These feelings hurt // Jung Hoseok //

These feelings hurt

I had just returned from my grandma's place. The first place i  wanted to visit after my return was my beloved best friend's, his name is Jung Hoseok. 

A simple college boy, who is 19 years old in age.

I have a secret to tell, that I have been in love with Hoseok for a long time. But he doesn't have a clue about my feelings.

It hurts that I was never more than a friend in his eyes. When I wanted us to be something more.

Nevermind, I was ok with being just friends as long as I could be near him, so I never confessed to him.

So as I reached his place, I knocked at the door and patiently wait for him to open the door.

But it was someone else who opened it. A girl to be specific. I was confused for a second but then Hoseok comes right behind her.

"Welcome back Ami. I was waiting for you." He said to me with a smile.

"Hobi. Who is she?" I point my index finger towards her I know it's rude but I was just to shocked at that moment.

"Her... Hmm... She is my..... girlfriend." He scratches his neck a little while giving me a nervous smile.

The words which left form his lips just broke my heart into millions of pieces.

Never could I have thought that when I would arrive here, such a surprise would be waiting for me.

"Come in let's talk inside" he said but I just wanted to run away from here, from this situation, and most importantly from my feelings which are making me suffocated.

I ran leaving my belongings on his door step. But he runs back of me seeing my sudden action, yelling my name continuously.

I keep running, trying to go far away but Hoseok caught my arm and pulls me to him.

"Ami. Why did you run like that? Is there something wrong." He says breathlessly.

But my heart was in too much pain to lie now.

"I LOVE YOU AND IT HURTS SO MUCH TO SEE YOU WITH SOMEONE ELSE" I scream the words out as tears flows like a waterfall from my eyes.

"What!? But how? When......." He becomes silent, then speaks again.

"Ami. I just see you as my little si-" I cover his mouth with my hands before he could finish.

"Don't say something which will leave a scare on my heart forever please." I speak softly as I remove my hands.

"Don't worry I will erase all these feelings because I know I will never get them back so just." I give him a sad smile.

I close my eyes and then open them with a determination to put an end to everything once and for all.

"Let me go as a friend. So that I can erase these feelings, because these feelings hurt me so bad"

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