as the sun started to beam through the window joey was laying down on his bed staring at the ceiling as memories flowed through his head of vivian
-flashback-
march 10th, 2017
12:04 am, lunch
joeys pov
' c'mon joey just do it! i'm sure she likes you' chad cheered
' b-but what if she doesn't like me! i'm going to look like a foo- '
i was soon cut off by charles
' i bet she does! you booth have googely eyes for each other for the past year!'
i chuckled putting my head down
'but what if she rejec- '
i was pulled up from my seat by chad pushing me towards her table
nonono
i was getting out of his grip until he let me go making me fall onto the ground
chad laughed
that bitch
'i'm so going to get you back cha- '
'turn around joey you don't want to make a scene' chad smirked
what?
i slowly turned around seeing vivian and her friends giggling
crud
' haha well you see their- '
'JUST TELL HER JOEY' charles yelled from across the lunch tables
'tell me what?' vivian asked getting up from her seat walking towards me
what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck
i froze on the spot
WHAT DO I SAY
' uh- uh that you have uhh NICE SHOES' i said out loud that freckin antártica could hear
vivian closed one of her eyes cupping her ears with her hands
'oh my god i'm so sorry i didn't mean to- '
'it's okay joey theirs no need to freak out' she giggled
chad rolled his eyes
'i thought you were going to ask her to be your girl-'
i quickly put my hand over his mouth before he can say another word
i looked at him with the most irritated look on my face
a/n : wE iRriTaTeD
chad clearly got the hint and took my hand off of his mouth staying quiet but dying to say something
'what does joey want to ask chad?' vivian asked
vivians pov
now i'm very curious what chad wants to say
chad stayed silent
'oh come on tell me! it can't be that bad right?' looking at joey
'well for me' he mumbled but i was able to hear
'want to go somewhere private to ask me?'
chad eyes lit up
'YES YES YES HE WOULD LOVE TO' chad yelled
'uh- okay well let's go joey'
joey face lit up and started walking faster than me
'okay okay joey no need to rush' i laughed
he looked back at me and smiled
oh my jeebaz his smile is literally everything- oh my god i sound like a weirdo
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'so you know how this past year we got really close-' joey started off looking down and kicking the pebbles off the floor
'yea really close!' i repeated
'and uh we made really cool memories- '
'loved all of them! '
'and we started a really good bond '
'of course we did! '
joey cleared his throat
'what i'm really trying to say is uhm..will you like to go on a date with me?'
i stood their quiet with full in emotions
'it's fine if you say no i under- '
'NO i would love to go on a date with you!'
oh my god oh my god
joey looked up and smiled
'w-wait really?! '
'of course you silly goose' i made a funny face
he laughed
a/n : his laugh makes my heart go :💝💞💗💖💘💓💞💝💞💘💕💘💓💖💘
' uh-uh great! i'll pick you up at 7? '
'yea yea sure! '
-end of flashback-
as vivian was laying down on her head staring at the ceiling, she still couldn't get the picture out of her head on
May 29th, 2018
1:23 pm
it kept replaying and replaying in her head
she thought she wasn't worthy
she thought she wasn't enough
she thought it would be better if she was gone
vivians pov
after a few hours of staring at the ceiling i got notification from my phone
i decided to stop being a emotional bitch and slide it open
text message
joseph birlem:
i miss you
not today satan
