i want 2 die whats new

wow i hate myself lol

ight so basically
theres been a looooot on my mind

im unsure of what to to about it....

school is coming up again and im veryyy scared and idk my mind is abt to BLOW tf up

also

i currently have 2 friends ahahahahah and both are leaving
well actually one already left,
and the other one is really considering it so im FUCKED

im pretty awkward and i really wish i wasnt, then i would be able to make friends and not be a dumbass ;<

i mean... i DO have friends but theyre all in a grade above me... so i mainly only get to text them. it kinda sucks.

maybe if anyone actually reads this uuhhmm i would appreciate any advice on how to make new friends? and or be less awkward and comfortable with myself...

im not super pretty, nor talented. im pretty average same goes for intelligency. BUT-
i have gotten the compliment of that im funny and nice more than once! so thats good right?

i think so

i just wish i didnt have trust issues after an incident that basically made me lose like 70% of my friends ...

it wasnt my fault. and she really tried to be all like "i forgive you ahaha lets be friends again" ... like girl WHAT bitch you have to wait until i forgive you

n e ways shes dumb and shes probably one of the main reasons i have problems trying to become friends with a new person. im scared it will happen again. like.... terrified.

its also a reason im mortified of going back to highschool.... i just want to rot in my room

yet again i had a breakdown i guess and i ugly cried and honestly i felt a little bit better but im fucking tired of being sad all the god damn time.

ugh i gtg so ill end it here, bye loves. stream epiphany!!