These feelings hurt // Jung Hoseok //

Part 2

"Let me go as a friend. So that I can erase these feelings, because these feelings hurt me so bad." At this point I was just a crying mess.

"Ami, please calm down." He said softly, wiping my tears which were falling non stop.

"No I am SORRY. For having these feelings for you. I know you don't like me like that, and never will. But..." I chocked on my words.

My throat was dry and very painful at this point that I couldn't utter a word next. I fall down on my knees.

"Ami. Stop crying, let's first go home. We can talk there properly." Hoseok bent to my eye level, he had tears in his eyes ready to fall.

He can't help it, everytime I was sad or crying it would hurt him, to an extent that he would also start crying with me.

He loved me dearly, but not the same kind as mine. He loved me as a sister but I loved him as a....

I have to stop this right here, make it end right now.

I get up suddenly startling him, and wipe my tears and smile at him.

"Hobi, get up already." I extend my hand and give him my best bright smile which was fake.

He looks at me confused with tears in his eyes but never the less takes my hand and gets up.

"Hobi. Did you really think that what I said right now was true?" He looks at me more confused and I start laughing loudly.

"Ami...." He was speechless.

"Hobi." I cutely say wiping his tears.

"Dummy. I was just acting." I point my index finger on his forehead and push his head back.

"What?! Are you serious?" He looked dumbfounded.

'no, it's a lie.' I thought giving him a sweet smile. "Did you forget I am in acting major."

"Seriously! I thought you were serious."  He let's out a breath. Relaxing.

'yes, I was.' I say in my head.

"Anyways that was just because you didn't say me when did you get a girlfriend? Seriously I am your best friend I should be the first one to know who you date." I tried to sound as normal and natural as I can. Damn my acting talent.

"Sorry. See I was gonna tell you but you were in your grandparents place and I didn't wanna disturb you. And about when I got a girlfriend.... It has just been a week." He said trying not to blush, which was making my heart hurt.

"Ok. I forgive you but not next time." I clap my hands.

"Sure." He said.

"Now give me some money." I said which caught him off guard.

"Money?" He rised his eyes brows.

"Idoit. I need money to go back home. Did you forget my luggage is in your place." I said stretching my arms lazily.

"Just come my place simple, stay there for some time and then take your luggage while returning." He said like stating facts but, like hell I was gonna go back where his girlfriend was.

"No thank you, you have a girlfriend and I have to give you privacy so I better go my home. So now money." I stretched my hand in front of him.

"Stubborn as always." He sighs, but hands me the money.

"You know me. And send my luggage back my home. Now bye." I turn around and leave him without even hearing what he had to say.

I just want to stay away from him for the time being.

After sometime I catch a cab and reach home.

"Welcome back Ami." My mom hugs me.

"Hi, mom." I say and break the hug.

"What's wrong dear?" She looks at me worried because of my low mood.

I just hug her tightly and cry my heart out.

"Dear what happened?! If you don't say me then how can I help you?" She rubs my back soothing me.

"Mom... Hobi.." I sob silently.

"Did he do something dear?" She asked softly.

"No. He.. just got a girlfriend." I cry hard on her shoulder.

"Shh Baby, don't speak. Just let it all out now." She didn't let go of me and embraced me lovingly.

She knew how much I loved hobi since childhood. She always supported me, even when I said it was just one sided.

After some minutes of crying I calm down and broke the hug.

"Are you feeling better Ami?."

"Yeah mom. I will just head back to my room." I said ready to leave. But my mom asks me something which made my stop in my tracks.

" Ami. I have something to ask?." She said in a calm manner.

"Yes Mom?" I said now a little better than before.

"What are you gonna do now Ami?"

"What do you mean? Mom." I know what she means but still...

" You can't lie to me Ami. What will you do now that you know Hoseok has a girlfriend." I stay silent.

"See dear I just want the best for you. I know how much you love him but it's hurting you dear." She keeps her hand on my shoulder.

"I know mom. I was just waiting to see if he would love me back but I think now I got my answer that I have to let him go." I give her a weak smile.

"Do what you think is right." She smiles at me.

"Yes Mom" I leave and head to my room. Just throw myself on the bed and squeeze my eyes shut to forget everything for sometime and be at peace.

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Thanks for reading. I actually didn't plan to writing another part for it but my friend said she wanted to know what happens next, so I am sorry if it's not good enough because I had no idea how to take this story further but let's see what I make but I can't promise if it will turn out to be good or boring.

Please tell me your opinions on it. Until next time, bye.