Depression. || Jungkook

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Y/N's POV

After jungkook left..... I felt lonely and... Empty.
I like having him around. But when I push him away, I regret it and hate myself for it.
But I do that so i dont get hurt again... Like last time. With my last relationship...

A tear drops from my cheek, onto my hand...
I stare at the tear...
And start sobbing.

Dont you hate yourself for being lonely. But your the reason for it.
Because you push everyone away?

I took a bath... And think about everything that is wrong with me. I closed my eyes and cried to myself silently.....

I woke up by my phone alarm.
I was the the bathtub. The water got extremely cold.
I quickly got out and grabbed my phone.

I went to my room and got ready for school.
Something caught my eye. Something purple.
It was the bruises on my stomach...
I looked in the mirror.
I was disgusted by what I saw.

My whole torso was mostly purple and red.

I put on my clothes. Jeans, shirt, and a hoody. I placed the hoody on my head and went to school.

Jungkook sat with me in class.
We decided to partner up for an essay.
And skipped lunch just to start early.
We sat on the large steps for sitting. And I began writting the first paragraph.

I tried to ignore Jungkook's stares on me. He smiled as he did so.

"S-so. Just make the next paragraph about 7 sentences. And about when and how he explored the world." I inform jungkook

He continues staring at me then snapped out of la la land.
He took the pen out of my hand and thought about what he was going to write, then wrote it.

"Is that good?" He shows me.

"Oh! Y-yeah. But you forgot a period there..."

"Oh..." He slightly chuckles and puts the period down.

"Oppa!" A girl shouted.

Instead of looking at the person, he looked straight at me.

"S-someone's calling you..."

"Shh. Just ignore it and look back at me." He says

I he comes closer to my face and stares into my eyes.
He gets closer and closer untill our foreheads touch.
We both chuckle as we look at each other.

"Alright jungkook! I need to right the next paragraph." I said chuckling.

"Haha. Okay..." He responds

We finished half of our essay and leave the rest for another time.

"Hey. Y-you wanna come over to finish the essay?" I ask him.

I didn't really want him to. But when he is around, i feel good. I dont feel alone, I don't feel empty. I feel...
Loved?

"Yeah. Yeah I'll come."

We went to my apartment and into my room.
We finished our essay on my bed and I began to feel really tired.

Me and jungkook fall back, laying down.
Our eyes got heavier and heavier.
He drifted to dream land.
As I drift back to old memories. I always hated my dreams filled with sorrow...